| Subject: Re: Welcoming: Ellen, are you there too? |
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Art
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Date Posted: 12:18:18 07/17/01 Tue
In reply to:
ellen
's message, "Re: Welcoming: Ellen, are you there too?" on 10:47:30 07/17/01 Tue
"In contrast to him and to many others, I have not related
easily to most aspects of this work, especially (being
mostly a loner) not to live group encounters such as the
WDW or retreats. For the most part, they have not been fun
or delightful or a relief for me tho I'm grateful for the
opportunity to have connected with numerous wonderful people
on a one-to-one basis at these events."
I have not related easily to some aspects of this work,
e.g., the benign contagion that will spread, body-to-body,
heart-to-heart, to "every one" on the planet. Golly gee
whiz, that's not what the daily media is telling me to
believe. Who is manufacturing the reality that's right in
front of me right now. I can no longer run or hide from any
of this.
Rather than fun, delightful, relief, I just become extremely
conscious of how intensely I'm holding myself apart. It's
like some damn touchable autopilot that is utterly
uncrackable and utterly unacceptable. For now, forever?,
guess I just have to gradually learn how to live with the
damn thing, but feeling that invincible shield in myself
HURTS.
Great Relief, my ass <=> rather it's No Relief.
Yet, at the same time, I KNOW I was born for just this.
Ellen, does any of this sound familiar or is it just my
particular condition at the moment?
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