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KatScorp
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Date Posted: 00:08:11 09/12/02 Thu
In reply to:
Shannen
's message, "9/11" on 16:06:22 09/10/02 Tue
This may sound terrible but the 9/11 attacks saved my life! I've been battling untreated autism and possible shcizophrenia since I was a child and to top it off... an anxiety disorder which means I have panic attacks almost everday. They're horrilble. Your chest hurts, you can't breath, your back and stomach cramps, get blurry vision.. it goes on and leaves you a wreck and exhausted.
In Western Australia we are 7 hours ahead of the G.M.T. So the attackes began at our 9:30 pm. After one of the worst weeks of my life something clicked and I fell apart. I was in the process of suicide when I turned on my VCR and it changed the channel on the TV from ch10 to ch2, the latter of which was showing the CNN coverage in New York. They were showing the towers and then the screen changed to show a person jumping to their death. Suddenly, despite everything in my life... I wanted to live and made it through the night, fighting a handful of tablets and a bottle of vodka.
Nothing really positive has happened for me this year since.... things are still bad but I'm fighting. And I guess that's the important part. So last night meant a lot more to me that the terrorist attacks. It meant another chance.
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