VoyForums
[ Show ]
Support VoyForums
[ Shrink ]
VoyForums Announcement: Programming and providing support for this service has been a labor of love since 1997. We are one of the few services online who values our users' privacy, and have never sold your information. We have even fought hard to defend your privacy in legal cases; however, we've done it with almost no financial support -- paying out of pocket to continue providing the service. Due to the issues imposed on us by advertisers, we also stopped hosting most ads on the forums many years ago. We hope you appreciate our efforts.

Show your support by donating any amount. (Note: We are still technically a for-profit company, so your contribution is not tax-deductible.) PayPal Acct: Feedback:

Donate to VoyForums (PayPal):

[ Login ] [ Contact Forum Admin ] [ Main index ] [ Post a new message ] [ Search | Check update time | Archives: [1] ]

[ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

Date Posted: 22:46:51 09/13/03 Sat
Author: Sadira
Subject: "The Wrong Song"

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT own any characters from "Degrassi: The NExt Generation". They belongto NOGGIN.
Ejoy!


"”The Wrong Song”


Paige walked into the music room, not really wanting to be there. She had asked Ashley to write a song for the song competition that they were entering, but a part of her-a huge part of her-wasn’t in a singing mood. She was still hurting from the night before and she hadn’t slept well either. Every time her brain fell asleep, she would wake up crying and sweating from a nightmare.
Paige slumped down onto a seat just as Ashley came into the room carrying a folder with what Paige could only guess was her new creation.
“Here it is!” Ashley said, she sounded so excited, Paige didn’t have the heart to dampen her spirits. She gave Ashley a smile and held out her hand for a copy.
Ashley handed her one and Paige looked down and started to skim the piece.
As she started reading, the words started to swirl in front of her eyes like a badly colored dream. She started to feel tears in her eyes as she read the words to herself.
“It happens to other people. You say how sad, you say poor thing, but when it’s you, it’s something else, it’s everything. You’ll never believe the nightmares, you’ll never know that pain you caused, the scars you left, you’re starring role, the things you stole, everything I lost. You took my body tore it in half, you took my child-hood my heartbeat and laugh…..” As Paige read on, she started feeling sick to her stomach as the tears threatened to fall. Paige was so engrossed in her thoughts that she didn’t even hear Ashley say, “So, what do you think? Good huh?”
“Huh?” Paige asked honestly.
“I said, what do you think?”
Paige had to look away, for fear of bursting into angry tears.
“What do I think?” Paige asked, her voice low and angry. “You want to know what I think?!”
“Yes,” Ashley said, a little uncertainly.
“Here’s what I think,” Paige took the paper and crumpled it up in her hand. She then threw it to the ground and turned and ran out of the room, leaving Ashley stunned and just a little angry. Ashley took another copy of the song out of her folder and went to find Paige. She found her by her locker. She was standing in front of it.
“Why did you do that?!” Ashley asked, anger in her voice. “You promised me you wouldn’t act-“ she was interrupted by Paige’s voice. It was angry and a little tearful.
“How could you do that?” Paige asked. “How could you write a song about rape and expect me to….” She turned away as the tears came.
Ashley was taken aback by Paige’s reaction.
“You told me to write a song about something that was real.”
“Not about rape,” Paige said. “You can’t just write a song about rape like that.”
“Why not?” Ashley asked. “I researched it on the internet.”
“That doesn’t make you an expert on it,” Paige said quietly.
“What do you know about it?” Ashley asked evenly.
At this, Paige slumped to the ground in tears. The tears that were threatening to fall finally came. She sat there, crying and holding her knees to her chest.
At this, Ashley’s mood changed completely. She sat down beside Paige and attempted to put her arm around her friend, but Paige pushed her away.
“Leave me alone!” Paige sobbed. “Just go away, okay!”
“No, I won’t,” Ashley said gently. “I want to help. Paige, I had no idea. I’m sorry. Did…..” Her voice trailed off as the silence was replaced by more sobs from Paige.
Paige nodded.
“Dean raped me,” Paige whispered in between sobs. “I didn’t do anything, I swear. I didn’t do anything! I’m trying to forget about it. He’s in my dreams and I just can’t….” Her voice trailed off as more sobs came.
“Shh,” Ashley said softly, “It’s okay, Paige. It’s okay. Shh.”
“The song is good,” Paige said through her tears. “Really good, but I can’t…. I’m sorry, Ash, I just can’t sing….” She dissolved into tears as Ashley hugged her.
“It’s okay,” Ashley comforted. “It’s okay…. It’s okay, Paige, it’s okay. You don’t have to sing the song. It’s okay. It’s okay.” She sat there, holding Paige as Paige cried on her shoulder, trying her best to not let her stomach get the better of her all the while.

************

Later that night, Paige slept over at Ashley’s house. Paige’s Mom and brother, Mikey, were out and Paige didn’t want to be alone. She didn’t eat much of the dinner that Ashley’s mother had made and even the sight of a single carrot made her feel nauseous.
Ashley understood and didn’t push the matter when her mother asked Paige why she wasn’t eating. In fact, Ashley lied for Paige, to which Paige was very grateful.
After dinner, Ashley took Paige upstairs so that she could rest in her room while Ashley did her homework.
“Just try and rest,” Ashley told Paige after Paige had gotten her pj’s on and had brushed her teeth. “Don’t sleep, just rest. I’ll be right here if you need anything.”
“Thanks,” Paige said sincerely. “I mean it, Ashley. Thank you for everything.”
“You’re welcome,” Ashley replied as she gave Paige’s shoulder a pat before Paige laid down and tried her best to rest.
As Ashley sat there, doing her math, she started thinking about Paige. She was sorry that Paige had gone through what she did, she truly was. She had no idea how Paige felt, and a part of her didn’t want to know.
As Ashley turned the page in her math book, Paige shot up in bed. Ashley looked over and saw Paige crying in bed. Ashley rushed over and put her arm around Paige.
“It’s okay, Paige, it’s okay. You’re all right. You’re safe. It’s okay. I’m right here. What happened, did you have a nightmare?”
Paige nodded as fresh tears came.
“Why won’t they go away?!” Paige sobbed as Ashley held her. “Why won’t they go-“ She was interrupted as a bout of nausea hit her and she ran to the bathroom, releasing the contents of her stomach the moment she reached the toilet. As Paige retched and heaved, she felt a hand on her shoulder. She looked up to see Ashley sitting on the floor behind her.
“It’s okay,” Ashley said softly. “It’s going to be okay. I promise. You’re okay.”
“Girls?” Came Ashley’s mother’s voice. “What’s going on?”
Ashley glanced at Paige, who had started to throw up again to her mother.
“Uh, Paige just had a nightmare and she feels a little sick to her stomach. She’ll be okay. I’m going to take care of her. Go back to sleep, Mom.”
Mrs. Kerwin looked a little suspicious, but nodded before leaving.
“I’m sorry,” Paige said as she tried to gain composure. “Your Mom must think I’m a nut.”
Ashley let out a small giggle.
“No, I don’t think so. Terri’s gotten sick at my house plenty of times so she’s seen me taking care of her.”
Paige nodded as the urge to throw up overcame her once again.
After Paige’s stomach had calmed down, Ashley helped her back to the room and then retrieved a bucket from the closet.
“I don’t need that,” Paige said. “I think it was just a one time deal. I’m okay. Really.”
Ashley shook her head and put the bucket beside the bed.
“Just in case,” she said as she sat down next to Paige, putting her hand on Paige’s forehead. “You feel a little warm. Let me go get the thermometer. I’ll be right back.” She left the room and came back in a matter of five seconds with the instrument. She placed it underneath Paige’s tongue and waited for the results.
After five minutes had passed, she took it out and read it.
“According to this, you have a 100 degree fever. So much for not being sick.”
Paige nodded and closed her eyes.
“I’m sorry,” she apologized.
“For what?” Ashley asked incredulously. “You have nothing to be sorry about. You’re probably sick from everything that happened to you and the stress of keeping it from everyone. You’ll feel better soon. I promise.”
“I just want to sleep,” Paige said tearfully. ‘I just want a goodnight’s rest and not have any nightmares. I just want to forget about it. Is that too much to ask?!” She started crying again and Ashley sighed as she hugged her.
“No it’s not,” Ashley said softly as she stroked Paige’s hair. “It’s not too much to ask.” As she sat there, comforting Paige, she prayed that her friend would be okay.


TO BE CONTINUED……..

Feedback is greatly encouraged. E-mail me at: paigegirlfanp3@yahoo.com

[ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]
[ Contact Forum Admin ]

Forum timezone: GMT-8
VF Version: 3.00b, ConfDB:
Before posting please read our privacy policy.
VoyForums(tm) is a Free Service from Voyager Info-Systems.
Copyright © 1998-2019 Voyager Info-Systems. All Rights Reserved.