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Clair
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Date Posted: 10:16:45 12/22/22 Thu
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Clair
's message, "I'm going to spank my roommate" on 07:11:30 12/15/22 Thu
Tuesday night I was working on a project for work on deadline that HAD to be sent before morning. She kept coming around talking. I told her I don't know how many times to stop talking, that I was very busy and had to get this done. She's stop for a while then come back and start talking again. Sometimes it was just a sentence at a time and sometimes she was just running at the mouth. I was getting really frustrated. I had to concentrate and I had to finish it.
Something snapped in me. It was just impulse. I got so frustrated that I angrily got a chair from the kitchen and put it in the corner. It happened so fast I didn't even think about what I was doing. "Get over here!" She looked confused or maybe scared. I pointed to the seat and said "Sit there and be quiet until I'm finished!" She just did it and looked at me. I could see the christmas lights in her glasses and she looked like she was going to cry and said she was sorry. At that point it kind of dawned on me what I had just done. I felt bad. I couldn't believe what I had just done, but I had to go through with it and keep my composure or I would lose all credibility and never get my work done. I couldn't believe she just went along with it. If it was me, even if my parents did that I would be like "Yeah, fuck you." I kind of like touched her hair and her cheek and said "I'm sorry. I just have to get this done. Just please be quiet until I'm done, okay?"
I kept looking over at her with her elbows on her knees and her hand on her cheeks. It was a really weird feeling that I just can't explain. I felt really bad and felt really ashamed. But at the same time I felt, I don't know, like a power, if that's the right word. I had to keep telling myself I was right for doing that. It was really distracting and probably took me longer to finsh than if she had just kept talking. So finally I was finished and I said "Okay I'm done. I'm sorry about that. What was it you wanted to tell me?" She like shrugged and went "Oh nothing." She didn't look mad, that was the weird thing. She looked like somebody had just stepped on her puppy.
So we decided to binge watch some stupid show that she's into. I don't even remember what it was. Again she sat a little too close for comfort. I felt a little uneasy about that in a way, but in another way when her leg or her arm was against mine I felt something and I don't really know what it is. I had to resist the temptation to pull her on my lap and hold her like a kid. It felt really weird and that feeling makes me feel real uncomfortable.
I have never done anything like that in my life. Maybe with some kids I've babysat, but not really. I mean I've put kids in time out when they were really acting up, but not like this. I hope when I do actually spank her, and I'm not saying that's a sure thing, but I REALLY want to, I hope it goes this well.
Her parents picked her up for Christmas last night. They didn't want her driving because we are supposed to get really bad snow storms. They seem really nice. I feel goofy in saying this, but I'm really going to miss her. I guess she'll be gone about a week. It will give me some time to think. I'll probably talk myself out of the whole thing in the meantime.
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