You ask, "what am I doing?" - You are mourning. Mourning is a painful but necessary process after a loss. Not only have you lost a relationship that was important to you, you have lost your job, and a child (it doesn't matter how that came about). Any single one of those is difficult enough, but all at once is overwhelming, of course!
It's critical that you do NOT get stuck in this mournful state, but that you find your way through it - in a healthy way. It would be a great time for you to start journaling your emotions - let them flow and get them out.
It would also be of benefit to find a post-abortion group - many pregnancy centers offer FREE post abortion couseling. I urge you to look one up near you and call them and GO -
Grieving a loss is critical to recovery - allowing yourself to grieve in a healthy way is so important - not only for you, but also for the son you have with you now. For his sake, don't just give up - hang tough - fight for your happiness and health.
Date Posted:13:19:10 01/28/08 Mon
I know you feel terrible, I felt the same way last year afer mine. I felt as if I was beneath human. I will tell you I cried for a while and it did get better. I have a 7yr old so I concentrated on making things better for his sake being that he didn't understand. Think about your older child and their future. It's ok to get it out of your system while getting back to being you... an "incredible mom". To move on with my 7yr old, I kept telling myself, if I don't get my life back especially for my son then it was all for nothing. Hope this helps. I'll keep you in my prayers.
