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Date Posted: 09:33:56 07/10/08 Thu
Author: Shannon Duke (Hurt & Angry)
Subject: Loving Memory: Jesse Earl Duke 06.23.08

I am 32 and lost my father on 06.23.08 to a gun shoot in the head - suicide. I am in pain and angry at the Vietnam war. I may not have fought the war but I felt his pain, his anger, his depression, isolation, sickness with AO and other illnesses. When I was a little girl he would get so angry and his eyes would glaze over, he would get in a tackle position and run after us and beat us until he came back to reality. He was not there – he was in Vietnam all over again. I was called a mother-fucker if I complained about anything: “You mother fuckers do not know how good you have it. You do not know what starvation is or having to do with-out.” I realized as a small child that my Dad would just go nuts and it was not his fault; that he did not mean it. I was able to forgive him at a very early age. I have heard countless stories of the jungles and how 7 year old children would shoot at the soldiers. It was kill or be killed. SV camps being bombed and raided by NV. Pictures of starving children, pictures of my Dad starving. I felt his pain and remorse in my heart, it would run through my body and my heart just bleeds. Now he is gone. I accept that he did not want to feel the pain anymore…but I am still here and I still feel the pain. I know I am not alone. Please write to me because I feel alone.

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