Date Posted:15:15:29 09/26/11 Mon Author:Michael (Optimistic!) Subject: Adoptee looking for birth parents
hello, my name is Michael and I was born in February 1982 in Fort Smith, Arkansas. I was born at Saint Edwards Mercy Hospital in February of 1982.. and was pretty much immediately adopted by a women who just happened to work for the Department of Human Services. She didn't work in the adoption field.. she worked in the Food Stamp Fraud division.
I'm at that age in my life.. almost 30 now.. and I've recently had this weird feeling in my stomach that's been telling me that I really need to find out who I really am.. so I can go on with my life. I think about it almost every single day now.. and I really want to know who they are or were.. so I can find out who I am. I mean, we only get this one life so they say.... and if that's the case, then I really think I too deserve to know who I really am. I think I should get the chance to find out where I came from and know my own family history. Not only my family history.. but also find out if I inherited any medical problems that I should be cautious of in my future.
My birth mother tells me that I have no medical issues to worry about.. but that's easy for her to say you know? Because its not her.. its me that's wanting and needing to know this information.
If my birth parents didn't want any contact with me.. or didn't want me finding them in the future, well.. then I respect that. I mean, it sucks.. but at the same time, I respect their decision. But, on the other hand.. I sure would appreciate just being able to know where I came from at least, you know?!? I mean, we're all given this one life to live.. shouldn't I get the opportunity to know where I came from?!?!
It's hard for people that weren't adopted to understand.. to understand the emptiness that we adoptees feel, especially as we get older. It's like there's a missing piece of me out there.. and I can't go on with my life until I find that missing piece. And now I'm a grown ass man in tears, ugggghh.
Anyhow, mom.. dad.. if your out there, I just want you to know that I'm not mad at you guys for putting me up for adoption. Just know that I'm not mad nor do I have hardly any resentment for the decisions you guys had to make at that time. I still don't know the reason why you guys had to put me up for adoption, but I'm sure you had your reasons.. and I understand that. Know that I do love you guys.. and if you ever find this, and know its me.. just know that I love you and I sure would like to find out where I came from.. remember, we all have only one life to live or so they say.. don't I deserve at least to know where I came from?? Don't I at least deserve to know my mother and fathers names?? I think I do.. and that's why I'm searching for you guys.