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Pat
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Date Posted: 01/ 4/09 8:25am
Leah,
I am going to give you some straight talk.
I almost had an abortion once. For two months afterwards, I had horrible nightmares. I would wake up in a cold sweat. The only good thing about it was that in my dreams, although I was being pursued and threatened with harm, I got away. If I had gone through with an abortion, I am quite sure that I would have continued to have the nightmares, and I wouldn't have been getting away.
A mother bonds with her baby in the first week. Women are usually not aware of it, but it's there. As the new human being moves down the Fallopian tube, every time he or she touches the wall, hormonal messages are exchanged. After implantation, the baby starts to send stem cells into the mother's blood stream. These move to various parts of the body, including the brain. They lodge there. Some move to the breasts, where they help protect the mother from future breast cancer. The ones in the brain result in further bonding. These are the events that stop the mother's periods. When a baby is born or an abortion is done, many, many more stem cells are sent. A baby being aborted experiences excruciating pain. There is no mechanism to modify this pain as there is in older people. You can tell they have this pain because you can see them react, through ultrasound, or you can see it in their faces afterward. Pain creates chemicals. The fact someone is experiencing pain can be detected through these chemicals. When these stem cells are sent, they will have this chemical, and the mother will know unconsciously that the baby experienced pain.
This could be behind your nightmares. Do you REALLY want to repeat this? You have the ability to "redeem" your former experience. Or you can add to the feelings you are having.
You desperately need emotional and spiritual healing from your other abortion. This is why I gave you the link to find a pregnancy agency in your area. They are prepared to meet your need for healing. There are programs there, counseling, classes, retreats. Women who have experienced abortion do almost all of this. They have healed, and they can show you how to heal. They can help you to understand that your baby is in heaven. You CAN heal.
But if you do it again, you become twice guilty. The first time, maybe you didn't really know what you were getting into. Now you do.
Before you do this kind of harm to yourself and your baby, try the supplements I mentioned. I am dead serious when I tell you that if you DO have an abortion, you may not survive it, and you will have increased danger for the next eight years. Women who have abortions often turn to drugs, or become careless with their lives.
The truth is, none of us DESERVES a baby. God graciously gives them to us anyway, and He is giving you a second chance to nourish one of His gifts.
I am going to repeat the link again. pregnancycenters.org. Go there. Get some help. You can't be helped if you are not willing to help yourself. You said you need someone to talk to. Well, GO TALK TO THEM. You can even get on the phone with them right now, in a toll-free call.
You now know what you are trying to get into. No excuses. I continue to pray for you. You have enemy forces bearing down on you. Repudiate them.
We love you both deeply. You can have no idea how much. Many of us have BEEN there. We know what it's like, and we devote our time and lives to try to help other escape what we went through. There is nothing more frustrating and disheartening than seeing someone drowning in a river, reaching out and grabbing her hand, only to see and feel her snatch it away so she goes to her destruction.
You don't really want an abortion. If you did, you wouldn't be here.
Don't do this! We love you.
Hugs,
Pat
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Merry Christmas, Leah!