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THE ONE who got away..
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Date Posted: Mon, Jun 30 2014, 19:01:44
Has Robert seen his daughter? I hate to not be respectful of your privacy Abbey if you see this, however, many people have directed me to this drama as there is a connection between your situation and my former relationship with Robert. I have held off for a long time, not wanting to interfere, but feel that if he continues to flake on you, there is something that he and I need to discuss or something I need to say to him. I had no idea that he had not seen you your entire life practically. I have seen your pictures and you are very lovely girl. The spitting image of him just as you were in your baby photos when he dropped them by my home many many years ago. Please advise me if you have seen him. If not, there is something that needs to be said between him and I and clarity needs to be gained (on his part). I have reluctantly decided that this needs to be said on my part. Your father has continued to try and reach me for over 15 years until my Mother finally moved and changed her number. I am the one who got away, thankfully. I think that his EGO has gone completely to his head in not being able to understand that there ARE women out there that can fall right out of his spell and move on to other truly talented people like Jay Adams back then. He destroyed all my photographs of Social D. when I traveled with them documenting their tour. He will know who this is. There is unfinished business between us that should have been dealt with years ago. I had no idea that this was going on or I would have said something to him YEARS ago. Please advise if he had done the right thing.
Robert if you read this you will know very well who this is. You should know, you didn't stop calling my house for 15 years. You know my Mom and my Grandmother very well and you should know exactly who I am.
I am wasting my time with this for the sake of your beautiful daughter.
I am everything and more you ever thought I would be. I am still bright and very beautiful, inside and out. My life has been tremendous since I was able to pry my way from your grasp. The week we were supposed to get married, things changed dramatically in my life. The reasoning behind why I did not marry you are very different than you assume. I wish we had had this conversation many years ago. Because of what was said and assumed the week I left you, I think you should know the reasons behind that decision and how it has impacted me enormously and in a positive way to this very day. IT wasn't a decision I made lightly. There are other people who love me and cared more than you were capable of at that time. I did not leave you and flake on marriage because of what you thought at the time. Everything changed that week and I found reasons to want to live a while longer. Because of that decision, I am where I am today. Successful and happy.
I cannot help but feel for you babe, you are in the same spot, literally that I saw you last, mentally and emotionally. Your mother is right, it is time for you to grow up really! I'm not reaching out here to tell you what a bad person you are, I can only imagine how you feel about the situation your in and how much you HATE it.
I am reaching out to tell you how capable you are. I believe in you Robert, I know the depths of LOVE you are capable of feeling. Would even be open to assisting you financially and Violet, if it was for the right reasons. I hate that you live on the streets, I know how difficult it is, I did it for years with you, by choice. Your situation now is not by choice Robert, you need help. Let those of us who can help you do that. You obviously made a significant mark on our lives or we would not be bothering with any of this.
Help is here for you if you need it and are willing. Don't try to manipulate, it won't work with me, you know that. Honesty has always been the best policy with me. You taught me many things Robert, good and bad. I have benefited from the smarts I obtained while with you. You taught me things about life that I would not have learned for many years. Dancing to Bowie's "Sorrow" and learning to be completely confident in myself. For many years I would not listen to any of the music that influenced me then, but slowly I have been able to absolutely love all of it, just as I did back then.
I don't have negative feelings toward you, I have forgiven you for everything years ago when I decided it was time to forgive myself for all the damage I did to my family at that time. I am sorry that I hurt you so badly, I had no idea about your calling for so long until recently when Miss B broke her silence on the subject. My Mom still cares about you, believe it or not. She is the one who found this blog along with a few others and told me to reach out. My Grandma G died a couple years ago, it was a huge loss.
I can be reached via email for now : SoulLove1985@yahoo.com That is where you can send me something if you need something. Abbey can reach me through this address as well. I would like to talk to you about what you thought that week. I need to know that you didn't harbor those feelings all these years. am a very good person, please leave me with the Privacy I still enjoy and do not bring my name or identity into this forum. Contact me via email only, Take care.
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