Date Posted:12:39:41 05/11/08 Sun Author: John Subject: Re: re john's message In reply to:
j.murphy
's message, "re john's message" on 01:11:00 05/04/08 Sun
Thank you for posting. Man, I'm in tears. Apparently more people outlive their cancer than they do an addiction. My life changed forever the day I met heroin, as I guess yours did. I've come off gear now for over a year and am clean of methadone for a few weeks, but I'm already planning to go back on it again because this [life] is rubbish and I'm just existing. At least with methadone I was existing and not noticing. Now I smell everything, taste everything and feel everything and it stings all my senses like bleach. I say this to you not so that you feel sorry for me, but so you might understand that and addict will never be the person they once were. Thank you
John