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Date Posted: 23:47:20 05/14/08 Wed
In reply to:
's message, "Writer looking for late diagnosed female" on 14:26:09 04/30/08 Wed
Thow I was diagnosed when I was 6 years old. I can tell you what life is like as a twenty year old woman with Dyslexia. Goverment paid for me to go to College for free but I had to keep a C in most classes. I had to take all of my classes back to back. I did 9 semasters in 3 years. I will not hide my crapy spelling to you. I call it my own langue. My brain does not understand phonics. So hooked on phonics does not help me. And doing instent messaging sucks. I do tend to shy away from typing to people. So your lucky that I'm doing this. :)
I did ok in college, I wish I did better. I could of put more effect into what I was learning. I would start doing a project strong and somewhere in the middle I'll let my LD get the better of me and slack off. All of my teachers knew I was LD. There was always outside help if I needed. But I was to shy to realyis that I really did need help. I could of gon't better grades if I chose to. But at the time I didn't want to put the extra effort in to learning. I almost faled every test in all classes. But did well on Projects and group work. So I normaly had C's as Grades.
As an adult, I look back on my expeirines of having Dyslexia. It has hinderd a couple of my dreams. I use to be very shy and did not like to be called apond in class. I NEVER WANTED TO READ OUT ALOUD. I do like to read now. But reading in front to people was nerve racking back then. I was so nerves in school that I now have acid reflucks dieses. I did not want to embrases myself in front of my classmates. I hated when the smart kids didn't have to work hard to get good graeds. I use to be a very negative person and worried about everything. Because I felt that people where jugding me as being stupid or werid. I wanted to be like everyone else and I struggled with that for years. I have my good days and my bad days. On days that my LD effects me and people are watching, I just say "I'm having a blond day". I play it off as no big deal. I am very open to all of my friends that I have an LD. I tell them, so on days that my brain is not up to par or they are watching my write down somthing and I don't spell it right, I don't feel embearest in front of them. I don't tell anyone at work unless I feel that I can trust them. I have not told my co workers or my boss. I'm to afraid to. I do know that my company can not fire me because of my LD. I have issues about standing up for myself. I have been put down for many years that it took a long time to find myself. I tend to not destroy myself image by smoking or drinking. I have never try drugs nor have I ever bowed down to the porclin god. I feel like I'm already messed up in my head I don't need to do something to make me look stupid.
I have done very well for myself. I do better then most of the super smart people I know. Because of haveing an LD, I do things differently from other people. I payation to the world around me. I have very good common since. I am 28 years old, I have held down a job since college. I am a home owner and I am married. This is a couple of things that I thought I would never do. I was once told I would never pass highschool and that I would never amount to anything. I am in the middle of trying to create life. I do worry about my child haveing an LD. My mother has it and I have it. So I know there is a pasoabilty that my child could have it. My husband is one of those super smart people but sometimes he has no commin since. :)
I learned how to spell by memerizing what a word looks like. Sounding out a word does not work for me. My bigest petpev, If I ask someone to spell a word for me, I'm told to look it up in the dictionary. My brain does not understand phonics. So how in the world am I to sound out a word and look it up in the dictionary. I use a Thesaurus, I find the smaller word that I know how to spell and then find the word that I'm needing. I didn't do that in highschool I wish I did. I also don't speak some words very clearly. My words don't come out clearly because my brain does not know how to form the right sound. So sometimes my R's will sound like L's or W's. Or maybe sound like I have a lazey touge. But I don't. If I was to correct my spelling right now if would take a couple of hour to do so. Spellcheck is like a dictionary, I don't know if that is the right spelling or not. So I'll pick up my handy dandy Mini Dictionary and Thesaurus and go to town on fixing my work.
I wanted to show you why I don't like to type. It's hard to communcate when one spells bad. For most, typing this up would take a couple of minutes. For me it would be most the night. I almost always have to read things a couple of times to understand what I'm reading. I have just read what I wrote to you about 12 times already. It's a love, hate relationship.
My name is Hilerey,
And I have dyslexia.
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