Subject: Re: i think im in love with my best friend but im straight!
Author: nins
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] Date Posted:14:52:08 01/08/06 Sun In reply to:
alwan
's message, "Re: i think im in love with my best friend but im straight!" on 06:13:09 02/24/04 Tue
Hey, well yeah, its a terrible situation to be in. It was 4 years ago and me and my beast mate got really drunk and ended up kissing. The next nite things went further. He were like this for about 3 years and it was horrible. I loved being with her but she just put it down to us having a fling. she had a boyfriend at the time and it used to kill me seeing them 2gether. anyway, we were living together when the whole situation got out of hand and we had a huge argument and she moved out. We didnt speak to eachother for a year. It killed me at first. I was broken hearted and really depressed. oddly enough, about 4 months ago we met eachother as friends again. we didnt want to lose eachother again and I never thought we would end up kissing again as I thought it would spoil everything. we did end up kissing again, and she admited she loved me, and always did. she was just scared. I love her too...the only thing is, she wont go out with me as I am a girl and she thinks its wrong!!! so, yeah, some things in life are just messed up!!!
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Date Posted:16:46:13 02/27/06 Mon
Hey! i was looking for answers about my life when i saw that you was going through the same thing i am. I am straight but i am in love with my best friend too. but i'm only 15 so.me and her are like sister's we are always hugging and people are starting to think that is wierd. See but if she ever knew i loved her; she would never talk to me b/c she has asked me if i was gay alot of times and i can tell her no cause i aint but i am so in love with her that it drives me insane. I tell her i love her and she tells me she loves me too and that suckes even more cause if she ever knew how much i cared about her. And listen at this one time when we were drinking i stayed the night with her and she was like all over me and saying she loved me and all of this stuff then the next day she acted like she didnt remember.i dont know if that was true but the funny thing is i am friends with her boy friend at the time and i was talking to him on the phone and then she kissed me and thats how this all started.her boyfriend knew it happened and at the time i had a boyfriend.lol then three days later she told me her life was better without me and then me and her boyfriend told her what happened. We stoped being friends for like 2 weeks but i would still text her. I couldnt even eat and i would cry all night. See she tells me she hates gay people but she has alot of friends that are gay and i dont get exactly what is going on with them. Well now we are best friends again. I know if i tell her i really love her that she wont be my friend cuz she said if i was gay she wouldnt be my friend. She gives me so many reasons to think she loves me but i think she is afraid so she hides it. I think even if she loves me that she wouldnt be with me b/c of her family. I am trying so hard to just hold on to our friendship. i mean i knew i was in love with her from the first time i saw her and it freaked me out at first. I am hoping that these feelings will go away but now i know they aint going to so i will hide them from her just so i can be friends with her. i think you should tell her i mean its better than living with it all the time. When i am out of school i will probly tell her the truth. I think she already knows and just dont want to believe it. Now we are both single so and Josh her x boyfriend now is trying to ruin our friendship she broke up with him cuz he would lie to everyone and even told her parents i was gay and they hated me. Thats half the reason she broke up with him. She told me after she broke up with him that she told her family that she would rather have me...as a friend.then to have him as a boyfriend. but what i dont get is its like they are still dating cuz they are always with eachother and fighting, but i am with her most of the time she says he invited himself to hang out with her but i cant ever get time alone with her anymore and she doesnt talk about me spending the night with her again cuz of what happened the last time, i dont think she trusts me. well i guess you are tired of hearing my story but i would like it if you would send me an e-mail so we can help eachother figure out what to do
