Subject: Re: i think im in love with my best friend but im straight!
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] Date Posted:16:29:42 11/18/04 Thu In reply to:
Kate
's message, "Re: i think im in love with my best friend but im straight!" on 12:56:43 05/05/04 Wed
this is so crazy. ive recently discovred that im in love with my best friend. shes perfect. im not gay though. like, when she touches me, even just on the arm or while walking with her, my stomach turns to knots and i feel like exploding. i love her so much. for everything she is and is not. i love her faults and her strengths. i love the way she smiles and tells me everything and lets me tell her everything in return. shes mostly straight. and has a serious boyfriend. and shes in love with him and told me shes going to marry him. im happy for her but at the same time, jealous. i want to belong to her and her me. ive never felt this way about anyone. ever. i think about sex with other girls and i find it weird and awkward for me because im straight but when i think about it with HER, it feels right. i cant explain it. i think if i told her how i felt, she would understand. shes questionable. but i know i can never have her. i also dont want to jeapordize our close friendship. im afriad if i DO tell her, we'll never be the same if she clearly doesnt feel the same way. im so confused. and it feels good to know there are other people who feel like i do. god, this girl is beautiful. sometimes, in the way she hugs me so tight, i wonder if maybe she knows.
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>>I am so confused. I really would appreciate someone
>>talkin to me, cause i cant talk to anyone i personally
>>know about this subject. I am 18 years old, female,
>>and i always assumed i was straight. I was attracted
>>to guys and all that..had bfs and im attracted to
>>them. But i also have a best friend, this girl..she's
>>straight, has had TONS of boyfriends, and the thing is
>>we're VERY VERY CLOSE.like sisters. We're so close
>>that I cant hide anythin from her. But theres one
>>thing she doesnt know, is that im madly in love with
>>her. Or so I think! We talk for hours, spend time
>>together, and everytime shes talking to me i think
>>about kissing her and hugging her and holding her. I
>>want to take away all her pain, when she tells me shes
>>in pain, when her boyfriend hurts her. When she
>>touches me, i feel something tingles, i feel like im
>>holding myself back from touching her. I dont want to
>>ever lose her, shes my only true best friend. ANd i do
>>know that she would freak out if i told her this, she
>>would walk away. shes the type who would just walk
>>away without explaining, because shes afraid of pain
>>and hurting herself and others. we;re so close, that
>>its getting to be really hard to be with her , around
>>her, when i have these feelings. i feel like im lying
>>to her , like im guilty..she keeps telling me that i
>>hide things from her, that im not an open book, i
>>laugh and say ofcourse not. but the subject of
>>lesbians and bis doesnt appeal to her, at times when
>>the subject is brought up when we are with other
>>friends..she says that its disgusting to be attracted
>>to the same sex. When i heard that, it killed, cause i
>>hated myself for being "disgusting" in her eyes. Or if
>>i ever WAS disgusting,if she ever found out. I dont
>>know wat to do, im not even sure if i like her that
>>way..I am straight but shes the only girl ..i mean the
>>only PERSOn..thats ever made me feel this way. It
>>scares me. I dont know wat to do about it..and I dont
>>even know if havin these thoughts and feelings about
>>her means i love her..PLEASE HElP by atleast tellin me
>>wat u think..I really need help..i need ppl who wont
>>judge harshly.
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Date Posted:01:02:44 02/08/05 Tue
Wow, i know you posted this message last year in january, but i just happen to bump into it right now, and i just want to tell you that i'm going through the same thing with a friend of mines, we're not best friends or anything, we didn't get there, cuz she thinks that imma backstab her or something, when im not, i like her a lot, i've come to think that im in love with her, cuz we already did things, and we got into a little argument, it's been 5 months since we haven't really spoken, and i miss her like crazy, i haven't stopped thinking about her not once, and that just can't be a simple attraction, so i understand what you're going through, or went through, it sucks man, but this girl she really is BEAUTIFUL!!!! to the 10th power, but now she's avoiding me at all costs cuz i wrote her a letter telling her that i cared for her, but i know she feels the same, we have this spiritual connection that is very powerful and it's why i feel she feels the same, I think that someone said that by her saying that it's disgusting or whatever that she might be dealing with something similar, not every time we say things we really mean it, we just try to go against that, to convince people, but there's many ways you can find out how she really feels, or if she really is disgusted by all that, which i highly doubt it, we're not stupid we can tell when some one is into us, you might think your playing it out, but she might of notice how you feel towards her, and i guess she doesn't know how to cope with that, or might not know what to say or to tell you that she knows how you feel, and she might just be confused herself, try making her open upm to a little more, just mention that liking someone or doing something from the same sex doesn't have to be disgusting, it's just a feeling you have towards another person, caring for someone it's not a crime. At least you get to speak with her, but this girl is trippin big time, i wish i can get to talk to her like that on a regular basis i would just tell her straigh out, but eventually she'll come around.... hope i help a little, i need help myself! LOL!!!!! Good luck
Date Posted:11:14:14 05/13/06 Sat
>this is so crazy. ive recently discovred that im in
>love with my best friend. shes perfect. im not gay
>though. like, when she touches me, even just on the
>arm or while walking with her, my stomach turns to
>knots and i feel like exploding. i love her so much.
>for everything she is and is not. i love her faults
>and her strengths. i love the way she smiles and tells
>me everything and lets me tell her everything in
>return. shes mostly straight. and has a serious
>boyfriend. and shes in love with him and told me shes
>going to marry him. im happy for her but at the same
>time, jealous. i want to belong to her and her me. ive
>never felt this way about anyone. ever. i think about
>sex with other girls and i find it weird and awkward
>for me because im straight but when i think about it
>with HER, it feels right. i cant explain it. i think
>if i told her how i felt, she would understand. shes
>questionable. but i know i can never have her. i also
>dont want to jeapordize our close friendship. im
>afriad if i DO tell her, we'll never be the same if
>she clearly doesnt feel the same way. im so confused.
>and it feels good to know there are other people who
>feel like i do. god, this girl is beautiful.
>sometimes, in the way she hugs me so tight, i wonder
>if maybe she knows.
>
>>
>>>I am so confused. I really would appreciate someone
>>>talkin to me, cause i cant talk to anyone i
>personally
>>>know about this subject. I am 18 years old, female,
>>>and i always assumed i was straight. I was attracted
>>>to guys and all that..had bfs and im attracted to
>>>them. But i also have a best friend, this girl..she's
>>>straight, has had TONS of boyfriends, and the thing
>is
>>>we're VERY VERY CLOSE.like sisters. We're so close
>>>that I cant hide anythin from her. But theres one
>>>thing she doesnt know, is that im madly in love with
>>>her. Or so I think! We talk for hours, spend time
>>>together, and everytime shes talking to me i think
>>>about kissing her and hugging her and holding her. I
>>>want to take away all her pain, when she tells me
>shes
>>>in pain, when her boyfriend hurts her. When she
>>>touches me, i feel something tingles, i feel like im
>>>holding myself back from touching her. I dont want to
>>>ever lose her, shes my only true best friend. ANd i
>do
>>>know that she would freak out if i told her this, she
>>>would walk away. shes the type who would just walk
>>>away without explaining, because shes afraid of pain
>>>and hurting herself and others. we;re so close, that
>>>its getting to be really hard to be with her , around
>>>her, when i have these feelings. i feel like im lying
>>>to her , like im guilty..she keeps telling me that i
>>>hide things from her, that im not an open book, i
>>>laugh and say ofcourse not. but the subject of
>>>lesbians and bis doesnt appeal to her, at times when
>>>the subject is brought up when we are with other
>>>friends..she says that its disgusting to be attracted
>>>to the same sex. When i heard that, it killed, cause
>i
>>>hated myself for being "disgusting" in her eyes. Or
>if
>>>i ever WAS disgusting,if she ever found out. I dont
>>>know wat to do, im not even sure if i like her that
>>>way..I am straight but shes the only girl ..i mean
>the
>>>only PERSOn..thats ever made me feel this way. It
>>>scares me. I dont know wat to do about it..and I dont
>>>even know if havin these thoughts and feelings about
>>>her means i love her..PLEASE HElP by atleast tellin
>me
>>>wat u think..I really need help..i need ppl who wont
>>>judge harshly.
i don't think that you are gay or attracted to girls at all. maybe it's just that you have found a true friend you know those friends that you hear about on t.v. and loving someone doesn't mean that you are in love with them i love all of my close friends and can't do without them but im not gay either. so in short if you know your not gay then feeling protective over your friend is fine don't let it bother you and if your religious then just pray about it but im sure this is perfectly normal
