[> Subject: Re: Ups and Downs - long story
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Donna
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Date Posted: 04/ 3/06 2:36pm
Hi Rachel,
Oh my friend, I had no idea of any of this. I'm so sorry. I had written you a few times and I was concerned since I hadn't heard from you. I am very glad that you are okay and that you are home safe and sound. It breaks my heart to think of the fear you have had to experience and then the feelings that led you to think about taking your own life. I am so very thankful that you realize that both Eli and the new baby do indeed need you so very much. I know that it would be so hard to live in conditions such as you've described. Thank Goodness you left that night. Always do that if/when something like this comes up okay, keep you and Eli protected. I know that your husband wants to get help and I'll be praying for him and for your whole family. It's hard tho as you well know, when you have problems, to always carry thru with your words of action sometimes. When you are sick, you are weak, and it's just not an easy journey to take. I hope that he does indeed reach out and get it for all your sakes. You did the right thing in leaving. If the stress gets to be too hard on you and your pregnancy, maybe going to your family's to have the baby would not be such a bad idea. I'm so sorry Rachel, you know I care for you and for the life you are carrying, I'd do anything to help you from here. I wish I'd known, I know I couldn't have done anything to change things, but I wish I could have been there for you to listen to you and to just have been a friend. So again, I am so very thankful that you are okay. I am going to email you my phone numbers incase you'd ever like to talk sometime. I'd also be happy to share with you about my past history with Anxiety Attacks and I do think that is what you experienced. Until you are diagnosed and talk with your pysician, it can be one of the scariest experiences imaginable. I suffered with them years ago and took medication for them and am now free of them and have been for 11 years, thank Goodness. But my heart truly does go out to you as I will never ever forget that horrible feeling.
I am so Thankful that God placed situations in your pathway that detoured you from the Gun Fire. Bless little Eli's heart, aren't children just something else? Their love is just so pure and they speak from their hearts. That is soo sweet. What a blessing.
Have a wonderful Holiday with your family and take care of yourself. Please write or call anytime Rachel.
Love and Hugs,
Donna
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