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>>I never went borstal but as a baby till the age of 17 >>i feel i lived ur pain as my mother abused me so badly >>i can only use borstal as a reason why? i wud never >>want anyone 2 be treated so bad,,i understand she was >>took away from home as a yong child and spent several >>years in the terrible institute! i hav only read and >>heard little bits of the terror youngsters were >>treated. Anyone with anything 2 say i would be >>grateful as i just need some understanding as i wasnt >>a naughty child i only ever wanted my mm 2 love me an >>me 2 be able 2 love her back.. im 28 now an had no >>life with a mother, i want 2 be able 2 forgive >>understand her pain an move on an leave her demons >>what haunt my mind x please help if u can. >>Claire > > >Terribly sad story Claire. > >I can tell you (as a lad) I went through the entire >system from around 10 until 18...this included >Borstal/YP/Approved School/DC etc > >I was a runner and general wild child. Hooked on >driving so TDA was my game (in those days people left >their keys in the cars) with the odd burglary thrown >in. > >I can only say I look back on those times, and that >era with some fondness. I needed discipline or God >knows what would have happened to me. The state >provided it. Once you were in the system there was no >going back for me. Yes times were tough and sometimes >horrid. But we were paying for our crimes so who >amongst us could complain really? Luckily I was able >to take it all on the chin and smile about it at this >end now. I have no doubt some kids took it badly and >it may well have affected their lives later on to the >detriment. Nothing should have affected YOUR life >regardless and I am sorry if you feel it did. We were >punished for our crimes, and that could sometimes mean >the odd slap from the powers that be. But it's what we >needed at the time, more or less. Your mum may well >have been scarred from her experience, but she should >never have taken it out on you. Sadly life is not >always fair and people like you suffer badly because >of it. Forget the past it's gone now. Look on to the >future where YOU can make a difference for good or >bad. That's where you should be looking. > >You may not have felt loved at the time, maybe still >don't. But always remember the world is full of good >people who will always love people like you, even >though you may never know them. For every bad person >there are a million good ones, and even some of the >baddies turn out good. So please move on Claire and >look ahead. Talk talk talk is the best medicine by >far..talk to mum if you can, it'll be good for you and >her. You did well coming here. I'm just sorry it took >so long for a reply. > >Dear Old Charlie Chaplin once wrote a song just for you > >'Swing Little Girl' >Music and Lyrics by Charles Chaplin >Sung by Charles Chaplin >Written for the 1970 reissue of 'The Circus' >Opening Credits > > >Swing Little Girl > >Swing Little Girl, >Swing, high, to the sky, >And don’t ever look at the ground, > >If you’re looking for rainbows, >Look up, to the sky, > >You’ll never find Rainbows, >If you’re looking down, > >Life maybe be dreary, >But never the same, > >Some day(s), it’s sunshine >Some day(s), it’s rain, > >Swing Little Girl, >Swing high, to the sky, >And don’t ever look to the ground, > >If you’re looking for rainbows, >Look up to the sky, >But never, no never, look down,

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