Date Posted:21:35:47 10/29/04 Fri Author: lingling Subject: STRAGGLING
hello everyone~
firstly i wanna say sorry that i can't type chinese....sorry for inconvenience.
i believe in god since 2002 and baptised to take part in my home church last yr....
but one thing keep straggling in my heart which i couldn't find anyone to share with.....is that....i had sex with my ex-bf.....i was a christian already when i first meet him.....but then.....
he is a non-christian, so that's really hard to tell my feeling...but i still baptised bcoz i knew that "baptise not = perfect"....and things keep on going....until i broke up with him this yr....
few months later, a "brother" in my fellowship chases me and i began to in love with him......he is a really nice guy and he loves god very much.....i thought i'll hv a "new life" with him........however, as we get really close to each other.....i knew that he's not a virgin as well.....and........we had sex.....
i really hate myself...coz i'd never keep my promise to god...and i feel that.....i'm such an evil...
i'm really lose now......what should i do??
I understand it's really depressed when you do sinful things again in front of God. Did you get hurt in your last replationship? Did you throw away your bad feelings after your broke up with your ex-boyfriend?
In the bible said：
3:12 這 不 是 說 、 我 已 經 得 著 了 、 已 經 完 全 了 ． 我 乃 是 竭 力 追 求 、 或 者 可 以 得 著 基 督 耶 穌 所 以 得 著 我 的 。 〔 所 以 得 著 我 的 或 作 所 要 我 得 的 〕
3:13 弟 兄 們 、 我 不 是 以 為 自 己 已 經 得 著 了 ． 我 只 有 一 件 事 、 就 是 忘 記 背 後 努 力 面 前 的 、
3:14 向 著 標 竿 直 跑 、 要 得 神 在 基 督 耶 穌 裡 從 上 面 召 我 來 得 的 獎 賞 。
There is no one perfect, but we can do our best for God through our life, please ask for forgiveness everyday, keep it as a habbit, God will change you!
God bless you!!!
