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Date Posted: 10:29:42 06/29/07 Fri
The good thing about seeing the therapist is that maybe he can help your mom and dad see that they are the reason you need anti-depressents and they will get the help they need to heal from their own problems.
I came from a very dysfunctional family - my Mom was abused sexually as a child, and also had a bd farm accident that left her crippled on one side. She carries a lot of baggage from those things, feeling unloved, unwanted and all. My dad was raised in WWII Germany and was even forced as a child to be in "Hitler's Youth" - so he is totally messed up from those things and turned to alchohol to numb his pain. They never really "raised" me and my sister. I was the "mom" to my younger sister and even the "parent" to my parents. At 17, I got pregnant - and so I know how scary that is.
I just want you to know that in spite of who your parents are, you do make your own choices and you can choose to heal and move on and get healthy in mind, body and spirit, or you can wallow in the misery of it all and continue the cycle your parents have set up.
I did not get along with my parents either at your age - and I ended up married and moving 1,000 miles away at 18. It really was the best thing for me - hard - but better than all I had going on at home.
I'm not saying you need to do that - I'm just saying - I think I can understand where you are coming from.
The main thing that "saved" me was that I started going to church with my boyfriend/fiance/husband. I had to turn to God to get me through it all and I still always turn to God in hard times.
Life is not easy, and we all have to realize there is a higher power at work that will guide us and love us through the worst of times. I believe that higher power to be the One True God - I hope you can find a solid church setting and start going with your fiance. Your parents can't get mad about that kind of "date" -
Again, you can email me directly and we can "talk" more like this if you want to.
Hang in there sweetie!