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] Date Posted:12/21/07 12:29pm In reply to:
Stephanie
's message, "Re: Can't decide?" on 12/20/07 10:46pm
I have only a minute, and it's fairly late in the day, so I'll write more later, but I just wanted to remind you this is your baby, too, and that is what will be foremost on your mind no matter what you do.
Date Posted:12/21/07 2:32pm
Well, I can't tell you all how much I really like reading your supportive words. I went to my appt this morning semi-paralyzed. I couldn't get out of the car for 15 minutes. I finally made my self go in and fill out the papers, got my finger pricked and even made it to a room. Once the nurse lady came in to speak to me it was over from there. I could't stop crying and felt so terrible that she pretty much sent me home. I went to the waiting room to get my b/f and he was nowhere to be found. He left me there.So, I started to walk home. He told me later that he needed to get his oil changed and that it was for me that he did that so we could get home...I live only two miles from the building. I was so sad. I needed him and he wasn't there. He couldn't believe that I was walking around so good. I told him that was b/c I didn't do it. I am so sad today I never thought in a million years that he would have left me there let alone feel so sad. Not sure what to do now about anything. I feel more alone now than I did before today.I don't know how I am going to parent 4 children alone?
My heart hurts hearing the sadness you're feeling right now. I pray that it will be replaced by peace and joy, especially in this Christmas season. It's ironic (poetic, actually) when you think about it - that 2000 years ago a woman found herself with an unplanned pregnancy (at least unplanned by her! ;-) I truly believe that every child is here for a reason, I believe. God doesn't make mistakes...
I will be praying for you whenever you come to mind. Hang in there. It will get better. Rest in the peace that God knows what He's doing - He will provide a path for you. It might not be easy at first, but I promise you that you will be rewarded MANY times over for choosing to give your child life...
