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Subject: My Terrible Mistake


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Amanda
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Date Posted: 00:03:10 03/07/09 Sat

My name is Amanda and I am 29 years old. I never really thought about having children one way or the other. I have always just thought that because I have never gotten pregnant because I never did. Not until a month or so ago. I have been with the man that I am seeing for almost 2 years and we have never used protection. Then it happened. I got pregnant and I really didnt know how to feel about it. I cant realy go into grerat detail about the circimstances nut we decided to have an abortion and the appointment was scheduled 5 days after I found out I was pregnant. I was fine during the whole procedure but a couple days afterward I started feeling so empty, and am still currently experiencing the worst depression I have ever dealt with. I guess I didnt realize until it was too late that I wanted that baby and all I can think about is that I made a mistake and I want it back. My first child, a child I never evn thought i would have is gone at my own hands. I asm looking for any kind of help at all in dealing with this, so please, if anyone reads this that can help or relate, please respond. This is something that i am feeling incredibly guilty and regretful about, and i really dont know how to deal with this. i dont know if i can ever forgive myself for what ive done and will think about that child every day for the rest of my life

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Diane Cheryl
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Date Posted: 23:07:33 03/11/09 Wed

Hi Amanda,

I wrote you a few days ago and can't find your email. Can you please email me again at CHERYL51@aol.com so I can send you some links for post abortion healing information. Write soon!

Diane Cheryl

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[> Subject: Re: My Terrible Mistake


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Div
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Date Posted: 20:04:58 04/12/09 Sun

I understand how you feel. It's what I'm going through right now. In some ways seeing that someone else is going through the same thing, well, it makes me feel less alone. I'm 26, but honestly, at my age with my education I could've kept the baby. My mom hated the guy it was with and the guy didn't want to be with me and me? Well, I had no idea what to do, so I listened to them both and told them "oh, I just don't want to be pregnant in law school." Now I resent the both of them, though I love them both VERY MUCH and just eel the need to put on a happy face, though every night I think about what my baby's laugh might've been like and I cry myself to sleep and hold the area that he was in. I feel so awful. I cry about it a LOT and am considering taking "happy pills" or something. I feel like I don't deserve another child. I'm sorry to make this about me, I just needed to put this out in the cosmos somewhere. I haven't told anybody how upset I am and I think the father might be calling any minute, so I better put that happy face back on.

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