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Jenny
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Date Posted: 14:01:15 10/07/04 Thu
In reply to:
Miss N Jackson
's message, "Heroin addiction" on 18:01:10 01/31/03 Fri
I am a recovering addict it's been over a year.
I have seen overdoses
Abcesses
Cotton fever
banged my head against a wall until it was bloody in the mad throws of withdrawl
Stolen,cheated lied,cried,begged,worked at those special massage parlors and even ripped them off.
Sent my dad into double bankruptsy,my husbands dad into bankruptsy,lost everything I own to pawn shops,lost cars,houses,all the while making my mexican dealer a millionaire.
Then on 9/11/04 when were just about to have a life off of drugs for the first time in 10 years, my husband od's on me and layed in the bathroom for 8 hours dead at age 32.
Now I get to go to a grave to visit the love of my life.
I hate heroin, They say every junkie is like the setting sun.I say never trust a junkie.I dont even trust myself.My bladder is damaged and my left ovary shut down to where i only produce a single egg every other month if I am lucky.
I love it and loathe it.
Even the most experienced users die from overdose.BELIEVE IT
I dont know why I was saved or why I am here
Probobly to endure the pain I caused others on my mad junkie rampage of sefishness and destruction.
I have scars on my arms and even my butt from abcesses.How would you like to pass out from hitting a artery instead of a collapsed vein or ooze rotten smelling puss for days fron a hole the size of your fist.Yes it's nasty but it's REAL and can happen to anyone.
Pretty wild for a college graduate that was a virgin until I got married at 19. Now I am left here alone with my memories and sometimes I wish I would just go score and do one big blast one last time and join my love until my next life.
I have suffered immense pain,trauma,nightmares,depression,bad karma,and a death now.
My very good friend nancy--layne staleys mother---and my father are the only reason I dont just drift away one last time.
Take heed all please dont mess with the needle or a spoon.
Signed-
Scarred forever
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