Date Posted:01:24:31 03/16/08 Sun Author: Allinduetime Subject: The Story of Me and Him
The Story of Me and Him
We were good friends at first, just friends nothing more. No intentions of anything further, we just enjoyed each others company. Strange how in time things can change, how one small spark can ignite a fire. Than it all becomes clear, well, until the confusion catches up.
I hadnt seen him in three weeks; his parents had decided we had become too close, therefore wanting to separate us for a while. It was only meant to be a week. However I was so insulted it took me a couple more weeks just to weigh down the anger built up inside of the accusations that were being insinuated towards me. I mean, all I heard was You two are getting too close. And that was it. Bad! I thought it was utter bull shit. We were only friends, and I couldnt fathom anything more. I could however see there cause for concern. There was an age gap, me being 17 when we became friends and him 10. I dont know what it was exactly. His joy for life, the stupid little things like catching butterflies, or building castles out of twigs. I just wanted fun. And everyone my age were all thug wanna bees and idiots. I had been given that boot a few times before, but I just bit my tongue and buried the anger, and went back. Stupid huh.
His name is Adrian, and mine is Jared. Hes thirteen now, and me twenty. Hell be fourteen in a few months, and already talking about it. Hes always done that; his birthday is everything to him. Hes always thinking of a bigger better party. Hehe, Im steering off there. It was just after the New Year, when he finally called me back over, and I could no longer deny him. Burying my self pity or whatever it was, got on my shoes and made the venture a whole half block away to his house.
When I arrived, there was no one there besides his baby sister, well she was five. But she did act like a baby. I took off my shoes, and hung up my jacket. Walking downstairs towards his room where he usually is. However this time, I heard him on the other side and turned my self around and walked the other way towards the computer. The carpet was wet; his mom must have just washed it again. She was obsessed with her new vacuum. I sped up and hopped off the soggy carpet and onto the concrete of the basement in between the bathroom and the freezer. Just than; a blur passed my eyes and something had jumped on me.
It was Adrian. He had jumped off the freezer and into my arms at the speed of light. He held me tightly against him, with his arms and legs wrapped around me like a koala. His head rested on my shoulder, and his hair in my face. It smelt like the shampoo I got him when we were at the mall last month. I still dont know why he wanted me to buy him that. But it smelt good anyway. As I breathed in the scent, and felt him against me, I felt my chest raise to generate a subtle ache. It didnt hurt exactly, it actually felt good. Something I had never felt before. I wrapped my arms around the skinny teens torso and returned the hug. It felt so good. Just than he lifted his head back to look me in the eye, than before I could even look back, he placed a quick shy kiss against my lips.
I was startled at first, but didnt quite react. I didnt know how really. Than he smiled at me, a cute awkward smile. Than returned his head to my shoulder for a moment before climbing down.
I missed you. He said looking in my eyes, and bouncing backwards a few steps.
I missed you too buddy, where is everyone? I questioned.
My Dads working at the bingo, and my brother took off somewhere.
Oh, is it alright that Im here? I mean, they dont trust me remember. I attempted to get it out as a joke, but failed miserably.
They trust you. It wasnt even because of us. My parents got in a big fight, than my dad ended up going on a huge binge at the bar forever. My mom just didnt want everyone over. He explained, which made me angry all over again.
So Why the hell didnt she just say that? How come she had to pull that crap on us again!? God! Ive been miserable forever. I semi whined.
I dont know, shes fucked in the head sometimes.
Hey watch the language! I snapped with a smile.
Sorry! Hehe. He replied covering his mouth.
As we caught up, and filled each other in on the events of the last few weeks, I found myself thinking of that hug that Adrian gave me, and that Kiss! I mean, what brought that on? Most other families I wouldnt think anything else of it, but, Adrians family was crazy homophobic. Its just not something you do. Guys dont touch other guys unless youre beating the snot out of them. Geeze, how did I get myself in here? I found myself looking into Adrians eyes, they were amazing. A light hazel color; with different shades of green and brown dancing in small diamonds which wrapped around his pupil. He was definitely growing up. And for the first time, I found him attractive. Before, he was cute. Now, wow! What happened? He looked closer to 15 especially in height, he was already as tall as me. Not that thats saying much Im 58 Everything he was wearing were things I had bought him, which wasnt hard since most the clothes he owns I bought for him. His parents just conveniently forget to take him out shopping every time they said they will. So, I took it in my hands to do it. I think it was intentional because they new I would do it.
I couldnt seem to keep my eyes off of him that day, just everything about him seemed different to me. He was skinny, maybe a little under weight, but he was well distributed, which only made his weight a plus. His actions were so vibrant, when he spoke he used his entire body to act out what he was saying. When he moved topics he would sit back down, next to me on the couch. Every time he did so, he would always seem to get closer. His touch would become less subtle, and more prolonged. They would be gentle and shy at first, than gradually become comfortable. He would rest his hand on my me, even when the position of how he was sitting made it awkward for him. I found my self overwhelmed and puzzled with the sudden feelings I had, but couldnt break myself from them.
What confused me most of all, was; he never seemed to do this before. Either that or I was just too blind to notice. Sometimes I can be quite dismissive. But today, every touch seemed to be deliberate, like he was making excuses to touch me, or even brush up against me. We were sitting on a couch facing away from the computer in the basement. Against the wall facing the couch was an old television. We ended up watching some movie, I cant even remember what it was anymore. It didnt matter though, for the first time in a long time I felt comfortable there. Adrian was definitely into the movie; he stopped talking completely and was snuggled up against my side. He had draped my arm around his shoulder, and my hand rested on his hip. This too was new to me, I didnt know what to do. If I moved my hand, he might become offended. But if I didnt move my hand what did this mean? Was I making a pass at him? Was I somehow perving on him? I couldnt decide if this was wrong or not. Regardless, I couldnt force my hand away, even if I wanted too. It was like it was made of iron, too heavy for me to lift. Every now and than he would grab my arm while laughing than bury his face in my side. He would than stop laughing briefly, and I could feel him breathing in deeply. After which he would look up at me and smile, than lower his head back to its original position.
Over the next few weeks, Adrian continued this strange behavior towards me. Every time no one else was home, he would come up with excuses to sit next to me. Sometimes there wouldnt even be an excuse; he would just do it out of the blue. With every action, I found myself less willing to stop it. I had become custom to it; in fact awaited it. I couldnt get enough of that feeling it gave me inside. I was greedy I wanted more. We watched a lot of movies, and he was always next to me. However now, he was less sneaky with everything. It was just something that was expected. And he felt no shame towards it. The question still remained, why all of a sudden the interest? Could it have been one of those, absence makes the heart grow fonder kind of things? If so, his parents really dont know what there doing at all. Hehehe.
It was a Friday evening; I had just arrived at Adrians just after five. There was no one there. His dad took Adrians sister out to the theatre for the evening, his brother and mom were working. The upstairs was in darkness, so I went downstairs to the basement. There was a light on over towards the computer, so I ventured that way. When I arrived no one was there, I than turned towards Adrians room. Upon doing so Adrian jumped out from the laundry room releasing a deep BOOOO!!! Jumping back and crashing into the wall. Adrian followed by a massive belly chuckle, nearly loosing his balance and falling to the floor.
Thanks a lot!! I yelped
Hahaha, that was so great! I thought you were gonna hit the floor! Adrian replied as he gasped for air, and attempted to stop his laughter.
Uh huh, so your dad actually did take your sis out huh. Im impressed. I joked.
Yup the house is all ours! He smiled, walking past me towards the television on the other side.
I followed close in behind him, and sat down on the couch. It seemed we were going to spend the evening watching movies. He had chips and popcorn, two cups and a 2 liter of coke on the coffee table. On top of the t.v. were a couple of DVDs. Adrian sat down next to me grabbing the remote and turning on the television. The movie was already in and waiting to go. It was a Halloween movie. Resurrection; if I remember correctly. After pressing play, Adrian bounced up and switched off the lights. Than he assumed his regular position up against me. Just before the previews were over, Adrian placed a quick kiss on my lips. This was now the second time he had kissed me, and I really wasnt sure what to make of it.
What was that for? I couldnt help it, I had to ask.
Because I love you. He returned causing my entire self to freeze, I attempted to speak, but didnt know what to say. My heart was pounding, and my mind was racing. I should stop this now, I cant lead him on like this. Is that what he meant even? I mean, its possible hes just expressing his love to me as a friend.
Oh, well I love you too. DAMN! What did I say that for!? Can I take that back? God what did I just do? Why cant I just think before speaking. My god! Im so screwed. How do I take something like that back without hurting him, and making my self out to be a complete idiot?
With those words said, Adrians head raised and faced me. A smile was on his face, and he was looking me in the eye. I couldnt help but smile, Im weak. He had a look on his face like he had just swallowed a bag full of sugar. I didnt at that time know how to form a translatable sentence; I was lost in his gaze. Every thing about him was so perfect, his white teeth, so straight they didnt look real. The smooth skin which seemed to be tanned all year round. The peach fuzz which was thickening on his upper lip, and on his chin. Even the few little pimples he had seemed to add to his character and make him better. God that sounded gross, oh well moving on. His light brown hair, releasing a wondrous aroma, that intoxicated my senses. I just wanted to hold him close and never let him go. What was I thinking? Please god make it stop! He leaned in slowly placing a light yet thoughtful kiss against my lips, this time it wasnt a quick peck. It was calm and worry free. It gave me time to actually feel his lips upon my own. God were they soft. His aroma filled my nostrils, my eyes were closed. His lips parted slightly, causing my own to do the same. He than pressed them together softly causing our lips to hug. I noticed I was kissing back involuntarily, but could not stop it. I placed my hand against the back of his head, while his thin body pressed against my side. His arms now around my shoulders, and my other arm holding him close. He than moved his head back and looked me in the eyes once more, placing a tender kiss on my cheek.
Our embrace slowly separated, it was only a few seconds but it felt like an eternity. Time had managed to slow down. It was indescribable, well mostly. Our smiles would not break, so instead we continued watching the movie with sore cheeks. He cuddled up closely against my side, with my arm draped over his shoulder. Every now and than, I heard a faint sigh escape his throat, and each time he would attempt to cuddle closer. My mind of course still racing around for answers it didnt have. This had to be wrong, but it just felt so right. Everything about it, my heart melted and attempted to burn its way through my chest in an attempt to become closer to the source. Even now, the after glow was still there. Every once and a while I would catch a quick wiff of his wondrous scent, and it would cause my chest to ache and my heart to seemingly skip a beat. What was happening? Actually, I knew what was happening, the greater question was, how do I stop it?
Youre my boyfriend right? Adrian asked, still nuzzled against me.
I think so. Gah! What did I just do? Please god; dont let him have heard that!
Really? Adrian bounced up and looked at me. He than gave me a warm excited hug. And of course, I hugged back. Say it! I want you to say it!
Say what? I asked still trying to consult my conscience.
That youre my boyfriend. He paused, Please? That was it, I had to stop this
No, I paused, Youre my boyfriend. Crap. I couldnt do it. Hes just so, god, cute right now. I couldnt find it in me to say anything else. Im fucked.
As the evening progressed and we turned on another movie, I cant remember this one, but its unimportant anyway. I ended up laying down on the couch, I felt lazy. To my surprise, Adrian just laid on top of me. His head on my chest, and my arms around him, holding him close. I gave in, I just let the moment happen. It was nothing horrible, we just held each other while watching a movie. Passed the occasional kiss, and that was it. I however took note of the Date, which was February 11th.
