- Hey Desie -- Greg J P, 11:50:25 03/11/10 Thu
Often listening to your Greatest Hits CD.
Recently gave a copy of your 1999 cd release to a Les Paul, Johnny Cash fan.
He gave your tunes a positive review.
Waiting for a copyright infringement law suite from
Jude Elf Records
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- Hey Desie -- Greg J P, 11:45:02 03/11/10 Thu
Often listening to your Greatest Hits CD.
Gave a copy of your 1999 cd release to a fan of Les Paul, Johnny Cash and gave the tunes a thumbs up.
I hope we don't get copyright infringement law suite from
Jude Elf Records.
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- Thinking of you Desi -- Auntie Donna and family, 09:13:48 03/11/10 Thu
Hi Desi! You are always in our hearts! Your talents and beauty still surround and touch us all. Lots of Love Auntie Donna and all the family. xx
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- I love you, Desi!!!!!!!!!!!!! --
Judie, 05:46:37 03/11/10 Thu
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- Hello to Desi Once Again -- Auntie Peg, 18:03:09 03/08/10 Mon
Hey Desi - I heard your cousin Greg is in the process of getting your tunes together for Judolf!! I am sure he is having a great time doing this for her and enjoying the music you made over the years - you're still THE BEST and we love and miss you terribly.
Hugs from Auntie Peg
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- I was here on Sunday but couldn't post. But I'm always thinking of you. Happy birthday. -- Mom (With love), 08:16:49 10/07/09 Wed
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- Happy Birthday -- Rick Rousselle, 20:13:27 10/04/09 Sun
Mom, Tamara and I had Indian food in your memory. Thinking of you all the time not just on your birthday. Love you, miss you.
dad
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- Birthday -- Auntie Peg, 09:51:41 10/04/09 Sun
Happy birthday Desi...Love and Hugs
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- hey desi -- nicole and vanessa, 22:57:04 03/11/09 Wed
we are just thinking of you today and remembering all of our favorite memories of you. We love and miss you very much and hope that where ever you are you are happy! we love the balloon rick!!! thats genius
lots of love,
Ness and Nikki
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- Hey Desmond -- Greg, 21:51:42 03/11/09 Wed
Hey Desi,
Hard to believe its been 10 Years
When we first shed our Tears
Taking good care of your Les Paul
And got your Artwork on the Wall
Peace,
greg
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- 10 years ago today.... -- Judie, 06:53:47 03/11/09 Wed
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At this time of the day, it was still a good day. A few hours later, all hell broke loose. So, yeah, today is the 10 year anniversary of the worst day of my life and our lives.
INN, Desi.
Love,
Mom
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- Sorry, dudes. -- Judie (), 23:18:45 03/06/09 Fri
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Due to some TROLLS screwing around with their spam, all the messages got mixed up and are all out of order. So, I've put on that "captcha" thing where you have to type a code before posting. I know it's a pain but the trolls made me do it!
Please be patient, you only post here now and then. :D
I'm more upset the messages are out of order!
Judie
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- I love Tears For Fears -- Tamara, 11:43:37 01/21/05 Fri
Hi. I think about you all the time. ALL the freaking time. I just got back from New Jersey a few days ago. You would LOVE Christian. Fuck he's cute. I've been listening to Tears For Fears a lot lately. I love Roland. Anyway...here's a song for you:
I Believe
I believe that when the hurting and the pain has gone
We will be strong, Oh yes we will be strong
And I believe that if I'm crying while I write these words
Is it absurb ? Or am I being real
I believe that if you knew just what these tears were for
They would just pour like every drop of rain
That's why I believe it is too late for anyone to believe
I believe that if you thought for a moment, took your time
You would not resign yourself to your fate
And I believe that if it's written in the stars, that's fine
I can't deny that I'm a Virgo too
I believe that if your bristling while you hear this song
I could be wrong or have I hit a nerve ?
That's why I believe it is too late for anyone to believe
I believe that maybe somewhere in the darkness
In the nighttime, In the storm
In the casino
Casino spanish eyes
I believe, no I can't believe that every time you hear a new born scream
You just can't see the shaping of a life
The shaping of a life
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- Christmas Cake -- Judie, 23:46:48 12/09/08 Tue
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Hi, Des.
I have a tradition every Christmas (and I'm pretty sure I've done this every Christmas since 1999, but I couldn't swear to it - I might have missed one). I buy a Christmas cake in your honour. II think you were the only person I ever knew who liked it.
So, in your memory, every year I buy a light (as opposed to dark) Christmas cake and quite enjoy it. Dad even joined in this time.
I think I'll go have another piece of it - it's actually quite delicious. :D
Love,
Mom
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- Birthday wishes -- Charyl, 05:03:35 10/04/08 Sat
Happy Birthday, Desi. I thought of you when I saw this picture. I can easily imagine you sitting in that chair. *G*
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- Happy Birthday, Desi - kang panang!!!!!!!! I love you! -- Judie, 00:51:36 10/05/08 Sun
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- Happy Birthday -- UChris, 11:07:04 10/04/08 Sat
Happy Birthday Des,I miss you so much, like Rick said, we will meet again. I think of all the time(s) we spent together, you taught me so much, you made me laugh all the time and you showed me how to go for it. I'm off to China again and I'm going to stop by in Thailand......Some family is laughing their socks off .....way to go.
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MOJO SKY WISHING YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY -- Peggy, 18:49:27 09/29/08 Mon
HEY DESI - THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE HAPPY TO KNOW THAT MOJO SKY IS HERE AND PART OF THE FAMILY. "SKY" OF COURSE IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME - DESMOND FREEDOM SKY - AND I WANTED TO GET THAT INTO OUR NEW DOGS NAME....SO WELCOME MOJO SKY. THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY - YOU'D BE 34 THIS YEAR---HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM US ALL....AUNTIE PEG
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- Happy Birthday Desi! -- Donna Mae, 10:28:24 09/30/08 Tue
Hi Desi! Thanking of you on this special day! Thanks so much for the wonderful Art Work you left for all of us to enjoy. I'm always in awe when I am looking at the beautiful detail of your buffalos. My little grandson Dario has some of your handsome features and I'm reminded of you often when I'm with him. Hope you are well and wishing you lots of love. Auntie D.
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Happy BIrthday Desi -- Auntie Dot (Happy Birthday), 19:20:19 10/01/08 Wed
Not really knowing what to say, but I do know what I feel. I feel sad that I didn't have the opportunity to know you better and see you grow into the wonderful and talented young man you became. Your mom, dad and sister have kept your memory alive through your artwork, their memories of you, and this website. Happy BIrthday Desi.
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- Happy BDay DFSR -- Greg, 20:22:26 10/01/08 Wed
Remembering Desie tonight.
Going for a drive tonight in out new Honda Civic, while enjoying Desie's Greatest Hits Cd, cause it's got melody, harmony, and a song in my heart.
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- Happy Birthday Des -- Rick, 09:28:25 10/04/08 Sat
Hi Des: There are two things that really keep me going. The first is reading all the well wishes from family and friends and the other is knowing someday, somewhere we'll meet again.
Love Dad
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- In memory of you, Desi. -- Judie (), 15:45:51 03/12/08 Wed
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It was nice having Indian food last night. We raised a glass of water to you - hahahahahaha. Sorry, no one drinks! *G* But we had fun. Next time Dad wants to go to Sawasdee, so I guess that's where we'll go in October.
Thanks Jason, Chris, Jen, Bea, Nathan, Christian, Melina and Nikki for remembering Desi with us. And thanks to Greg, Peggy, Donna and Charyl for remembering him here on his guestbook.
Love,
Judie
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- Dinner for you -- UChris, 22:46:47 03/11/08 Tue
Our ninth year remembering this "day," you are missed and loved very much.
I think of all the times we spent together and at times I expect you to walk thru the door. Next year I hope to travel to Thailand.
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- Hi, Desi! -- Judie (), 10:20:10 12/26/04 Sun
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We had a very quiet Christmas here yesterday. Jason and Uncle Christmas were over. :D
Tamara got us a 6-point
It goes very well with
Of course you would love it. :D
Maybe next year she'll get us a buffalo. :D
Love,
Mom
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- Your Art Work is Amazing -- Auntie Donna, 15:10:08 03/11/08 Tue
Thank you Desi for sharing your wonderful Artistic Talent with so many. I enjoy looking at your amazing buffalo pictures everyday. Hugs and Kisses Auntie D.
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- Alright! It's donut day for me. ;-) As usual it can't be a Krispy Kreme (bummer that) but I'll enjoy a good ole Dunkin, in your honor, Desi. -- Charyl, 04:25:32 03/11/08 Tue
((((((((((Judie))))))))))
((((((((((Rick))))))))))
((((((((((Tamara))))))))))
((((((((((Desi))))))))))
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- REMEMBERING DESI -- PEGGY LEE, 18:51:40 03/10/08 Mon
ANOTHER YEAR HAS COME AND GONE AND WE HAVE CHATTED ABOUT YOU OFTEN DESI. I AM SURE THERE ARE HUNDREDS OF STORIES ABOUT YOU AND YOUR ANTICS THAT ARE STILL WAITING TO BE TOLD...HOPEFULLY I CAN GET A COPY OF YOUR ADVENTURES UP NORTH WITH HARLOLD AT THE FARM IN ALBERTA...AHEM!!! THIS WOULD BE YOUR DEPARTMENT JUDIE...IT IS SUCH A GOOD READ - I AM WAITING FOR MY COPY TO SHARE WITH OWEN AND HARLOWE (MY GRANDCHILDREN). IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE JUST ASK JUDIE!!! LOVE, AUNTIE PEG
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- Takin' good care of your Custom Les Paul, Dez. -- Greg, 02:56:56 03/11/08 Tue
Shining it up and oiling the fretboard.
It's still got melodies, and harmony, and a song in its heart for you.
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- Welcome .... -- Judie (), 10:11:14 03/11/05 Fri
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... to the 6th anniversary of the worst day of my life!
We still miss you, Desi. Nothing will ever make up for that - but we carry on and you're always with us.
Remember that buffalo movie that you and I used to love to watch. The part where the buffalo is licking his chops - remember how we used to love playing it over and over.
http://www.desirousselle.com/Buffalo_Movie.html
I can't believe it's really been six years, Desi, but I continue to wait till the day we meet again.
Love,
Mom
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- Christmas 2007 -- Jenny (happy), 12:24:17 12/26/07 Wed
Merry Christmas to all who view here.
Nice new site, easy to get around. Thanks JR.
Hope you guys had a good Christmas.
Love
Jenny
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- Happy Birthday, Desi! -- Judie, 23:03:30 10/04/07 Thu
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I love you! I'll miss you forever.
Love,
Mom
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- Thinking about you -- UChris, 15:06:03 10/04/07 Thu
Happy Birthday, Des, I miss you like hell.
"NEPHEW" it's really hurting.
Great mew site Judie, my thoughts w/you and Rick, Tam.
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33 YEARS YOUNG TODAY -- Auntie Peg, 18:52:24 10/04/07 Thu
I'll try and get the words right: here goes - I'VE GOT A MELODY AND A HARMONY AND A SONG IN MY HEART FOR YOU......MISS YOU DESI AND ALL THE LAUGHS YOU BROUGHT TO US - ESPECIALLY WHEN PERFORMING WITH YOUR COUSIN GREG AND UNCLE RAY LEE - WE HAD A HOOT THAT NIGHT. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESI, LOVE SQUIGGLY GUY TOO!!
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- Good Evening Dez -- Greg Pitzel, 01:30:36 10/04/07 Thu
Buffalo Gals, won't you come out tonight,
Come out tonight, come out tonight.
Buffalo Gals, won't you come out tonight
And dance by the light of the moon.
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- Thank you for posting a link to Desi's music. A precious memory! Yes, I am crying! -- Lochala, 05:22:30 08/09/07 Thu
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- Only me -- Gwen, 12:40:03 08/12/07 Sun
I haven't been here in such a long time but getting the message about the new website made me check out the site again and I'd forgotten how much I cry whenever I visit. I didn't even know you but I know you were a fantastic person. I still listen to your music and today I've been sharing the site with my daughter Ceri who was only 12 when you went to Thailand and didn't come back. We absolutely loved what your Mom wrote about you wondering how to top everything.
I'm so glad to have been a part of the Desi's kids project and am aware that I haven't contributed directly in ages so I've rejoined paypal tonight and will be doing my bit very shortly. Thank goodness for your Mom, JP, Charyl, Janice and the others who keep it all going.
Anyway, just wanted to say hi. Wish I'd known you, so glad I know your Mom and Dad and Tamara
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- you were right...i did cry!!!!! -- Elsa (crying!!!), 02:09:20 08/03/07 Fri
OMG! you were SO right! i cried my eyes to extreme puffiness! Thanks for sharing the website with me. It has made me think about how much more I need to share with my family.
I also wanted to tell you a little something that reminds me of Desi when I'm working at Starbucks...One day he and I were putting one of our orders away and on our bags of decaf espresso, they print the name of the coffee in abbreviated form: DES. So, Desi decided that he would add an "i" to the end of the print on the bag...DESi! I remember that there were probably 10 bags of decaf espresso with his name on them! it was SO funny! I think about that once in a while when i'm putting the order away :)
Thanks again for sharing the website! See you soon!
Elsa
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- Just saying hello -- Nadia, 23:29:15 07/04/07 Wed
Hi guys
You probably don't remember me... I'm just an old Starbucks friend of Desi and Neil's.... I think about Desi every once in a while and it's so great that you guys are maintaining this website to keep his memory alive for all of us.
I hope you guys are all doing well. I can't believe it's been 8 years (???). Sometimes it feels like yesterday, and sometimes it feels like forever ago.
Just wanted to say hello.
Nadia
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- desirousselle.com -- Judie, 22:53:56 04/08/07 Sun
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I forgot to mention that I have a new domain name for Desi's site. So far I only have one page done, but it links to the old site.
Hopefully, it'll be easy to remember - as long as you can spell his name correctly *G* - that's Rousselle - two s's and two l's.
http://www.desirousselle.com
Judie
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- Hi, Des. -- Judie, 21:53:54 03/14/07 Wed
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A day never goes by that I don't think of you. And a day never goes by that we don't talk about you. It's like you are still here, just on a vacation. Whenever I look at your pictures it's like you ARE right here. It's bizarre, but your presence is still here. The only thing is you never age. I keep sharing your art and music and there are many people who are filled with happiness when I do. I found more music a while ago - I realized that you had music on VHS tapes so when I have time to just enjoy them I'm going to listen to them and hopefully get them on CD.
I can't believe it's been 8 years. I love you and you are always with me.
Love,
Mom
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- In your honour -- Uncle Chris``, 21:08:12 03/14/07 Wed
Rick, Judie, Tamara, Jason and I had lunch together in your honour. Thanks for making us laugh.
UC
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- Thinking about you.... -- Kirsty (missing you), 12:10:45 03/12/07 Mon
Hi Des, I have your CD loaded on my ITunes and when you stuff comes up on shuffle mode, people are always asking, "Who is that?. He's good!". Yes, he is good. Love, Kirsty
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- thinking of you -- uncle Chris, 14:50:25 02/17/07 Sat
8 years coming and I still can't believe it.
Love you, ya Rat Bastard.
UC
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Just found this -- Jaime (impressed), 06:24:21 01/31/07 Wed
This is a wonderful site. I wish I would have been able to meet him. I think we were VERY similar souls. This site is amazing! A great tribute. Love you all, Jaime Mantesso
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- Happy Birthdayday, Desi! -- Charyl, 04:51:35 10/04/06 Wed
(((((Judie)))))
(((((Rick)))))
(((((Tamara)))))
Let's all go have a donut! :-D
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- Messages from sisters.... -- Judie, 15:50:55 05/28/06 Sun
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We went to Head Smashed In Buffalo Jump on Tuesday, May 16th, which was one day before the 7 year anniversary of us going there and spreading his ashes in Alberta. There was me, Rick, Tamara and Peggy. It was also my birthday and I got birthday messages from Cheryl, Dot and Donna. They mentioned Desi and I thought I'd share them....
I often think of Desi, and, although I didn't have the opportunity to know him as well as an Aunt should, I still have fond memories of him. I remember when he came to visit us; he was a humorous, intelligent and a loving soul. I remember that Mom couldn't stop talking about what a wonderful guy he was, and how good looking, and how funny he was. You and Rick should be very proud of the man he became as well as the young woman Tamara is.
Today, may your memories fill your hearts with warmth, because although Desi was only here for a short time, he impacted many people with his zest for life and loving nature.
~ Love Cheryl and Family
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Good Vibes and best wishes on your trip to the Buffalo Jump. Desi was a very special person and I know he will feel your presence there, as you will his. Take Care!
~ Dot, Terry and Family
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Hi guys, I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you today as you revisit the place Desi loved to go to. I've never been there myself, but understand it is a spectacular place with beatiful scenery.
... I do think of you guys often and Desi often and wish I could have known him in his adult years. I understand he was a very free spirit (hence the Freedom Sky) being very fitting for his name! Also a talented musician and I have had the pleasure of listening to his CD. Very great stuff.
~ With love, Donna Mae and Rob
Thanks, guys - and thanks, Peggy - I'm sure you had something to do with this. :D
Love,
Judie
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- What Tamara said... -- Judie, 20:26:19 03/12/06 Sun
... on her blog...
it's a funny thing...
When you are hurting because you miss someone, you want that pain to go away. It seems (from my experience) that time is the only thing that truly makes that hurt go away - well, feel better. And that hurt can apply to several situations...loss of a person (permanent, a break up, etc.), loss of a job, embarrassment, etc. Over time you heal and the sting fades. Often because you forget...or you let go maybe?
But in the case of death it seems like a conundrum. You want to feel better, but you don't want to forget. So what is time doing for you? Making you able to deal with it? Kinda like when your body sends extra white blood cells when you're sick? And when would you consider yourself healed? Maybe you never do, just better equipped to deal.
So my biggest fear is forgetting. It's like the more time that passes, the better you feel about the whole thing. Only, it seems you reach this peak, and instead of feeling better, you start to realize how long that person has been gone...and for me, I fear losing the memories. I know I never will (perhaps until I'm simply too old to have my wits about me) but it occurred to me that 7 years is a long time to miss someone. Almost like you're not allowed to be sad anymore. But it seems like just yesterday that you last saw that person. But the number seems ugly and I'm mad because it's been that long...and I'm afraid of forgetting.
I've always liked this quote...it's from a book by Diana Gabaldon, my mom's favourite author... "But a man is not forgotten, as long as there are two people left under the sky. One, to tell the story; the other, to hear it ... I am one. You are the other. He is not forgotten."
Today, I am thankful for my vivid memories, cameras, and stories.
Tamara
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- You still make me laugh -- Rick, 20:27:04 03/11/06 Sat
Judie's right; it's been seven years and it seems like you're still here. Judie was reading some of your diary posts and they're hillarious. You still crack us up. As I was listening to your songs I felt like I could walk into the kitchen and find you there. Like Charyl we gave you food for thought and had some East Indian cuisine in your honour it was delicious I must say. love you forever...dad
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- Donut Day -- Charyl, 04:12:37 03/11/06 Sat
I don't know why, but for some reason I began having special breakfasts on this day in Desi's memory and honor. Hey I know it's a bit bizzarre, but well, I bet Desi would get a kick out of it knowing that there is this old lady out there that is going to eat donuts today just for him.
Sadly they will not be Krispy Kreme donuts. I'll have to settle for Dunkin Donuts. Shall I beam one up to you Desi? :-)
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- 7 years today -- Judie, 00:11:22 03/11/06 Sat
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I can't believe it's been 7 years that you have been gone. We still talk about you every day and it still seems like you are just on a vacation. I am still waiting for you to come back. I know that's lame, but I am. One day we will meet again. I love you. We're going for Indian food later today in your honour. :)
Mom
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- Happy New Year Desi -- Judie, 01:51:08 01/01/06 Sun
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Wherever you are.
Love,
Mom
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- Happy Birthday, Desi! -- Judie, 00:09:04 10/04/05 Tue
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Another year has passed - you would have been 31 today.
We still miss you and love you. We'll go and celebrate tonight at an Indian buffet. Remember "twenty-five centesss". ;D
INN.
Mom.
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- See You In My Dreams -- Kirsty, 12:18:04 06/30/05 Thu
Hi Rick, Judie and Tamara, I had a dream about Desi Tuesday night. It was really great seeing him in my dream! I miss him and you guys too. I'm still listening to Desi's music and jamming too. Giant hugs to you all. Love, Kirsty
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- Thinking of you always -- Uncle Chris, 20:50:44 11/23/04 Tue
Desi, I was thinking of you today. (as always) Remember the time in Vegas when you came into the living room wearing my cowboy hat, poncho and cowboy boots, standing in your underwear chewing on a half cigar doing a Clint Eastwood impersonation? Rick and I were holding our guts rolling on the floor. Dam, I wish I had taken your picture. Remember the time we were standing outside Mike Tyson's office and you did your dead on impersonation of Mike Tyson and his body guards were bent over laughing begging you to stop? I was laughing to myself thinking of these and other times you had me and other crying from laughter. I love you! If you want, call me.
Love, Unk
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- Happy Birthday, Desi. -- Judie, 13:04:26 10/04/04 Mon
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Yep, it's your birthday today and it would have been the big THREE-O!
Tonight we're going to go for Indian food at the Himalayan Restaurant - Tam says it's great and I know you would have loved to go there. So, I'll be eating chapatis and curry chicken for you tonight.
Love,
Mom
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- Where are you? -- Rick, 10:07:22 10/04/04 Mon
HEY!! It's your birthday and you're not here. How can you have any cake if you're not here? If you don't show up soon I'm eating your piece.....Sooooo HURRY UP!!!!
Love Dad
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- Yo :) -- Eva, 05:38:21 10/03/04 Sun
Thinking of you all, not only today, but today as well, and I can even stay online long enough to post this.
(((((((((The Rousselle Family)))))))))
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- 30 years ago today -- Judie, 16:30:30 08/09/04 Mon
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August 9, 1974. :|
Wish you were here to celebrate. Not that we're doing anything exciting today, per se, but I still wish you were here.
INN.
Mom
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- Good Song -- Tamara, 09:31:51 07/22/04 Thu
What the hell is your name
And can you explain this mess
It seems your playing a game
Where you only know how to take out the best
Cause if assholes could fly
This place would be busier than O'Hare
There's proof in the sky
It's as thick as our skulls yet it's thinner than air
I have something to say
If the chip on your shoulder should fall to your chest
Get it off right away
Cause if you don't then it won't be in peace that you rest
It's just a matter of time
That we all go away to a better place I'm told
It all sounds well and fine
But without you around I feel nothing but cold
And I now have nothing
But your heartbeat in my head
And a photograph of my traveling friend
So what the hell is your name
And can you explain this mess
It seems your playing a game
Where you only know how to take out the best
Cause if assholes could fly
This place would be busier than O'Hare
There's proof in the sky
It's as thin as our skulls yet it's thicker than air
And I now have nothing
But your heartbeat in my head
And a photograph of my traveling friend
And I became nothing when I found out you were dead --- When I
found out I'd never see you again
And all the time they took talking in circles
To get them off the hook would take
miracle workers
We're nowhere near prepared there's
no way of knowing
Why don't they just admit they're scared
Cause its already showing
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- Music -- Kirsty Hogg, 13:55:14 05/05/04 Wed
Hi Judie, Rick and Tamara,
What is your email address? How are you? I am enjoying the CD now that Rick dropped off. It is INCREDIBLE. Jesus, My Lord in hilarious! I love Desi's sense of humour. Because I just bought a computer last week for home and our computer's at work don't have sound cards, this is first time I have heard the non- 3 Midgets and a Toad material and it is just fantastic. I love the bluesy stuff and the Hank Williams/ Johnny Cash type stuff. This is truly quality music. I listen to the 3 -Midget stuff a lot and it is great to have new material. Desi is an inspiration to me. Take care. Love, Kirsty
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- Hi, Des. -- Judie, 22:46:45 04/19/04 Mon
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I think about you every day. :-)
Love,
Mom
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- WOW -- Rick, 08:28:07 03/11/04 Thu
Wow! It's been five years. Still seems like yesterday. I sent you a message shortly after midnight but I don't see it here so I'm guessing you liked it so much you intercepted it and kept it for yourself. ha ha ha Tamara wrote the lyrics of one of my favourite songs of yours we still listen to all your songs. I still love you and I still miss you. I'll see you in the future love...dad
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- 5th Anniversary -- Tamara, 00:50:42 03/11/04 Thu
Before I'd even stepped through the door and set foot on the ground, she wanted me on my way back home where I'd be safe and sound.
Mama don't cry for me.
I tried to tell her what was on my mind but I didn't know what to say, so I hugged her and I said goodbye then I was on my way.
Mama Don't cry for me.
I'll be on my way
I'll be on my way
I just bought my ticket for the Greyhound home today
I'll be on my way
I'll be on my way...back home.
I call you every now and then to see how things have been, then when I hang up the phone that's when the tears begin.
Mama don't cry for me.
Once again the night is here and I'm feeling all alone, just another day or two and Mama I'll be home.
Mama Don't cry for me.
I'll be on my way
I'll be on my way
I just bought my ticket for the Greyhound home today
I'll be on my way
I'll be on my way...back home.
A thousand miles away and feeling lonlier each day, I could call you up again but there's nothing new to say.
Mama don't cry for me.
I could write a letter but a letter takes too long, so I'll just seek some comfort from my guitar and a song.
Mama Don't cry for me.
I'll be on my way
I'll be on my way
I just got my ticket for the Greyhound home today
I'll be on my way
I'll be on my way...back home.
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I'll pick you up at the station.
Going out for Thai food in L.A. with Matt, Jen and Christian...an international family celebration this year...kinda cool.
I miss you more than I knew I could tolerate. Love you more than physical existance can take away.
I love you, I love you I love you. I love you.
Tamara
"And wherever you've gone
And wherever we might go
It don't seem fair...today just disappeared
Your light's reflected now, reflected from afar
We were but stones, your light made us stars" ~ E.V.
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- Hi, Des. -- Judie, 00:22:33 03/11/04 Thu
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I nub noo!
Mom
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- Hi there :) -- Eva, 07:40:00 02/15/04 Sun
Just checking in, it's been a while since I last posted. I've been here a few times, but couldn't post, or I'd have given away the surprise. I just wanted to say that I've had a great time working on Tam's quilt, it's been fun. And there's been lots of talking about Desi and Tam, aye, Judie? :) I just wanted to say thanks for letting me use all the pics, for sharing them. You're a special family. :)
Hugs. :*
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- No - THANK *YOU*, Eva, for making such a lovely, one-of-a-kind quilt for Tamara. We really should be sharing it HERE
!! As Tamara said, "These are all the things I love ..... ME! .........." :D You have to see this quilt in person to believe it! More in here>>>>>>> -- Judie, 10:16:29 02/15/04 Sun
- I have to say Eva that quilt is beautiful. I love it and have to thank you for all your time,effort and thought put into this. You are a wonderful person . You shouldn't have but I'm glad you did....Rick (NT) -- Rick, 10:56:52 02/15/04 Sun
- Wow! That is really nice. Well done. it's gorgeous. (NT) -- Charyl, 04:36:58 02/17/04 Tue
- Eva, this is a brilliant quilt!!! Ye are a talented lass, eh? Enjoy all the love in the quilt, Tamara. (NT) -- Keira, 05:17:04 02/17/04 Tue
- Oh what a beautiful special quilt! For a beautiful special young woman I might add! Eva, the work and love and time you put into this is amazing, but not surprising, knowing your generous heart. My life has been enriched by knowing all of you, especially Desi. Thank you for sharing. Hugs. (NT) -- Marcie, 09:19:00 02/17/04 Tue
- Long time, no talk -- Nadia Mudge (nee Steede), 17:10:59 02/08/04 Sun
Hi Everyone
You probably don't remember me, but I worked with Desi at Starbucks years ago.
Every year, about this time...well, usually closer to March, I start to think of him more... and that's what brought me to your awesome website.
The truth is, Desi comes up in conversation a lot, and I find myself constantly telling stories about his wacky antics to friends who never knew him, or even of him.
Anyway, I hope that you are all doing well. I'll make sure to check back here or any new updates more often...it's just nice to have this site here...to take a few moments out of a day and remember an amazing guy.
Thank you!
Nadia
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- Hello Desi and Family -- Nicole Rousselle, 05:49:01 02/04/04 Wed
Hello all, melina sent me the address for Grandma's tribute a few days ago so I decided to check it out. Then I thought of Desi and decided to check out his site too. I only expected to glace through, but instead I have been here for 4 hours looking at anything and everything (it is now 6:00 am and I have a mid-term tomorrow). Suprise suprise, yet another person who can't seem to get enough of Des. A few years back when melina and I were living with you I remember going downstairs to the basement to hang out with desi, we would sing together and talk. I just really liked to be around him. I remember feeling so proud when ever I would make him laugh, he was the real funny one, so to me having him laugh at something I said was "so cool" (I was in grade eight). I think I enjoyed his company so much because he had all the qualities in him that I wanted for myself. I am so thankful that you all were able to open your home and hearts to us. Desi got deep down inside everyone he touched, including me. Thank you for joking with me, talking to me, loving me, teasing me, ect. I miss you a lot. Auntie Judie, Uncle Rick, Tamara- you guys make me laugh too and I love you.
Cannon ball,
nikki:)
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- Happy New Year, Des. -- Judie, 22:43:27 12/31/03 Wed
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Wherever you are, I hope you are doing well.
We have had a great week playing your music. Can't wait to get some CDs burned for friends and relatives.
We nub noo!
Mom
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- Christmas time -- Judie, 18:08:46 12/26/03 Fri
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Christmas has been a very big Desi time!
I'll post more on the web site with graphics .... but for now I will say that on December 17th two of Desi's songs were played on CITR Radio at UBC:
LIVE FROM THUNDERBIRD RADIO HELL
9:00-11:00PM
Local muzak from 9. Live bandz from 10-11.
URL: http://www.stepandahalf.com/tbirdhell
Tamara arranged for this through her friend Irene. Desi was the lead artist at 9 p.m. that night and we were all shocked because it was a surprise. There was Rick, Judie, Tamara, Chris, Neil, Melina, Nicki, and Jason - Tamara really surprised us. Desi sounded excellent - they played "I'd Still Give It To You" and "I Was Free" - man, they sounded great.
Then Tamara gave us a great surprise for Christmas - a CD with 23 of Desi's songs on it. I've been meaning to get his tapes transferred into a digital format but just never got around to it - she found his tapes and with a LOT of help from her friend Greg White she picked 23 tunes, he fixed all the audio to make them quality cuts, and we now have a 23 song CD!
So, it was a very Desi Christmas this year. He lives on through his music and art.
Thanks Greg, for all your expertise!
Tamara - INN and NNN. :D
Mom
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- Hi, Desi -- Judie, 10:29:01 12/13/03 Sat
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Just wanting to say hi. I visit often to see if anyone else has left a message.
I like to listen to LIKE MINDS with Gary Burton, Pat, Chick Corea, Roy Haynes and Dave Holland. It's from November 1998 and I was listening to it a LOT in early 1999 and whenever I hear it it reminds me of that time, and you. I'm listening to it a lot lately. Whenever I am working at my computer and I listen to Pat that's usually the first CD I play. Listening right now........... :-)
Love, Mom
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- October, 23, '03 -- Tamara, 10:27:25 10/23/03 Thu
Ever feel like you got to a party late and missed all the fun? :) I meant to stop by on your birthday, but as usual, I'm slow and seem to always be in a hurry, then I clear forgot. Not really too sure why I even stopped by here today, I haven't been to the site in ages. And I'm writing you a message but I have no idea what I want to say. I saw Pearl Jam last night, they played "Off He Goes", our song. :) I think about you all the time - all the time. Sometimes when I REALLY start to think about it all I get very sad and it just doesn't make sense. I just want one more conversation, and a hug. Ok, so that's not all I want, but I'd settle for that. I want to make sense of this world, and these fucked up people in it, with you. Because even if we never could, we'd at least be able to laugh at them. Hahaha! I just had a thought, if you were on Survivor, you'd be like this guy Rupert on there right now. I had the best burrito I've ever had in my life last night in Seattle, at a food fair no less. Ruben has a new band and a CD. Nothing on there comes close to "Fresh Pigs" (met a girl - mother!), it's a different style from Glueleg, but so far it sounds pretty good.
Ok, time to get this day started. I love you so much.
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- Buon compleanno :) -- Eva, 06:42:31 10/04/03 Sat
It's weird how someone you've never even met can become... important isn't the right word, "vicino" would be the most fitting in Italian, in English it translates to near, close, but I'm not quite sure if it has the same meaning... oh well, I hope you understand what I want to say, and I've never been good with words... and I'm rambling big time, I just wanted to say that I'm thinking of you all. :)
((((((((Judie, Rick, Tamara, Desi)))))))))
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- Hoser Hugs -- Charyl, 20:34:10 10/03/03 Fri
I just love this time of year. There is so much happening and so many wonderful people to think about. Autumn makes me look back and think about how I spent the past few months and then I just keep going farther back and remembering all sorts of things. And, here I am. :-)
I'm really bummed about only being able to give you cyber hugs just now, but that is all I have to give. Brace yourselves, they are BIG hugs.
((((((((((Judie))))))))))
((((((((((Tick)))))))))) *g*
((((((((((Tam))))))))))
((((((((((((((((((((Desi)))))))))))))))))))
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- Happy Birthday, Desi. -- Judie, 03:21:08 10/04/03 Sat
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As usual, I'm wondering where you are right now. I hope wherever it is, you are having a great life.
For us here it is your birthday today and you would have been 29. I can't believe it's been 4-1/2 years since you were gone. It sucks, really, but since there's nothing we can do about that, I don't dwell on it. It just makes me sad if I do.
So, I will continue to talk about you every day, and think about you all the time. Hey, it's my job, it's what I do. :-) Remember that comedian? Well, as we go about celebrating your birthday today .... you'll be P-ing, you'll be T-ing, you'll be A-ing ..... you'll be there! :D
I love you. Hurry back and find us again. Yeah, so I'm wacky - whatever. :D
Love,
Mom
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- Happy Birthday -- Dad, 00:26:12 10/04/03 Sat
Hi Des. Happy 29th. Like Judie said; not a day goes by where you're not thought about. We all love you and we will be celebrating your life today. You're in my heart today and everyday. Nothing is different really other than today is your birthday and you're not here. Love always.......dad
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- Hi, Des. -- Mom, 03:14:27 09/20/03 Sat
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I still think about you every day, many times. Not a day goes by that your name is not said - it's like you're still here, but we can't see you, and you don't talk back. But we still talk about you - you always enjoyed us telling Desi stories right in front of you. :-) There will always be Desi stories.
Remember the Band Van! Too funny. Clean-up in aisle 10. :D Now if only Tamara would get off her butt and write up some more stories. :D
INN.
Mom
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- To Desi and those others who have gone on....... if you want the song, just e-mail me. Thanks, Colleen. :D -- Judie, 11:04:36 06/15/03 Sun
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JOSH GROBAN singing - music by Richard Marx, lyrics by Linda Thompson, produced by David Foster
"To Where You Are"
Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear
Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave
Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
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- Hi there... -- Eva, 08:32:10 05/21/03 Wed
... just stopping by and leaving a message, since your Mom, Dad and Tam are off for a couple days. Not that they don't think of you of course, but I don't think they can come visit, so I'm keeping up the ... fort???... how do you say over there? :D (And yep, I know I'm hosed :D)
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- What we also did on March 11th -- Judie, 15:17:11 04/19/03 Sat
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Tamara is a regular blood donor and on March 11th she wanted to donate blood, so she and I and Rick and Chris went to the Canadian Blood Services where she donated blood in memory of Desi. They even give you a card:
HERE is it.
Inside it reads "To: Mom and Dad - INN (heart) Tamara". (INN=I Nub Noo *G*)
The card is a nice touch. :D
Judie
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- Thinking of and Missing You -- Uncle Chris, 09:27:45 03/27/03 Thu
Desi, not a day goes by that I don't miss you or think of you. Hell, several times a day, everyday. Lately, even more. Nefphewwwwwwwwww it's really hurting. Des, you are a big part of my life and one day we will meet again. Maybe in Vegas or the San Diego Zoo or most likely in Asia somewhere. For the last few weeks I feel that you are happy again and at peace, that is good. When we were at the temple March 11th., for the first time I felt at peace. Until next time, Love UNK.
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- (((((((((The Rousselle Family))))))))) -- Eva, 00:34:58 03/11/03 Tue
Thinking of you all.
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- Somehow I missed that this page existed - -- Colleen, 08:31:44 03/13/03 Thu
... I don't know how the hell that happened. Doesn't matter though. I believe that my thoughts are heard by our loved ones who have passed to the next dimension, and these written musings are for the edification and comfort of those of us left behind.
Anyway ... HI! I knew the day was coming soon cuz Des - you and Erica left this world only a month or so apart (4 years ago April 22nd) and tho I forget your exact date (I have the brain of a sieve for stuff like this - sorry*G*) you'll understand that I can't ever forget Erica's date. So the memory of you gets tagged into this time of year.
So many things change - gosh that's what our lives are all about I guess, even the grieving changes over time, but the fact that you (and my Erica) were major parts of the lives of the people who knew and loved you never changes... so in a way, you are with us still.
So take care, I know you both are in a better place, and I know that we'll all meet up again when it's time. The waiting is damn hard sometime, but we'll get through.
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- March 11th, 2003 -- Judie, 02:06:07 03/12/03 Wed
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We went to the Buddhist Temple in Richmond today (yesterday, actually) and had a great time. It was very interesting and very nice. Will post more and pictures tomorrow. :-)
Judie
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- Tommorrow -- Rick, 11:03:34 03/10/03 Mon
Hi Des. Tomorrow is the fourth anniversary of the saddest day of my life. I wasn't going to post anything but I feel like it's just not right to ignore it. I love you as much as ever. Not one single day goes by that I don't think of you. Yes I wish you were here but I know that can't be. I still find it very unreal that you're not here. It doesn't matter what I say nothing will change that. You will be in my heart and soul forever. LOVE and HUGS....dad
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- Yo! : ) -- Eva, 13:36:28 01/31/03 Fri
India? Woo, that's quite far away, aye? :D Oh, Judie, you may want to change your e-mail addy all over the site, or you'll not get the mail! Hugs!
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- Every Day -- Judie, 01:30:03 02/23/03 Sun
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.... I come here and see what's up. Not many messages lately although I do think of something to say to you every time. I just say it in my head cause I don't want to hog the message board. :D
I suppose I'm not the only one who can't believe it's been four years this March. :(
It seems like forever, but yet it seems like yesterday. I still think of you every day. I love you.
Mom
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- Hola, visitors. :D -- Judie, 23:33:52 01/30/03 Thu
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I am intrigued by the stats for the web site - I keep seeing people visiting from an ISP or two in India!
Videsh Sanchar Nigam Ltd, India and Bharat Sanchar Nigam Limited, India.
That seems so weird to me - hey, people - who out there is in India. :-)
Interesting visitors - nice to "see" you. :D
Of course, I know who checks in from Italy. Hi Eva and Giulia. :D
Judie
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- Cool Song -- Tamara, 00:37:03 01/10/03 Fri
Wave Goodbye
Chris Cornell
Words get tangled on your tongue
And you stumble on your feet
When you miss somebody
And everywhere you think you see them
Walking down the street
When you miss somebody
When you miss somebody
You tell yourself a hundred thousand times
Nobody ever lives forever
So you give it one more try
To wave goodbye, wave goodbye
Every hurtful thing you ever said
Is ringing in your ear
When you miss somebody
And everything of beauty that you see
Only brings a tear
When you miss somebody
When you miss somebody
You tell yourself everything will be alright
Try to stand up strong and brave
When all you want to do is lay down and die
How long I've waited for an answer or a sign
Lonely and weary from
The troubled task of trying
To wave goodbye
So now you start to recognize
That every single path you see
Leads to a tear in your eye
So wave goodbye, wave goodbye
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- What Up Dog?! -- Tamara, 01:21:12 12/25/02 Wed
Hey Big Guy. Merry Christmas. Holidays are always reflective. Every damn day is reflective. I love and appreciate everything I have and had. I am anxious for the day that you are in my life again. I love you so much. Sigh.
I miss you like crazy. You are the coolest. The four of us are the coolest. :) I love you.
Tamara
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- Back -- Tamara, 13:15:25 12/12/02 Thu
Pearl Jam rules. They make me think. Everyone should listen to "I Am Mine" and pay attention to what it's saying. I could post those lyrics but I really came to post these ones. Perhaps a bit of a different relationship in this one, but the sentiment's the same.
Thumbing My Way
I have not been home since you left long ago.
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven.
Counting steps. Walking backwards on the road.
I'm counting my way back to heaven.
I can't be free with what's locked inside of me.
If there was a key you took it in your hands.
There's no wrong or right but I'm sure there's good and bad.
The questions linger overhead.
No matter how cold the winter, there's a spring time ahead.
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven.
I'd wish that I could hold you. I'd wish that I had.
Thinking about heaven.
I let go of a rope. Thinking that's what held me back.
And in time I've realized it's now wrapped around my neck.
I can't see what's next from this lonely overpass.
Hang my head and count my steps as another car goes past.
All the rusted signs we ignore throughout our lives.
Choosing the shiny ones instead.
I turned my back. Now there's not turning back.
No matter how cold the winter, there's a spring time ahead.
I smile but who am I kidding.
I'm just walking the miles. Every once in a while I get a ride.
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven.
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- Hi -- Tamara, 12:43:33 12/08/02 Sun
I was eating breakfast this morning and I ate my toast into the shape of a buffalo (not on purpose). It was abstract for sure, but a buffalo none the less. It made me think you were trying to say hi. Nothing more. So, hi. :) I love you so much.
I always think of you when I'm leaving for a trip. Maybe because there's more time to think? Maybe because you loved to travel? Flashbacks from trips we took? Don't know really. I'm leaving to go see PJ in Seattle at the Key Arena. First time I saw them there I was with you, No Code tour. You saw Jerry Cantrell. We were separated and I seem to recall you looking for me. Good times. Eddie played "Off He Goes" on Friday night. I love you. When I saw the buffalo toast and started thinking about you "Arc" from the new album was playing in my room. How fitting. Mark said last night that he wished he had gotten to meet you, that you seemed cool. I told him you were and I thought you two would get along well.
Ok, I'll be leaving any minute, gotta double check I have everything. iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.
T-Dog
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- Hi! : ) -- Eva, 05:24:37 12/08/02 Sun
Just stopping by and thought to say hi! : ) And besides hi I'd like to say thanks to you, Judie, and your family, for sharing with us.
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- Les Pauls and Marlboros -- Tyson (the Might T ) Froese, 16:14:05 11/22/02 Fri
The 2 things 'tween us that mattered most
was Les Pauls and Marlboros
Like a secret pact of sancity
we always stuck by it, you and me
and when the weather was bleak and just plain gross
there was always our Les Pauls and Marlboros
The things that mattered most
was the time and toil we spent to learn
and when our minds were racing a marathon
yet our fingers kept tripping up the hole damn song
but that is how we learned, together
and you helped me through in the most quite way
by giving me place that I could just...play
and feel like a home and be around
some friends and people that helped me be sound
the things that mattered most
was the bottom lip you used to show me
and the pool of drool that came from your mouth when you played and played you heart out
that is how you taught me
to get lost in the mahogany
of the things that mattered the most
Les Pauls and Marlboros
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- Hey, Des! -- Judie, 22:21:32 11/20/02 Wed
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This just in! Somebody loves you! :-)
Oh right .... it's me - hahahahahahahaha.
Carry on! :-)
Mom
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- Hi -- Tamara, 23:58:55 11/07/02 Thu
I love you and I miss you. Feeling a little bit sad for you right now.
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- Some Never Come Back -- Tamara, 15:33:24 11/02/02 Sat
Holding out for troubled waters
Who knows where the course will tell you
You've got many fortunate beliefs
Like love your girl and love your mother
Don't wait until a cold December
Who knows when a brother's goin' down
Something every girl should know
Don't count on some to make it home
'Cause that reminds me of a time when
All the lights were shining and the
Light was always more than one could use
And you were once a shining ocean
Giving light to those that wanted
Something more to hold than just the air
So give me something to remember
A diamond ring upon a finger
Something every girl should know
Don't count on some to make it home
You don't have to do what you're told
I guess I'm kinda used to the cold...
~ Brad
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- Hi, Des. -- Mom, 23:57:16 10/30/02 Wed
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Me, again. Here's a little buffalo for ya:
I always remember that buffalo show by the National Film Board, and how we always rewound that one part where the buffalo is making the snorting noises and making a furrow in the snow with its nose. It is so cute - I should dig that out again and get Jason to make a little movie of just that part.
Nub noo.
Mom
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- Hi, Des. -- Mom, 14:27:20 10/27/02 Sun
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Just thought I'd drop by and say hi. I'm always thinking of you and wish you were here. Hey, heard any good understatements lately?! :D
We went to the NAAM restaurant the other day. I think we came to the conclusion you had never been there. I think you would have liked it. They have people playing their music in the restaurant and it would have been right up your alley. It would have been great to see and hear you playing there.
Yes, it IS all about me! I love you.
Mom
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- Another one for you. -- Tamara, 01:10:01 10/15/02 Tue
I feel like posting something but I don't really have anything to say. So instead I am going to share one of two poems that I love. It has nothing to do with religion for me, I just think this poem is moving. It is by Shannon Hoon's (the singer of the band Blind Melon) great great grandmother.
GOD'S PRESENTS
If my path be smooth or rugged
If with thorns or roses strewn
Where I go the Father seeith
And He will leave me not alone
If I take the wings of morning
far within the giant sea
Even there His hand will leave me
Even there my God will be
Though the gloom of night be round me
Though I cannot see my way
Yet the Lord will see and guide me
Because unto Him the night is day
If my thought are good or evil
Set me think to hide them not
there is one above all seeing
And He beholdth every thought
And ever more my eyes beholds me
And all my ways to Him are known
And His loving arms enfolds me
He will leave me not alone
God's Presents was written by Blanche Bridge on 2/11/1884
I hope you know you're with me when you're with me Desi. I love you.
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- Happy BIrthday -- Tamara, 21:33:00 10/04/02 Fri
Hey Big Guy. I wasn't quite sure what I wanted to say here today. Sometimes I'm full of (it) mindless chatter ; although I'd say it's thought provoking. :) Sometimes I feel like I want to say something and the words evade me. Today, I feel like it's 50/50 - I almost have something profound to say, but I just don't quite know what it is or where to start.
Every day is equally as sad. I know that's my usual spiel, but I miss you just as much today as I do every other day. I was reading a message Mom left on her other board, about all the stuff we're missing. It's so true. I wish we could have lived together. I bet it would have been so cool. Two hermits in their hovel. :)
I just see all these people in my life, people our age...there is not ONE who I can relate to entirely. That makes me sad. I'm so full of thoughts and opinions, it would be a comfort to know you understood them. Mom and Dad are the coolest people I know...I love that, but it also makes me sad that "kids" our age don't really get life. It's so phony out there. Thanks for being real.
I love you so much.
Tamara
"If you were with me tonight, I'd sing to you just one more time. A song for a heart so big, God wouldn't let it live." ~ Jimmy Eat World (Only you'd be the one singing, certainly not me! :) )
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- Hey, I'm first! -- Judie/Mom, 00:13:20 10/04/02 Fri
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Happy Birthday, Des - I hope all is well with you and that you have a good life. I miss you and love you.
Mom
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- 10 days -- Judie, 21:41:54 09/24/02 Tue
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... till your birthday!
Mom
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- Tamara -- Mom, 23:55:28 08/10/02 Sat
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I'm sure Desi would say you are WAY smarter than he was in certain areas - especially one that would have really counted!
Isn't it great how we always "know" what he'd say. :D
INN
Mom
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- Hiya! -- Tamara, 02:36:14 08/06/02 Tue
Just stopping by to say hello. I miss you lots. There are a lot of cool things going on that you would love. Sometimes I wonder what you'd say about stuff if you were here. Mom and Dad are doing really well. They have a cool place in Richmond, and a nice houseguest at the moment. Neil and I are trying to find a place to live. I work at Starbucks. "I am a dancer, I am a dancer..." Lots of things remind me of you. I have a song on right now called "Waltz Of The Lonesome". I didn't do that on purpose! Hahahaha! Good timing. :) I had to go to the hospital today - that freaked Mom and Dad out, I blame that on you! ;) I've wanted to get your opinions on things lately...I could probably guess what you would say, but I'd like to hear you say it. Sometimes my heart hurts and I get a lump in my throat. I want to be smart like you were, so I've been thinking I should read more and learn something new. I wish I had the patience to actually WALK through a museum - and read all the plaques.
I hope the other side exists, and you're on it.
Ramalamadingdong,
Tamara
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- This makes me think of you. -- Tamara, 00:38:02 07/21/02 Sun
Perfect Memory
(By Remy Zero)
rember how they always seemed to know
we had the forest in our eyes
but the earth was in our clothes
and they thought we'd fall
not at all
so look back on the treasured days
we were young in a world that was so tired
though it's not what we wanted before
even the saints had to crawl from the floor
summers when the money was gone you'd sing
all you're little songs
that meant every thing to me
chorus:
and i'll remember you
and the things that we used to do
and the things that we used to say
i'll remember you
that way
remember how they tried to hold you down
and we climbed those towers
and looked down upon our town
and everything you hoped would last
just always becomes your past (it hurts)
summers when the money was gone you'd sing
all your little songs that meant everything
to me
repeat chorus
but then this world
slipped through my fingers
and even the sun seemed tired
i still cared
as i lowered you down
my heart just jaded
in that moment the earth made no sound
but you were there
you helped me lift my pain into the air
repeat chorus
if it don't hurt you
it wont hurt me
it don't hurt me
then it wont hurt you
if it don't hurt you
it wont hurt me i know
I love you Desi.
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- Missing you. -- Jen...AKA, (to the Rousselle's) Jenny, 12:50:21 06/29/02 Sat
For the past few days you've really been on my mind Des. I'm not sure why. Sometimes when that happens I immediately think of the date to see if there may be some relevance but there isn't any. I guess it's just my time to be missing you a little more than usual! I've spent probably the last hour looking through the site. I've had a good cry and feel a tad better, but still uneasy. I miss you so much.
I got married recently and I was saying to Matt how much I wished that he had the privilege to meet you. He would have loved you and you him.
It feels strange that so much has changed in my life since I saw you last.
Well, I've met my crying quota for the day...week...month.
I'll check in again soon.
Love you, miss you. Jen
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- Just stopping by... -- Eva, 09:12:52 06/21/02 Fri
... saying hi, and letting you know what an amazing Mom you have, Desi! But you already know that, right? : )
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- Hi, again, Des. -- Mom, 00:40:50 06/15/02 Sat
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That other message was looking pretty sad .... thought I better write something else.
I visit your site nearly every day .... I wonder where you are ... nub noo.
Mom
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Hi Des. -- Judie, 15:41:53 06/02/02 Sun
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I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Not that I don't always anyway, but .... lately I've been kind of sad and missing you. I know the sadness will pass, but I'll still miss you.
I nub noo.
Love,
Mom
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- wow -- ma petite, 21:12:20 04/29/02 Mon
Such a powerful site, Judie and family. I feel like I know Desi, just from looking through your memories and pictures of him. I'd heard of the Desi's Kids raffle but never knew the story behind it; makes me wish I'd participated. Keep his memory alive!
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- I never knew Desi,but he must have been a heck of a guy.... -- Lea, 15:10:08 04/17/02 Wed
....but I think of him every time I see a Bison US postcard stamp. It's very like his design. (I'll have to send you some,Judie,before the price goes up and they disappear!).
I still think of my best Couz, Steve,especially on Father's Day. It doesn't seem like 26 years ago....it seems like yesterday.
(((Hugs to the Rouselles)))
Lea
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- Hi Des -- Rick, 12:20:52 03/20/02 Wed
Like Judie said time doesn't heal the wound it just makes it more bearable. I think of you all the time. I love you and look forward to our next meeting. Love dad
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- Dearest Rouselles, -- Hedy, 17:21:00 03/14/02 Thu
I will always regret not knowing Desi in life, however, I will always treasure and love his Parents, his Sister, and a few of the rest of the Rouselle Clan too! I thank them for sharing you with the rest of us. I am grateful that I get to hear stories about you and see your artwork, photos, and stuff! You are truly missed as only one who truly loved and gave in life can be missed.
Peace.
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- I wanted to get here 3 days ago, but you all are in my thoughts then and now. I've been eating too many Krispy Kremes Charyl...so I will have to not have a donut in Desi's memory...or I may explode and become a momory myself. Gosh those things are good. I love Desi's artwork and so I'm going over there to look at his wonderful paintings. I remember Judie, Rick and Tamara and I think of your family often not just on March 11th. {{{HUGS TO YOU ALL}}} -- Nancy V, 15:12:06 03/14/02 Thu
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- Three Years -- Judie, 15:03:48 03/11/02 Mon
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Charyl, I set the board so it doesn't have replies - I thought it would be easier to print out messages for the archives later on without having to open replies. :D
Anyway, my deep thoughts for today are that at this time three years ago I was having a great day. Little did I know that in a few hours my (and our) world would be turned into a nightmare.
Three years' time has passed. Yes, we have moved on with our lives. But only because we had to - what else can you do? You either move on with life or you turn into a basket case. I refuse to do that. For me, and for Desi. And for Rick and Tamara.
You can't wait around thinking something is going to change, that Desi will suddenly return. Although, it does seem like he could be on a vacation. He's just away doing something, and sometimes I think what it would be like if he were to walk in the door again. It would be like nothing has changed - it would seem so normal.
Life goes on and it's pretty decent - and of course that would ALWAYS have the disclaimer "ALL THINGS CONSIDERED!" I think that goes without saying anyway. It would have been a much better life had Desi not been gone. But, shit happens. He's not here. It sucks big time. But, we have to make the best of it.
I don't think time heals - the emotions are still there just under the surface. If I conjure him up, he's right there and very real - and then it makes me sad that he's gone. So I don't do that too often. But he's always on my mind. I think time just allows one to lessen the effects. You get over the grieving stage, when it's horrendous, and gradually the pain starts to fade - you get involved in new things and your mind busies itself with other thoughts that it has to. I found reading was very helpful in the first few months - I could escape the pain, which was great.
Oh well, just some musings on the third anniversary of Desi being gone. It's still very unbelievable if I try to really comprehend it - so, again, I don't try that too often. It's too sad.
I don't know when we'll meet again, Desi, but I'm still going to kick your ass! :D Well, maybe I won't, but you better have a helluva good story to explain all this. :D I nub noo. I miss you.
Mom
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- I'm back! :-) -- Charyl, 09:08:03 03/11/02 Mon
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Gee, I don't see how to reply to a message so I guess I'll just have to start another one.
Well, Krispy Kreme is very very good to me. *g* The light was on! Woo hoo! I walked in with a coupon in hand and guess what? They gave me a free donut! Yum! Ah, Desi, you are a good luck charm! So I had *ahem* 4 hot sweet delicious fresh wonderful delightfully yummy donuts.
I can't wait for next year ;-) I know, I'm hosed :-)
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- Anniversaries -- Tamara, 07:58:35 03/11/02 Mon
It seems like every year I almost forget what day today is. But if I've said it once, I've said it a million times - the day doesn't matter.
You have been on my mind SO damn much lately. And the more I think about you, the more I wish there was some way to tell everyone just how much I love you and just how awesome you were. In the meantime, you'll just have to take my word for it. :)
I love you big as the world Desi. Even three years later, I love you just as much - in fact, I would even say more. You, and Mom and Dad are the most important people in the universe to me. I love you forever. :)
Tamara
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- Hi Desi! -- Charyl, 05:39:55 03/11/02 Mon
What a great picture of Desi. I like seeing him in this guest book.
I seem to have made it a tradition to have a meal in Desi's honor on this day each year. And you know what? I haven't had any Krispy Kremes in quite a while now. I'm thinking that I'll be heading out that way shortly.
So, Desi, what kind shall I get? I do prefer the traditional ones that are hot off the rollers, but you know those devil food ones that are hot are heavenly! Decisions decisions....
I'll come back and let you know *g*.
((((((((((Judie))))))))))
((((((((((Rick)))))))))))
(((((((((Tamara))))))))))
thinking of you with love and hugs!
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- Thinking of you -- Eva, 14:52:46 03/10/02 Sun
(((Judie, Rick, Tamara and Desi)))
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- Woo! -- Tamara, 04:49:46 03/09/02 Sat
Yay! That's fun. Nice to see a guestbook I can monopolize again! :)
Tamara
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- Welcome! -- Judie, 23:25:20 03/08/02 Fri
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Finally, we have a guestbook again.
This message board is set to take new posts only, so it will in effect be like a guest book. Please feel free to leave your e-mail address with us.
Thank you for visiting.
Judie
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