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Date Posted: 14:56:25 06/06/02 Thu
Author: Crystal...the real me..
Subject: Wow....
In reply to: Bunny 's message, "Game Is Over" on 12:55:42 06/06/02 Thu

It only lasts a while.. I will admit.. I got REALLY carried away this time...My friends and I get REALLY bored.. and we do this sometimes.. BUT!!! I have to say that this is the furthest it has ever gone. Yes, I know that it doesn't make it right or change the fact of what happened. I know that. Even a really good friend of mine was like.. man.. u need to stop. So, I told everyone that I was "hiding" for a while. I was thinking about it the other day after I talked to Liz. I was like.. ok.. this is just wrong. I haven't been online in a day or so because I knew the "busting" was coming. I must say though...damn impresive job on busting.

By the way...Some things that are true (whether you believe them or not). I did lose a baby...I did lose my grandfather...I did at one point in time sell Merch for groups...I did lose my job (at local concert venues)..and I am sorry that it got like this..

I knew it was going too far as soon as I took on the "persona" of Lara-Beth Sampe...I knew that was crazy..and at the same time I was like.. well. If I turn back now.. I am gonna lose all these people as friends..but I ended up doing that anyway. I guess somewhere in my mind, I could get myself out of all this and we would all live happily ever after..but I guess that was my damned imagination again.

I was just gonna play around at first..but then.. it just got to be..I dunno..It was at the point where I was just sucked into it. I wasn't thinking about what I was doing or how I was hurting people...I just wasn't thinking. For that.. I am truely sorry.

I know this is going to sound very wrong, but out of the 3 times in my life.. I have ever..how can I say this.. well.. POSED..(that's what it is)..I have never made friends like you all. EVER. It just sucks that I didn't stay up front and honest through all this. I am really sorry.

You want the real truth?

I am a 24 year old former employee of local concert venues here in Cincinnati, Ohio. I did go to Florida there for a while, but it was just an extended vacation and to check out some schools. I live with my room mate, Amy and her 5 year old daughter Kaitlynn. That is my life....nothing more.. nothing less..

No, I can't give you a reason on why I did this. Like I said..it starts out as just havin fun and usually ends within a month.. and nothing huge happens..This time.. I dunno what happened to me..


As far as the "email" addresses and screen names.. I honestly cannot tell ya who that is. Except for the "Lance" one..that is my friend Melissa. I swear to God and on my room mate's daughter's life. Those are just emails I have come accross and just started talkin to. I have no idea. I can tell ya that they aren't the guys though..they wouldn't have went a long with any of this.

So, there it is...honesty..I could have kept lying.. but for once.. I chose not to. Beleive it or not..I do care enough about all of you to tell you all of this. If I never hear from you all again, I will understand. Although..I would like a second chance ....so you can get to know..me. But I will understand if you don't want to give me one.

Again..I am TRUELY sorry.

I am putting my email address on here so you can email me all the hate mail ya want.

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