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Date Posted: Thursday, May 08, 09:42:42am
Author: Original Ruud Bwoy
Subject: Freestyle (a little bit about me)

Try n walk just one mile in ma infant shoes �
when by your own dad your getting physically abused
beaten with his raw hands and any objects he can grab �
when I was just 8 he sat on my back got a folk n started to stab �
There wasn�t even a reason, I hadn�t done anything wrong �
all I was ever told was �your not a man, your not strong�
while Ma own mamma was in denial
ignoring the cries for help by her own chil�
I was all alone and had to grow up quick
I couldn�t go out playin with the other boys
cos all this stress was making me sick
but I had to protect ma sister, protect the one I love
so at 11 years old I put on a some boxin gloves
Trained all day and night, my motivation was winning my father at a fight
But I didn�t have the courage, I just coward when he kicked and cried �submit�
Like shit, I was taken to hospital 20times in one year for �accidental bumps n knocks�
no alarms where ever raised, no doctors where ever shocked
I endured it all till I was 14 when my mum finally kicked him out
everyone told me what he said was bullshit but some how I had doubts
I questioned my manhood like never before
all my confidence and pride just straight hit the floor
and I couldn�t focous on anything else but what he said
Somehow I wanted to get in n search around his head
I wanted to be accepted n respected in his eyes
Cos I was tired of bein put down n fuckin criticized
So after 2years of no contact we finally spoke
and the heart that took me so long to mend was once again broke
He didn�t wanna answer my question n explain why he did what he don
He wasn�t even bothered one bit by the pain he�d caused his daughter n son
He didn�t wanna say his side of the story, he just wanted to give up n run
well I wasn�t gonna have it so I put up a chance
n after many many phone calls he agreed to meet me face to face
I was nervous as fuck and feelin as insecure as ever
But I knew if I didn�t get these answers then I�d be strugglin forever
We talked polite for a minuet or two
then he said something that was straight outta the blue
�Marcus I�m in debt, been gambling ma money away
� do you think you could lend me some money today?�
I couldn�t believe he had the audacity, it really took me back
but three seconds later, once it hit home, I lunged in with the attack
finally I hit back for all the beatins he gave
I wouldn�t stop, I was like a wild animal just let out of its cage
I broke his jaw n nose but most importantly his pride
I know its wrong but that violence made me feel fuckin great inside
I was on an all time high, didn�t even want the question I pondered over before
then two days later the police knockin at ma door
�Marcus Summer where arresting you for the attack that took place..�
The charges he pressed against me just wiped the smugness off on ma face
7months later where in court n he�s lying his ass off
Him acting like the innocent victom just made my anger blast off
I spat at his lawyer � I know it didn�t help me to look good � but I was emotionally caught up
then the Jury�s verdict came and really fucked me up
2months in prison for GBH at 18, I was just a baby
I remember bein taken down in handcuffs sayin �God, please save me�

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Re: Freestyle (a little bit about me) -- Wyze, Thursday, May 08, 09:59:46am