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Subject: No Way Out!


Author:
Lost Unicorn
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Date Posted: 00:54:00 01/18/08 Fri

I am a 30yr old mother of 2 beautiful girls, ages 9yrs and 1yr. My oldest was from an 8 yr relationship that obviously did not work out and the baby is from a 5 yr relationship that has been rocky for a long, long time. I had an abortion a few years ago from the baby's father and it was one of the hardest things I think I have ever had to go through! I didn't learn. I got pregnant once again but this time I kept my baby because I made a promise to God I would never have another abortion again.

My baby is going to be 14 months old to be exact and just yesterday I found out I am once again pregnant! This man left me for 6 months when I was pregnant with my little one and that was extremely difficult, but I made it through. I had a very hard pregnancy with gestational diabetes, really bad sciatica on both sides, emotional and psychological stress and worry, finances were also a worry. I feel at this point so angry with myself that I could have allowed this to happen again, that I put myself in this situation with the feeling of NO WAY OUT!! I'm dreading the consequences of another abortion, but I just don't see any way possible for me to keep my baby. I have a job, but I don't make enough money and have been so worried about the financial burden of raising 2 children alone, not to mention having another child to support!!

I'm trying so hard not to bond with the life I have inside of me, I'm trying so hard to be cold and numb to the situation, but I must admit, I'm not doing a very good job. I made my appt. for the termination today and the lady I spoke with said there was a flag in the computer by my name because of the way I reacted to the last one and she warned me I cannot come there if I am going to react the same way. After I hung up the phone I just cried. I got so angry with myself and then with God. I was wrong for that, I know, I just couldn't help but to ask WHY??? Why did He allow me to put myself in this situation again, WHY? I guess I'll stop writing because this is starting to look more like a book rather than a post! Thanks for letting me vent! God Bless....

Lost Unicorn

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It's so sad that everything revolves around money, the Almighty Dollar! If I had the financial resources that would make it possible, I wouldn't think twice about keeping my baby!! I made choices and I made mistakes in my life, so once again I am in this situation because I allowed it. Always remember, the choices we make today will affect us tomorrow!

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[> Subject: Re: No Way Out!


Author:
Kris
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Date Posted: 11:56:19 01/18/08 Fri

Dear Lost Unicorn,

Have you given any consideration to adoption? I know that many women at first say no way - but it is a very loving option for you to consider. Of course, it's not easy either- but think of how unselfish an act it is and that there is a loving couple praying right now for someone to choose that option so that they may have a child.

There are also many resources for financial help out there. Have you checked into that? Every pregnancy center in the US will have a list of resources available to you - look up a center near you at this site:

http://www.optionline.org/advantage.asp

A "red flag" by your name would certainly be a VERY big factor in not going through with an abortion. I urge you to consider adoption for sure.

Stop beating yourself up too emotionally about all this. Things happen, we all make mistakes - but everything also happens for a reason - so trust that God allowed this in your life for many reasons and that you have some things to learn through it all, OK?

The best thing you can do is to get Still - listen to what God is saying to you - pray about what HE would want you to do.

Hang in there - it's all going to be OK.

Kris
[> Subject: Re: No Way Out!


Author:
Pat
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Date Posted: 16:00:11 01/18/08 Fri

Hi, Lost Unicorn! Love your name.

First of all, if you don't want an abortion, don't have one! In our experience, a woman doesn't stop the cycle of unplanned pregnancy until she carries a baby to term. There is an unconscious urge to replace the baby given up in abortion. You have already gone through this cycle once, and it looks like you're doing it again. And obviously, it's time to stop letting men take advantage of you, putting you at risk. Men who would put you at that kind of risk are only looking for one thing: pleasure. In your circumstances, you can do without that. Really! 15 minutes of pleasure isn't worth the risk. You deserve a man who will cherish you and your children, and such a man will never ask for it in the first place. Telling a man "no" is a really good test of his character. Wanting your body and nothing else means that he just wants to use you at your expense, nothing more. There is no real love or affection attached to it, no matter what he may TELL you.

Obviously, life isn't easy for you. But there is help available. Start by going to a crisis pregnancy agency. You can find one here: www.pregnancycenters.org (I was going to give you a clickable link, but voy.com isn't cooperating today.) They can help you with many of your resource problems. As for your medical problems, do some online research. There are good natural alternatives for some of these things.

Psychological stress and worry are heightened by your anxiety about this decision. Gestational diabetes can be treated naturally in the same way as other forms of diabetes. I don't know for sure that a given herb is safe for pregnancy, but by the time gestational diabetes becomes a problem, the baby's body is formed. I use Gymnema sylvestre for my heredity tendency for diabetes, and I can tell you that for me, at least, it is highly effective. I take one a day. As for sciatica, if I am not mistaken, that is a problem of the bones being out of joint. I recommend you find someone who knows how to do low velocity manipulation. They can put the joints back easily, and these treatments tend to last for weeks. Pregnancy tends to aggravate this situation for two reasons. The first is that it shifts the center of gravity of the body, and the other is that the joints loosen up in preparation for birth. Another technique that works for me with spinal dislocations (but not for everyone, but it won't hurt a thing to try) is to lie on your back on a firm surface (carpeted floor is fine). Place something under your head that will elevate it 6 to 8 inches from the floor, and another thing under your knees that elevates them the same amount. Place your hands on your bellybutton (or as close as you can come) and your elbows on the floor and totally relax. Hold this position for about 15 minutes. Then roll over onto all fours and get up.

Keep in touch! We will be here for you.


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