Testing Me -- 13d's own testing board

Kill Me Blubbering idiot, unamused fool, my doubts iam asked about an i shall say them slowly but once in my mind and maybe never through the wretched tongue i must possess. Doubts flutter from many a corner, minds take control as they fight to stay alive, clutching to straws in a bid for freedom yet all the while they sink into bottomless seas.Prospering, at what cost, with what cost did they prosper, good worth, ha, i would laugh had i that costume on, you see one mask of one thing another will be seen and greeted with another, each their own mask and each their own wishes.But look, i think too much and speak too little truth, my tongue shall speak evil as of once, and then it shall be burnt from my jaws with iron claws. Evil cannot reside with a shred of good, Good cannot reside without a dollop of evil ways, no one, even the purest evil is of that sense from birth and unto death, cursed lives, cursed stones, curse'd treacherous species, oh damn, another masque will be along soon please forgive the intermission
Scarlett patches drain slowly away, bloodless flesh becoming oncwe again filled, inverting herself to be something else, if only, nares snort briefly as dreadful tell tale poles lay backwards with fierce intensity for briefest of seconds, oh god not this one, not this mask, not now, i do not wish to do this now, i cannot but i shall, fine, so be it on your own head Numb, one your own head.
Ah, let me see, doubts, hmm, what doubts, troublesome nothings that flutter away on the breeze, worthy, why thank you though i would not think myself as that, all i do is serve and stay loyal to a homeland dear. Prosperous, yes, many creatures residing and living here, it should grow plentiful
A fight, oh yes, one you cannot imagine, having all the masques in the world fighting within you, each one refusing to blend, and yet i can no longer live a so called once innocent life, i was a bastard child, a rape case, not a child any long to hold dear, so they died, they were killed, so what, a smouldering gremlin lives upon my shoulder and whispers in my ear

Numb ... Novicane,lost, dead
Lost Water Sprite
Presumbed Knave
one battle fought , presumbed a loss
none shall catch my heart
none shall be born into my womb