Date Posted:01:11:06 11/09/07 Fri Author: suicidal (i am here this close..) Subject: died of sleepless boredom
I can almost hear the bullet go through my brain
I can hear the shot, see the blood and feel the pain
I hate myself in 10 ways
I hate myself in ways I didn't know
I would give anything to die right now
I would make love to the man that shot me
I want to die more than I ever thought before
I want to die and take every bit of every memory of me. vanish. disappear.
no tears, no loss, no funerals
just travel into nothing
knowing nothing, feeling nothing, wishing nothing, into pure nothing at the bottom of great blue seas of nothing..
I'll stand there
I am nothing.