| Subject: Re: SEEING THE NEW BABY |
Author:
Shari
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Date Posted: 22:28:55 02/11/06 Sat
In reply to:
Teressa
's message, "SEEING THE NEW BABY" on 23:17:34 02/09/06 Thu
You stated you wanted to make a Godly decision...I agree with praying on it and talking to a man of God regarding it. My opinion would be that meth is a drug of the devil, and anyone using it or on it is controlled by the devil...
Plus, haven't you set your boundaries and are breaking them?
My husband wasn't there for the birth of our first child, but was there for the birth of our second child...he left my side before and directly after the birth to try to locate meth, and the day after the birth was shooting up in front of our toddler with a bunch of friends. Don't fool yourself by thinking that seeing the baby will do HIM any good.
You've gotten the restraining order, etc., but it sounds to me like someone is having difficulty enforcing her boundaries and letting go and letting God. I know how you feel...I violated DCSF plan to let him see his newborn before going to court because I knew he would be going to prison instead of the probation he thought he would get. I risked losing my boys so my husband could see and hold his newborn to remind him of what he would be fighting for while trying to get clean...He was high on meth when he came to see his new son, and he was high on meth and had some on him when he went to court...He had it on him around his kids...
The most difficult thing to do is let go, I'm doing it too, and having great difficulty not writing or visiting him. So far, so good...and my soul is feeling better a little more each day.
Do what you need to for you and your boys. Just know, that whatever you do, will only be with him at that moment, and not afterward...his only remorse about not being there for you will be when he comes down...and only for a moment till he starts seeking or doing the drug again.
Good luck and God Bless.
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