| Subject: Re: I need help with my PhD research...please! |
Author:
Chris
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Date Posted: 23:56:21 11/19/03 Wed
In reply to:
Natalie
's message, "I need help with my PhD research...please!" on 00:38:36 03/20/03 Thu
I started off using oxycontin about two years ago. My best friend is a big time dealer and we have know each other since we were six. I don't make that much money so he would front me stuff all the time. I owe him about 2500 dollars. He stopped selly oxy and sells herion. I have been using for a few months now and need to stop. I feel I am not my self. I am doing things that make me feel terrible. I steal money from my own brother and parents to support my habit. I know its wrong but gettin high seems to justify it. The other night I wanted to prove to my self I can quit so bad I took a razor blade and made a gash on my left shoulder to remind me of how awful I feel. Sadly to say I don't know if this will stop me. I waiste my time and money and feel i am lettin everyone down. I want to be strong. My addiction is a secret to most. I pray to god to give me the strength to move on but I think i will only be young once, have fun now right?! My bank acount is empty and priorities are backwards. I know I can quit on my own. I have gone 24 hours. I have quit for a week or two before but if i do it even once after that, I fall back into the blackhole. If you have never tried heroin, don't. It is not worth it. You will lose your self and your dreams.
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