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>What you've written is a really good description of >how it happens and how we let ourselves get conned - >in my opinion by people who do not know they are >conning us in the first place coz they have been >conned themselves. >Mind games. > > >>I know, but I think what controlled me was not Mick's >>prayer (and therefore, not God) but Micks's revelation >>to me that he was praying. >> >>Ultimately, it was Mick's power over my life, not his >>actual influence with God, which made me give in on >>this. >> >>I didn't THEN feel (any more than I would now) that >>Mick COULD make God do something bad. But Mick >>wouldn't have believed he was asking God for something >>bad. He would have convinced me that God Himself had >>layed this on his heart and that God wanted me to >>fail......since that was the only way to convince me >>that I was going a "worldly" way in my life. >> >>The fact is that when I joined, it was not for life, >>but just for the period that I was to be at college in >>Coventry. Mick had led me to believe that this would >>be ok....and I had believed him. Once I was a member, >>I realised that people are always allowed to think >>whatever they want....while all along, the elders have >>other plans. >> >>Even as I approached baptism, I still didn't grasp >>that the covenant was for LIFE. I knew this was the >>implication for others doing baptism teaching, but I >>still believed that Mick was being straight with me. >>Probably everyone there thought he was a special case, >>one way or the other. I wonder how many of us really >>believed that they really were there for life. >> >>Only when I was recieved into covenat, did the full >>implication crash in on me and I had a real crisis. I >>knew that I had committed to the fellowship, >>irrevocably. Mick said that everyone goes through such >>a crisis after baptism. He said that they call it the >>dark night of the soul. So, maybe everyone else felt >>as trapped as I did. >> >>I am not saying that I didn't understand the theory >>and I still accept personal responsibility for my >>actions, but I felt intellectually fooled and that I >>had been swept along by something I hadn't really >>understood emotionally or spiritually. >> >>My submission to Mick on the issue of going to college >>(a month or so after baptism) was nothing to do with >>superstition. It was all to do with psychology....and >>you are right when you call that control freakery. >> >>This is the man who Noel Stanton has chosen to succeed >>him.
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