Date Posted:11:22:07 02/01/10 Mon Author:susiej Subject: Lassie>>> In reply to:
LRLassie
's message, "Re: Class is back in session ;-)" on 16:53:10 01/28/10 Thu
great work as always. So glad to have ya back! When I read that prompt line, I thought to myself- that is just so sad. And you've fleshed it out perfectly. How did you get in my mind? LOL! Seriously, very everyman but full of wonderful specific details. And every line smooth as silk.
>My back hurts, my groggy inner voice says so I
>readjust my position.
>
>That's better, it says but I try not to get too
>comfortable, I know my alarm will go off in another
>ten to fifteen minutes.
>
>Do I lay here and relax or do I just get up now and
>start the day?
>
>If I get up now I can take a few extra minutes and
>check my facebook before work. But if I stay in bed
>under my warm comforter I can forestall my feet from
>having to endure the cold shock of the tile floor.
>
>A ten to fifteen minute forestall sounds pretty good
>to my feet. I snuggle back under my blankets and try
>to relax, I listen to my breathing as I try to calm my
>mind but I am very quickly reminded that I can't
>relax. Relaxing tends to bring about that inner voice
>that connects one innocent little thought to another
>thought and so on until you are thinking about only
>those thoughts that you aren't ready to think about. Until here, it feelt like my typical morning discussion with myself. Big breakfeast without haste or a few more moments ind bed... brakfeast or a few more miniutes... arg, to late for breakfast again ;)
>
>I change my facebook status, to some generic quote I
>find on quotes.com, something about being positive,
>blah, blah. from here on it already felt depressing to me, although I was still unsure why, maybe because one has to find a quote instead of telling the truth, don't know.
>
>The morning is uneventful, I shower, I dress, I line
>my eyes and lips with same old color palette.
>
>At work everyone smiles at me. I get compliments about
>my clothes and make-up. The same crap I've been
>wearing everyday is suddenly more becoming. Great! Showes how much some people care and observe, or rather don't.
>
>I get to my desk and I work. I am so focused I nearly
>work through my lunch. Luckily, I have a stash of
>power bars in my drawer for this very reason. I
>continue on in the same manner until quitting time.
>
>I have a whole stack of files to take home with me.
>Things left over from my leave of absence.
>
>At home, I pop a Lean Cuisine in the microwave. I
>don't particularly like frozen dinners, not a whole
>lot of variety for a vegetarian but no point in
>cooking just for me. I used to love to cook.
>
>I turn on the news, a little entertainment while I
>eat. Another car crash, another fire, people dying,
>people losing the ones they love. It's too much. I
>turn it off. Love that, so real!
>I take my fettucini to my desk and get back to work.
>
>Sometimes I think I work so hard because I don't have
>anything else to do. I like the wording in this piece, so without any compassion. From the objectiv parts (times spend on the different things) that could totally be me, but the tone is so depressing from early on, that I even consider myself lucky, if only for a moment, than the wishing for something different comes back. Really great work!
susiej