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>i met my ex 5 years ago and it was true love but he >had commitmet problems as his family was very >dysfunctional(he had seen his parents fight)i tried to >help him with his commitment problems and let him move >in with me from there things went down hill he would >never open up to me and would constantly go out with >his mates and chat to slim pretty girls and pretty >much ignore me he would complain about the fact i was >messy and borrow money off me then 4 months after we >were living together a member of my family passed away >and he was loving and care=ing and supportive for 2 >weeks then declared he was leaving me as i was a angry >nasty person who just needed to get over it!! the day >after he left me he came in to the bar i worked in and >kissed a girl in front of me looking at me whilst he >kissed her for the next six months i tried to move on >but we ended up sleeping together a lot and i feel >pregnant i didnt know about it untill i misscarrried >as we were not together i thought he would accuse me >of emtional blackmail and say i was doing it to get >back at him so i kept it to myself after a year he >was ta my doorstep wanting to gicve things another go >like a fool i trusted him " i then found out it was >because he was homeless" everything was going great >untill my friends party where i got drunk and felt i >couldnt keep it to myself and told him his reaction >was i was a spitefull bitch not once asking me how i >felt or why i couldnt tell him from then on things >went bad again he moved in with someone lese and slept >around making sure i knew about every girl but doing >it in a way that he couldnt be blamed for me finding >out eventually i manged to get my confidence back up >and was happy in a new home without any memories of >him and then he came back this time it was that we >should try again as he had sorted his life out and he >wanted me to be in it i should have seen it coming but >i didnt then i found out i was pregnant and we were >both over the moon yet at the same time i was >terrified of the fear i would lose the baby and he >didnt really seem to bothered by this untill 3 motnhs >gone on christmas eve he went out with one of his >mates and the next day he left me i struggled thru the >pregenacy trying to keep him involved and when i asked >about csa he got a girlfirend to threaten me then came >the day of our child birth and the mani used to love >came back and cut the cord and held my hand thru all >of it and it was the happiest day of my life and for >the first 3 months it was bliss untill he met someone >and told me that as we werent a couple (which i >thought we were) he would be with her now and that he >was too busy for his child then kept floating in and >out of his childs life untill i finally put my foot >down and stopped him seeing his daughter(he has paid a >penny to her by the way)he said i was fat stupid >pathetic phscyotic and a liar and that my parents >could pay for our child so why should he now he has >totally changed his tune and is claiming he is the >victim by saying im banning him from seeing his child >and that its all my fault if our child grows up >emtionally cut off admittley i dont help matters as >when i try and contact him regarding out chisds >welfare i end up texting him nasty messages as he >ignores us unless it suits him > because of me he also flaunts his new lady friend at >the bar i go to when my family sit for my child and he >has made his amily choose between hima nd the child >leavin my child without grandparents my family have >been amazing and so havemy friends and i have lost >loads of weight and im trying to get him out of my >life but the guilt i feel for not letting our child >see its father is tearing me up inside and i am ment >to go out for a friends birthday next week and i am >scared to in case he makes my life hell as usual. >he doesnt want me but doesnt want anyone elze to have >me and to make matters worse he always shows off his >younger prettier girl friend and has admitted to me in >the past he has cheated on me then denied and said he >only said that to be mean? >i feel i have no control over my life and everytime i >try and move on he comes along and pulls the rug from >under my feet >is this a emitional abusive relationship or am i just >weak? >sorry to go on and on but i had to get it out of my >system its been years!
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