I spent the next few minutes feeling my body buzz with this romantic series of jitters that made me almost numb from the inside. I had to feel my face with both hands before I realized that I was laying in the middle of the floor smiling like some kind of lunatic. So strange. So wonderful. Why was I so afraid of this feeling? The blasphemy committed by me, wanting it to go away. Trying to convince myself that it was abnormal. There's nothing more normal, more natural, more inspiring, than truly loving someone this way. I could have lost out. I could have been stubborn and spent the rest of my life miserable trying to make strangers happy. Because that's what society does, isn't it? They make you believe that you'll be rewarded with happiness of your own if you work to make them happy first. Joy by association. But life doesn't work that way. I think I understand that now. I'll take my own happiness over the approval of strangers any day.
If they knew love like I did...they'd understand.
I heard the bathroom door open and Drew's pale naked body came gracefully gliding back out into view. I wanted him all over again. I was salivating at the thought that I'd soon get my wish. Such a feast for the eyes, so responsive to the touch, with his lighthearted giggles and gentle nature acting as the perfect aphrodisiac to blend it all together. And I can have a taste of him any time I wanted it. How awesome is that.
Drew's pretty little ass bounced with every step as he went behind the basement counter and started opening cabinets and rummaging around back there. “What are you doing?”
“I got a sweet tooth.” He said. “What do you want? You like jelly beans, or do you prefer gummy bears.”
“Gummy bears. Definitely.” I said.
He sighed, “You're so damn awesome. I was thinking the same thing. M'kay!” He grabbed a bag of gummy bears and then came back to sit next to me on the blanket. He was close, but not close enough for my tastes. I scooted and wiggled and shifted around until Drew started laughing at me. “What are you doing?”
“Hold on...” I finally got behind him, and spread my legs to hug him from behind, having him lean back against my chest as I folded my arms around his stomach. “...There we go. That's better.” He held the back of treats in his lap, and I reached in to get some. We just took a break to munch on candy and enjoy each other's warmth for a while. Moments like these were just as satisfying as every sexual act that we had performed so far. In fact, it might have been even more so.
Then...out of the blue, Drew asked me a rather odd question. He craned his neck to look at me, first giving me a sweetened, gunny candy, kiss on the lips, and he asked, "Ethan...if, like...you and I weren't all nice and cozy like this right now...do you think you would go chasing after some other boy?"
I'm like, "Chase another...wait, what? What do you mean?"
"I mean, like...if you could just go out there and be with anybody in the world that you wanted to be with...who would it be? Besides me, I mean?" He asked.
I gave him a squeeze and kissed the nape of his neck. "I don't want anybody else, Drew. You know that."
"Yeah, I know, but...if you HAD to be with someone else...who would it be?"
“Because! I wanna know. Tell me.” He said.
I figured I'd play along. So I said, "Hmmmm...Ethan Karpathy. Definitely."
Suddenly, Drew sat up straight and turned around to give me the most pathetic look ever! Hahaha! With the saddest whimper I've ever heard from another boy, he asked, "Ethan who??? Who the hell is THAT?"
Was he really that surprised? He pushed out his bottom lip in the cutest little pout, giving me a serious case of puppy dog eyes. I could have sworn that I actually heard Sarah McLachlan's, 'Angel', playing in the background.
"Who is Ethan 'whatshisname'? Where did HE come from?" Drew sulked.
"Where did he come from? You ASKED me who I would go chasing after!"
"It was a hypothetical question, Ethan! You weren't supposed to havea name already in mind and just...BLURT OUT some other boy's name like that!"
"I didn't blurt it out! You asked me a question and I gave you an answer..." I said.
"A very QUICK answer!" Drew said. "Who is Ethan...? What the...?"
"He's a pop singer." I giggled. "Haven't you heard of the group, In Stereo, before? That video for 'Honest'? He's got the softest, pinkest, most kissable lips ever. Hehehe!" I was just teasing him. Really, it was a joke. But Drew seemed to squirm over the whole thing. Suddenly, he popped up from where we were sitting and crawled over to where his pants were bundled up on the floor. His bubbly little butt poked out at me as he dug through his pants pockets. "Hehehe, what are you doing?"
"Nothing..." He lied. Then I saw him take his cell phone out and come back over to sit between my legs again.
"What is this?" I grinned.
"QUIET, you!" He said, and started to look through his phone to get on Google. I reached for his phone, but he yanked it away from me.
"Are you seriously about to look him up right now? Hehehe!"
"I wanna see who you're talking about!" He said. "Is his last name spelled with a 'C' or a 'K'?"
"You're not really doing this, are you?"
"A HA! With a 'K'! It came up. Found him! Hold on." He made sure to keep his phone at a distance where I couldn't take it away from him, using his shoulder to block my reaching arm. "Ethan Karpathy...In Stereo..." Then Drew saw a series of images and let out aloud gasp! "Omigod! Nooooooo!" He whined, and turned his pouty lips towards me again. "He's so much CUTER than me! No fair!"
I laughed out loud! "He's NOT cuter than you, Drew!"
"Yes he is! LOOK at him! Oh GOD, look at THIS picture! Oh no, there's more pics?!?! Who IS he? Ethan...ugh, what are you looking at him for?" Drew actually sounded SAD. Hahaha! What the...?
"WHAT??? What'd I do??? I thought you were just asking a 'fantasy scenario' type of question." I said.
"Well, YEAH! But you weren't supposed to be fantasizing about him!" He whined. "Oh God...look at THIS picture! Awww, you suck..."
"I do NOT suck!" I giggled, trying to hug him again. "I thought it didn't matter. When you were talking about Patrick and how much you had a crush on him, you told me that I was being SILLY for being selfish!"
"That was different!" He smiled.
"How is that different?"
Pouting even more than before, Drew groaned, "Patrick was just some cute boy that I happened to accidentally meet at school! He's not some abnormally gorgeous teen popstar that you get online and drool over every time you feel like thinking about him! That's totally not the same thing! No fair!" Despite Drew's concerns, he kept looking through the rest of his pictures online, getting more and more insecure by the moment. "Where's the video?" He asked, heading over to YouTube.
"Hehehe, you're gonna watch the video now?"
"What's the name of his group? You said 'Stereo' something right?"
"Why do you want to see the video?" I grinned.
"Why don't you want me to see the video? That's the real question." He asked, still searching. I tried, once again, to grab his phone, but he was quick to keep it out of my reach. "NO! Hehehe, what was it? 'In Stereo', right? 'Honest'. Ok...I got it. Is he the first one singing?"
"I seriously can't believe you're gonna play the video right now. Turn that off." I smirked.
"Why? Is he NAKED in it or something?"
"Hahaha! I WISH!" The moment I said it, Drew's jaw dropped and he elbowed me in the stomach. "I'm KIDDING! Geez! Envy much?"
The video started, and Drew gasped again. “He's the first one singing? Awwww, NO! You're not allowed to look at him anymore. I forbid it. No more Ethan Karpathy for you.” He looked at some more videos while I giggled helplessly at his boyish jealousy. “Jesus, he's got an accent too? Why? Where did you...unh unh...no more for you! Wait, what is 'Get Stupid'? This is not cool. You have to promise me that you'll stop looking at these videos. Pictures too.” With a grin, I kissed Drew on the cheek, but he jerked away from me and turned to look me in the eye. “Promise me!”
“Hehehe, really?” I asked.
I looked at his phone, but Drew covered up the screen with his hand. “No! No more! Say it!”
“Fine.” I snickered.
“Nooooo, you have to say the whole thing. Say, 'I won't look at Ethan Karpathy ever ever again!' Because I have a boyfriend now, and I don't wanna be a cheat.”
“I'm NOT cheating!” I laughed.
His eyes met mine, those innocent, quivering, lips waiting for an answer. And I said, “I promise that I won't look at Ethan Karpathy.”
“Ever ever again!” Drew demanded.
“Ever ever again. No more. Promise. Ok?”
Drew gave me a sideways look, and then leaned in to give me a brief kiss on the lips. “Ok then. I'm going to erase this boy off of my phone now. Remember...you promised! So...so there.”
“Yes, dear.” I replied, and sighed as Drew relaxed some and snuggled his way back into my loving embrace. "You know I love you, right?" I said.
Drew blushed. "Ethan! I thought you were gonna...like...warn me."
"Hehehe, sorry. Are you ready?"
"Well, it's too LATE now! Spoiler, much?"
I used my finger to poke him in his soft middle, causing him to giggle out loud. "I'm super happy right where I am. Right now. Here with you. Ok?"
"Sure. Until this Ethan Karpathy boy shows up to take you away from me." He whimpered.
"No comparison." I told him. "All I want is you. All I EVER wanted was you. K?" It took a stubborn moment from Drew to let it go, but it was a slightly sadistic teen impulse that made me say, "But if you screw up, I'm going STRAIGHT to his house to get some sexual healing! So you'd better be good to me from now on!"
Drew did grin and gave me a pinch on the arm, making me wince from the sting. But then he said, "I'll always treat you like gold, Ethan. Promise. K?"
He leaned his head back on my chest again and we just took a second to breathe. I said, "I know you will. I'll treat you the same way, cool?" And I kissed him briefly while our naked bodies got all tangled up again. If this isn't Heaven, how could Heaven possibly be any better? You know?