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>Strange wasn't it the amount of poverty we all lived >in, 3 to a room, sometimes more, old broken furniture, >even a few months ago the furniture was of at least >seventies vintage, the constant grinding poverty >really got you down. > >I remember seeing an old pair of army boots, left to >rot after a days work, covered in mud, and thinking, >shows how the wearer was so exhausted after a days >work after yet another night of worship and prayer, >that he couldn't even rinse his boots off. > >I remember chopping wood, as no one else seemed to >have the strength left to do it, and of people up till >midnight, fervently praying, madness. > >The food was the same in every house, coming from >central stores, a lot of food being grown by the ja, >and no real cuts of meat at times, even the marmite >was a special ja brand, goodness foods I think. > >I remember the joy when I sourced a new toaster, it >was second hand, from a skip, they cost about a fiver >at the time. > >I did have some peaceful times as well, and the houses >had a different atmosphere there, I guess you could >call it home, as I'd never had a proper home before >the ja, and going back was like going home >in a perverse way, I shouldn't have gone back, as I >created my own home, and life, but you know how it's >is, no place like home etc. > >I know the ja would never let me back anyways, as they >know who i am, and no doubt have seen my posts here, >and the few people I was in touch with now don't >return my calls or texts. > >That feeling if home and belonging and love is what >attracts most people to them, but its a false sense of >security, and you end up being spiritually abused, >cunts. > >There are lost people out there, but the ja isn't the >answer, in the end the ja screws them up and chucks >them out, the answer is for people to confront their >problems, and create a life for themselves > >Most of the ja members would have been fine without >the ja, and some better off without them > >Our revenge is being happy, successful and being good >people, and trying to be happy, and talking of our >issues on a forum like this.
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