That's how long I waited. Three whole days.
But let me explain, ok?
That first day, I didn't call him because I thought it might make me look desperate. I didn't want Parker thinking that this was my very FIRST phone number from a cute boy, you know? Even though...um...well...you know....
...This was my FIRST phone number from a cute boy!!!
The second day? Well that was just an experiment to see if he'd call me before I called him. Honestly. I just wanted to see if Parker would maybe take the initiative and call me up and see what I was up to. Simultaneously taking all of the pressure off of my shoulders to do the same, you know? But...he didn't. And by the time I had an opportunity to even consider calling him first...it was a bit too late in the evening to do that without being creepy. So...procrastination won the day.
Then there was the third day.
I was going to call him early, but I stopped myself because I was afraid of him...um...well, you know...he might um.....
FUCK!!! I don't know what I was so scared of! None of this made ANY damn sense to me at all! And I was so infatuated that I almost resented the feeling for keeping me soooooo far from my usual, rational, pattern of thinking. This was so bizarre! I just wanted Parker to love me. That's all. I didn't want to make a fool out of myself by trying to get him to talk to me or anything. I just wanted him to say, "I love you, dude." And then, everything will fall into place and be perfect from that one moment until the end of forever. I mean, is that too much to ask for when it comes to young love? Is it?
I guess today makes day four, doesn't it? That's not good. I could feel the pressure on me to make some kind of attempt to talk to him. It was like a frayed rope, being tightened around my throat, the spindles and loose strands sticking and scratching my exposed flesh...as if the strangulation of fear wasn't enough.
Awww...he's WAITING on me to talk to him, isn't he? Shit...
I had two choices...
I could continue being a total coward and not stepping up to the plate to at least take a shot at getting Parker's attention...which I would regret for the rest of my natural life.
Or...I could possibly make a total idiot out of myself by calling him up and trying to let him know that I'm seriously interested in...you know...maybe, having my first boyfriend ever. Which I might also regret for the rest of my natural life...but only if he rejects me. And...well, he hasn't given me any reason to make me think that he would. So...I should just TRY, right? Even if I screw it up, I could at least say that I tried. That I was willing to give someone my heart without any bullshit whatsoever, at least for ONCE in my life!
Yeah...I'm going to talk to him. I'm going to call him. And...if it all goes well, then I'm just going to ask him out on a date. I mean, I won't say the word 'date' or anything. I'll be cool about it all. Like...the 'date' thing will be pretty much understood without me having to say it, right? I can suggest that we just go out and grab a couple of hoagies from the sandwich place down the street from the comic book store without looking like I'm just trying to get in his pants. I mean, I JUST met him! I don't want him to think the worst of me. I just...I want him to notice that I notice him. Like...in a major way. A major way!
It took another five minutes of thinking before I actually got up and grabbed my phone. But I didn't call Parker right away. Instead, I put it next to me on the bed. I tried to come up with a few cool things to say to him before I just threw myself into the heat of battle like that. I even thought of a few 'get out of jail free' comments, just in case a silence fell between us. I wrote them down on the back of an envelope next to me, so I wouldn't forget them in case of an emergency. Then I held the phone in my lap for a few minutes more. I was GOING to call! I swear. I just...got this jittery feeling in my chest, and I was waiting for that to go away first before trying to contact him with the trembling voice of a bleating sheep! That's all.
Oh, magic 'GFD' poster board...please give me some kind of a...
My phone rang.
I grabbed my cell with a quickness that would have made Billy the Kid proud! My heart stopping in mid beat with the thrill of thinking that maybe it was Parker calling me to make plans for us!
It was Gary's number from the store. He's my friend and all, but to say that I was extremely disappointed would be a severe understatement. Believe me.
I answered, and he was like, "Hey, I wanted to let you know that I got the word from the head office already. And this new "GFD" poster has officially been cancelled! So...it's a total collector's item as of tomorrow morning, man! That means exclusive rights for us 'Day-Hards', right?"
"Yeah. I kinda figured that would happen. Cool." I said, hoping that he didn't hear the gentle pout in my voice when I said it.
"You alright, bud?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. Just a little tired, I suppose." I lied.
"Well, listen, I've only got one of these bad boys left. Any collector hearing the news is going to come snooping around for it in the next day or two, I thought I'd give you the heads up. I bought a second one, myself, to keep one in the package. It might be worth big money someday if it remains untouched. Do you want me to put the other one on hold for ya?" He asked.
"Nah. Thanks, Gary...but I'm tapped. Totally. Besides, I plan to take good care of the one I've got. You can bet on that one."
"Suit yourself." Then Gary asked, "Can I place a safe bet on you telling me what happened with you a few days ago? Can I do that? That's the real question here." I let him know that I was a bit befuddled by his comment, but he just chuckled and said, "You and the NEW kid! Come on, man! I'm not completely blind. You started taking peeks and hiding stiffys the second Parker entered the store. Hehehe, hell, I don't blame you. That boy is gorgeous! It's not like I didn't notice. He's prettier than my last three girlfriends."
"Can I just say that I hate you sooooo much for setting me up like that?" I said.
"No, you don't! Hehehe, I did you a solid, and you know it!" Gary waited for me to deny it...but I didn't. "Yeah, I thought so! So what happened? Tell me."
"We...talked." I said, feeling a heated blush rise up in my cheeks.
"'Talked'? What do you mean, you 'talked'? C'mon, you're holding out on me."
"I don't know, Gary. We talked. I mean, he's really...cool. We traded phone numbers and stuff. I just don't want to make any assumptions or anything, that's all."
Gary told me, "Dude, a boy like THAT...who's gay, and shows some interest in you, that you share a huge "GFD" fanboy connection with? You need to jump on that! Pronto! And he's new in town. So technically, the only person he really knows is YOU! How awesome is that?"
I fidgeted a little bit, and I said, "Well, I'm gonna call him and stuff. I guess I'm just a bit nervous, that's all. I've never done this sort of thing before. I never had the opportunity." Then I asked him, "Did it seem like he liked me? While we were in the store, I mean? What do you think?"
Gary said, "I think you should stop worrying about 'padding your fall' and just take the leap of faith already. At the very least, you'll have a date for the next "GFD" movie, right?"
"Dude, that's months away. He'll forget all about me by then."
"Not if you keep reminding him, he won't." He chuckled. "Kevin...whatever you're worried, you just need to leapfrog over it for a couple of seconds so you can talk to the guy. I've only met him two or three times in the store, and I think he's awesome. So don't let your insecurities get the best of you. K? Just be yourself."
"Hehehe, thanks, 'Coach'. But I don't think that works for boys like Parker who are SO obviously out of my league." I said.
"Hey...you being you was enough to get his attention, right? It should be enough to keep it."
So...that's what he told me just before we hung up. I figured...that's believable enough, right? That maybe Parker just...I don't know...maybe he has a 'thing' for guys who are way way waaaaay beneath him. I know that sounds insecure on my part, and that's probably because it is. Seriously. I won't hide that fact at all. But that was the only collection of straws that I had to grasp at right now.
I looked at my phone. It seemed to be looking back at me. Wondering what the hell I was staring at it for. That's when I picked it up...and I called Parker up.
I don't know why I was hoping he wouldn't answer, when getting him to answer was the whole point of me calling in the first place. But the anxiety constricted itself around me anyway.
"Hello?" Came his voice from the other side of the phone. Wow...I had almost forgotten how cute Parker's voice was.
"Hey. I mean, Hi...dude, it's me..." I said.
"Kevin? AWESOME! I was hoping you would call!" He's excited to hear from me? Really? That's cool!
"Oh, yeah, well...you know...I was just getting wrapped up in stuff. You know?" I attempted to sound nonchalant about it all, but I doubt that my eagerness was 'disguised' all that much.
"I was actually just getting on my laptop now. There were a few rumors that they were going to release stills and artwork from "GFD: Resurrection" soon. I know I'm obsessed, but I was trying to see if I could get a sneak peek."
Grinning to myself, I said, "Nah, they're keeping that stuff under wraps. There have been a bunch of rumors, but..."
I heard a loud gasp for air, and wondered what the heck had happened. That's when Parker suddenly told me, in a trembling voice, "It LEAKED!!!"
"What? What leaked?"
"The "Gone From Daylight: Resurrection" full length trailer!!! Somebody LEAKED it! Like a whole two weeks early!!!"
"Hehehe, what?" I thought he was joking. I really did. "No they didn't. It's a hoax or something. Or like...you know...a fanmade trailer?"
But I could almost hear Parker bouncing around in his seat. "I'm NOT kidding! This is coming from the studio itself! Evidently, some bootlegs got out, so they decided they'd go for an early release! I'm LOOKING at the YouTube window right NOW! It hasn't even been up for an HOUR yet, and it's already approaching one MILION views! I think this is legit!"
"I totally don't believe you right now! Hehehe!"
"Dude, I'm serious! Get on your computer! Right NOW! Look it up!" He said.
So, I did. I turned my computer on and went to YouTube to see what he was talking about while he was holding on the other end of the line. I could swear that I heard some noises on his end, and then the sound of a baby crying. "What is that?"
"Oh, yeah. That's my baby sister, Jasmine. I'm just watching her for a bit." Then he says, "Did you find it???"
"I'm searching now..." A few seconds later...sure enough...a link for the brand new "Gone From Daylight" sequel was staring me right in the face. Listed with a bunch of reaction videos from fans who all looked to be in a state of total fanboy shock over what they had just seen! Some of them posted less than five minutes ago. They don't do this for fanmade trailers and hoaxes. Was this real? Like...REALLY real! "JESUS!!! Omigod, they released it early!!!"
Suddenly, Parker told me, "DON'T WATCH IT!!!"
"What? Are you kidding me right now? Don't watch it?"
"Kevin, what are you doing right now?" He asked. The question surprised me so much that I wasn't really sure what to tell him.
"Umm...nothing. I don't think."
He's like, "Dude, I can't leave the house, but do you wanna come over? Like...how long will it take for you to skate over here?"
A chill ran through me. My breath turned cold. If only for a second or two. "Hehehe...really? Like...right now?"
"I PROMISE, I'm not gonna watch it! I'll wait until you get here! I just...UGH! I wanna see this with somebody else who can really appreciate it, you know? You're a fanboy, and I'm a fanboy...I wanna do it! C'mon, Kevin! Come do it with me!" He giggled.
Five words that are guaranteed to have me racing over to a cute gay boy's house? 'Come do it with me'....
"Ok!!! I'm on my way!" I said. "DON'T watch it before I get there, though! SWEAR?"
"I swear! I swear! Just hurry up! PLEASE! I'm gonna be DYING until you get here!" He said, which only caused my heart to inflate even more than it already had just from hearing his voice in the first place.
"Alright! I'll be there in about 20 minutes!" I was suddenly refueled with this limitless source of infatuated energy! I got all cleaned up and ready and grabbed my skateboard, only mumbling a few words to my mom before leaving the house. Promising her that I'd be back before it was too late. Should couldn't have stopped me from rushing over to Parker's house if she tried. Hehehe! I was just way too amped at this point! A new "GFD" movie trailer AND time to spend with the most delicious gay teen boy walking the face of the planet? It's ME for the WIN!!!
I don't think that I've ever seen the neighborhood scroll past me so fast before. I was boarding at top speed, weaving my way around people who dared to walk slow in my path. I did make sure to keep out for killer busses this time though. That I was careful about.
Why was I shaking like this? Was it the leaked movie trailer...? Or was it something else?
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