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Subject: Getting stronger, doing more but still... nothing seems whole

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Rhonda

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Date Posted: 20:29:35 05/04/06 Thu

Hey everyone !

I still have heard nothing on where my son could be or even if he is alive but, I am trying desparately to heal. I make myself a list everyday of things to do and I manange to get them done but the emptyness lingers on. This is such an odd place for me to be. Until my oldest sons addiction to meth, I was full of life. No need for list of things for me to accomplish... I just went full force into taking care of everything. People used to say... "boy, grass doesn't grow under your feet." I loved life, even the little duties that everyone hates.. laundry, cleaning bathrooms etc. I was everyday running one kid to this atheletic event and the other son to a different one. Life was full, wonderful and I counted my blessings EVERYDAY. I just can't get back to my old self. So much of me is missing. Although now, I do manage to make all the baseball and all the basketball games and keep most of the duties at home taken care of, the sadness is always in the shadows. I took my 16 yr old son to get fitted for his tux for jr sr prom and I was sooo excited for him, definate proud mommy moments. He is growing into such a fine young man and I love him dearly... was absolutely tickled to death watching this new part of my sons life unfold... then, after nite fell I cried for hours...couldn't get my oldest son out of my mind. How proud I was to do that for him years before... how could things go so wrong? I do this constant, find joy in the blessing I have and love the time with my kids then almost beat myself up later over my oldest son. I sometimes think I am going crazy. Just one of those days I guess. Thanks for listening. :)

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Subject	Author	Date
Re: Getting stronger, doing more but still... nothing seems whole	WorriedMom	21:01:24 05/04/06 Thu
Re: Getting stronger, doing more but still... nothing seems whole -- Rhonda / For worried mom, 05:24:28 05/11/06 Thu
Re: Getting stronger, doing more but still... nothing seems whole	Debbie S	19:39:56 05/05/06 Fri

Re: Getting stronger, doing more but still... nothing seems whole	SUSAN F	20:05:38 05/05/06 Fri
Re: Getting stronger, doing more but still... nothing seems whole -- Rhonda, 22:50:17 05/05/06 Fri