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Subject: Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence Author: Jackie [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] Date Posted: 07/22/06 12:25pm In reply to: Heather 's message, "Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence" on 07/21/06 1:15pm Just a quick note to all....I am exhausted. I went to the doc Thurday because of the bleeding and Friday she called and said I still show pregnant! I did bleed quite a bit on Thursday and Friday it did stop. I never really had any cramping..so that might be good. I took a pregnancy test this am and it did show positive. So I am not really sure if I am or not!? I go back to the doc on Tuesday...because I dont have insurance I go to a clinic and they dont have ultrasound....that would help alot if I could have one. Anyway I have been seeing the father...but trying to distance myself too. Let ya know what happens soon. Thanks [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

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[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence Author: luka [Edit] Date Posted: 07/23/06 2:35am I bled too quite early on at about 5 and a half weeks. I thought for sure that i was losing my baby. I had what was called a subchorionic bleed. Itis a bleed comming from the chorion which is what grows into the placenta. So yes you can bleed and the baby can be fine as mine was :) I hope your baby is ok too. My babys father is abusive but not physically. And i saw him today myself. I totally understand the need to feel that he loves you, wants you and cares for you. I have been tempted many times to beleive that very thing which is kind of how i became pregnant in the first place. But you're on a merry go round if you think that this time he's going to be different. Sigh.. he's not. Neither is my babys father. It kills me when i have to see him and sometimes he talks nicely to me i am tempted to hold out hope that he could really love me. But he doesn't. It's insane for me to think otherwise. I didn't need him to hit me to prove that he doesn't love me but i assure you if he did once would have been more than enough. I forgave his lies, the hurtful words and inconsistences (hot and cold) and lack of remorse over and over. And each time i went back i would get slammed with it all again. I just got to the point where i was sick of being hurt and feeling a fool. It takes a long time to accept the fact that the man you loved doesn't love you..I mean it may be 'his' idea of love but it is certainly NOT love. I am still comming to terms with the awful reality. The sooner you do break it off the sooner you can move forward and learn to expect respect and to be treated like a lady. If you don't you'll allways be abused by someone if not him someone else. I've been there too. Thinking someone else may be the answer but he ended up being even worse and scarier. Part of the problem is how we have learnt one way or another to accept such treatment making it easy for men like this to abuse us. The alternative to leaving and getting your self esteem back is living in this derranged reality, this abusive black whole for the rest of your life and dragging your children through it as well. In your case you are risking your life also. Not stuff to be gambling with especially when you have children who need their mother. I pray that you see the light with regard to your boyfriend and i hope to hear some good news about your growing little one soon :)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence Author: Jackie [Edit] Date Posted: 07/23/06 7:33pm Hi Luka, I am not sure if it is appropriate...but like how much did you bleed? Wednesday here spotting....Thursday medium to heavy and all weekend spotting. I am about 5-6 weeks also. I just cant wait to find out if I am going to have a baby or not..so anxious. I was with the father this weekend went there after work he made me steak and gave me a gift card for a pedicure, and flowers. My birthday was on Friday. Everything went great until this AM when there was a door bell and it was the police...apparently his ex wife called on us..there is a Order of Protection....we ignored it and I left later on. We ended up meeting up in another area and window shopped and ate lunch. We talked about the baby and he really wants it. It was a nice weekend and this week BOTH of us are going to our counseling appointments through the same place...I know it may not work...but I am going to try one more time! So for this week we really cant see eachother because of the order..but the order is up next Monday and if I dont show they will not extend it. But the other charges for the beating are coming, which are felonies, so I could still lose him to prison. But at least if this baby is born I can tell him I tried!

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence Author: luka [Edit] Date Posted: 07/24/06 3:46pm I didn't bleed a whole heap it was only spotting but it was bright to start with about a desert spoon full. Then i had a few small clots. Then it was more spotting on and off for a couple of weeks. But the spotting was light red then pink then orange /brown. Then a couple of days later i might see some more of the pink. It was such a worrying time. I can really sympathise with you on that. An ultrasound would be very helpful at this point you should be able to see a heartbeat if not now then in the next week and thats a very reasurring sign that all is and will most likely be well. I understand your wanting to try again with your boyfriend totally. If my babys father came around tomorrow and was like this a big part of me would be thrilled but i doubt i would trust it. I would be wondering why now? Why not before? Why not when i told you about the baby? Why did you lie, cheat, call me names ect? It's horrible to be pregnant and think that the man who helped you make your baby doesn't care for you. In some ways i wish he had hit me then it would be more clear cut. My babys father is still trying to pretend he did care about me to some degree and that i have it wrong somehow. -No i don't, not at all. If you can't stop yourself from going back to this man then you may have some learning stil to do i guess. I hope he changes maybe he will be one the few who do. I don't know.. But what if he hits you again? Then what? Will that be enough for you? I hope so. good luck :)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence Author: Jackie [Edit] Date Posted: 07/25/06 6:20pm Thank you Luka for your reply. As for the baby...I dont know what is going on. My HCG level at the emergency room was 16 and a week later was only 30...from what I understand this is not good and I am guessing the baby died a few days after the beating. I did have my blood drawn again today and I find out the results tomorrow...so by some miricale of God...maybe the baby is still here, have not bled since Thursday...just some very light spotting. I know feel so very bad because I was contemplating abortion...and now I want this baby more than anything! About the boyfriend...please dont ever wish you were hit...my boyfriend was emotionally abusing me at first...very BADLY...and it ended up being physical. Honestly if you talked to me a year ago I will guarantee that I would never have put up with the physical abuse....but because I put up with the other abuse this is where I am at now. He is very upset I will probably lose this baby and he "says" he wants to try again. I cant do that...I was on the pill when I got pregnat...and I am going on it again until he can prove to me that he can keep his hands off. I will let you all know tomorrow if I am or not and say my good byes if I have to.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Re: Crisis pregnancy Domestic Violence Author: luka [Edit] Date Posted: 07/26/06 8:25pm Ok those levels don't sound promising but the fact that they are still rising can mean it's all ok. I know when i had my bleed that my levels didn't rise by much around the time of the bleed but then a had a big jump in numbers 3 days after the bleeding stopped.. I don't know how you're managing to stay so calm in all of this. I would be SO angry at him (your boyfriend) if i were in your shoes. He wanted the baby yes but the consequences of his actions have possibly caused you to loose your child. I mean he's all lovey dovey when he finds out you were pregnant but that didn't stop him form beating you to the point of nerve damage and causing you to loose your precious child. Does he understand what he has done here ?? I really hope your little one is ok. Take care and let us all know how you get on.