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Date Posted: 05:03:39 08/18/14 Mon
In reply to:
Kniwm
's message, "Re: Request for Maddie" on 23:40:47 08/15/14 Fri
My father is analytical. He is very calculated in his decisions and actions. My mother is also, but manic, I've always suspected clinically as well as metaphorically, in that she can be very rational but has episodes of temper flares. My dads analysis of any situation and quiet one on one lectures were and are torture. I would feel so small and so helpless at the hint of trouble. My mom a little more bubbly and more improvisational but had the tendency to lose control and then internalize. Without coming right out and saying it I would beg them to just spank me. I'm sure they did, but they were apparently not memorable.
My friends and class mates would talk about their spankings or "I'm really gonna get it." "You're really gonna get it." "What did your parents do?" implying "Did you get a spanking?" "Yes I did." conversations. I was so envious of them and so curious. At my all girls private school girls were carted away for the paddle and would be witnessed later with puffy eyes, rubbing their bottoms and shifting in their seats. That scared the H E double hockey sticks out of me, but I would feel tinglings and burnings with curiosity on many levels.
I always hated being in any kind of trouble and always seeking approval. I was an angel, but there was a tiny devil inside of me that wanted so badly to come out only to be told off and punished in various ways. I didn't like those girls who were naughty, but I secretly envied them.
A lot of the girls would play all sorts of spanking games and I did also but was very reserved about it. I guess it was multifaceted because I thought I was above such play, but I also didn't want to expose my dirty secret obsession.
Yes, Kniwm, I have also always had an anal fixation as well, as far back as I can remember. Relating both to punishment and pleasure. I have always fingered my butthole and put things up there like ink pens, markers, carrots and other objects. I have also always had an obsession with poor hygiene and these three things relate. I'm not real willing to fully open up about those things right now even being anonymous.
One time and I have relived the moment a million times, in 3rd grade me and some girls were playing some random game of tag with spanking and butt slapping when a girl got me down and stuck her finger up my butt through my underwear. It was quite a shock and a not all that welcome one, but at the same time an amazing experience that made for one of the most incredible 5 seconds of my life.
Thank you very, very much for your detailed story. I'm sure I'm not the only person on this forum who appreciated it or relates to it. I've run out of time, but I will try to give the details for the present as soon as I can.
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