Author: Debbie Rowe (Confused/sad) [Edit]
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Date Posted: 16:26:01 12/12/08 Fri (cpe-69-207-255-134.maine.res.rr.com/69.207.255.134)
I would just like to give you just an overview of my story without it being a war story. I have been a very proud RN since 1983. It was always my dream. In 2002 I was working for an agency, this particular night I was to work at a nursing home that always requested me. I brought alcohol to work, drank and passed out. Thank God I got caught and no one got hurt. I lost my nursing license for a year (that was how long I had to be sober). In 2003 I got my license back, when I went before the board I had a very nervous glow on my face. I was very involved in a 12 step program, going to meetings at least once a day, and I had a sponsor. I was happy. In 2003, I was charged with a misdemeanor-endagering the welfare of a dependant person. This occured because I was considered a free agent, not working for the facility but at the facility. The part that I find difficult to take is, if I had been working FOR a facilty this would not have happened. in the summer of 2003 (a year after I drank) I come home and find out I am the top news story of the day, they broadcasted 4 times that day. I was so angry I called the news station and told them if they found my alcohlism so news worthy they could come over and talk about my recovery. They were at my house in an hour. In 2004 the federal Department of Human Services wrote me a letter and said that I had been disbarred from working at any state or federaly funded facility in any capacity,(2009) I stayed sober for 4 years and I stopped doing what had worked for me. I couldn't find a job, my resume was 25years of nursing. I started to do what I always do isolate, ignored that and I was off and running again. It was awful, I'm a binge drinker. I could stop but not stay stopped. It certainly is a progressive disease, it never gets better. I am in a halfway house the progam is 4 to 6 months. I am very sad here I feel so alone I haven't made any connections here. I'm 58 years old, there are 10 other women from 21 to 30's. In groups I ask people to tell me what I do to offend them I get nothing. Right now I'm about as sad and lonely as I have ever been. They don't ask me to go to meetings with them and at this time I can't go alone. Thanks for listening. l
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