You're actions now, they're really driving me
Driving me into a deep bed of insanity
You need to talk to me
You need to feel it deeply
POst
Don't be afraid to say it
Don't be afraid to say it
The words that you might tell me
Could never hurt me oh no
....
Name:
Raina
Middle Name:
Imelda
Last Name:
Nocivelli
Nicknames:
Rain, Rin (Childhood nn)
Age:
22
Gender:
Female
Hair:
Blonde
Eyes:
Blue
Height:
172.72 Cm (68in [5ft 8in])
Weight:
52.16 Kg (115 lbs)
Appearance:
A self-proclaimed tomboy as a child, she was more likely to be found rolling around in the mud, or climbing trees rather then playing calmly as she was expected to do by those around her. More likely to be found among the boys, she was often mistaken for being male herself. Usually dressed in pants, and a shirt, with her hair either chopped off really short or tied up, one could argue she looked more like a boy, even if it was a rather pretty boy. According to her mother she hadn't a feminine bone in her body, which some might agree with as she was rarely ever seen in a dress, or anything that can be considered 'girl like', and when she was wearing it, there was a good chance that her parents shoved her into it, and it wouldn't remain whole and pretty very long. Needless to say, she was far from the little girl that played dress up. This is what makes it close to impossible for those that knew her as a child to recognize her now. As one of her friends once put it, she grew up, and 'grew up well'.
She was only about 8 when she finally stopped cutting her hair off, this was more to get her mother to shut up then actually wanting it long, and as a way of dealing with the unwanted length was to tie it up, and shove it under a hat. Eventually though her hair got to heavy for this, and she was left with the option of either cutting it off again, or finding another alternative, and eventually her mother won and her hair was left tied in a ponytail most of the time. Since then her hair grew out, and it now reaches just above her waist, and when left alone it falls with the hint of natural waves. Most of the time though she tends to tie it up, still not seeming quiet comfortable with the length. She has her mother's hair color, a light golden blonde, that always seemed so out of place amongst her brother and father who were both darker haired. It almost seemed as if her family was made up of opposites
She has light, almost ice blue eyes; put together with her fair skin she often appears almost frail. She gets this trait from her mother, and yet something else that often made her stand out among her brother and father, who were both darker eyed, and skin. This often made her the outcast in some-ways in her brother's eyes, as she barely in his opinion looked like family, and according to him, she probably was adopted (forget the fact she pretty much a splitting image of her mother). This 'teasing' never seemed to bother her though, it actually seemed the more she was teased for 'standing out' the more she wanted to stand out. The more they tried to 'correct' her the more she 'rebelled'. She never seemed to want to conform, something that made her 'rather unique', at least among her family.
Though she is a bit on the tall side at about 172.72 Cm (5ft 8in), putting her a bit above average. Despite the height, she has a rather frail appearance this is mainly do to the fact she is on the light side, at about 52.16 Kg (115 lbs), making her about 11.3 Kg (25 lbs) under weight. She always been light weight, and though she probably would be advised to gain weight this fact never truly bothered her.
She still has that streak of 'tomboy' (if you will) in her, and though she is more feminine then her childhood days, she still not afraid to 'get dirty' when the need calls for it. She still prefers pants to dresses or skirts, just finding them more practical. The same with sneakers, she will vouch that chasing a toddler in a skirt is not at all practical, or simple. She also still not 'afraid' of getting involved in anything that might be considered 'masculine', or where she might get dirty.
She does have a hint of scaring from her 'tomboy' days, mainly do to her fighting. She tended to be more violent then most of the boys, quick to defend herself and her friends, she got into more then a few tumbles with the other kids. Usually ending with her winning, but that doesn't mean she didn't end up with a few injuries.
Personality:
She is not the easiest person to explain, this is mainly do to the fact at times she can seem to go from 'one extreme to another' depending on her mood.
Though she was raised in a rather strict atmosphere this never seemed to rub off on her. As previously stated, she was a tomboy as younger, this often ended with her tumbling about in the mud rather then sitting and playing 'tea party' as her mother seemed to prefer. But despite her mother's prompting, she never seemed to care what her mother wanted or thought of her. This 'I don't give a shit' personality still stays with her today, as she couldn't care less of what people think of her. She much rather do what pleases her then aim to please anyone else. This fact often ends up with her on the 'bad' side of some people, who are used to people 'bending' to their will. Strong willed and downright stubborn she is a hard person to argue with, and even harder to convince her into doing something she doesn't want to do.
She is not an easy person to anger, and it takes a hell of a lot to actually work her up. This probably has a lot to do with growing up with her brother, who did everything in his power to push her buttons and get a rise out of her. In the end she had learned to ignore him in the end. This attitude helps her deal with people who tend to annoy her now, as she can normally allow most things to just roll off her. But once she is pushed to the point of being angered, 'look out', as it can take a bit of time to actually calm her down. usually when she is angered one should probably stay out of her way as she can grow quite snappish. Though she won't mean to can end up snapping at people.
She is a rather caring person to the point that at times she can be considered a softy. She often ends up helping out people in need, since she does have the money to do so. This has gotten her into trouble on more then one occasion. She also tends to be a little to trusting for her own good something that has gotten her into a bit of trouble as she trusted the wrong person, which only ended up ugly. Though she tends to be slightly more guarded now, which also not always a good thing. this usually ends up with her pushing away people that wouldn't harm her otherwise just out of fear.
She is extremely loyal to her friends though, and once someone actually makes a friend of her, the chances are they will have a friend for life. She is extremely protective of her friends, and family and will do anything in her power to keep them safe. When younger this usually ended up with her getting to full out fights with the other children. Though she has calmed a bit, still if you mess with her or someone she loves (as the cheesy saying goes… mess with them you mess with her) it probably be better off to look out for a while. She still not afraid to react violently if she feels it necessary, and she not one most people want to mess with. She could kick the ass of the boys when younger she has no doubt she could do it now.
She is an intelligent individual, and as a child this often got her into trouble, as she often came up with really bizarre schemes for her and her friends to entertain themselves with. Though she was indeed smart, it was often argued that she had no form of common sense, or that 'she had trouble thinking standing up'. This came from the idea that she seemed to rarely think things through, and would often do things with out thinking of the consequences. And when angered she had a nasty habit of acting before she even thought of thinking (at least with other children) which often ended with her throwing the first punch in many of the fights she was in when little. She seems to have matured out of this stage, though at times when pushed enough, and pissed off to that point, she can still react before thinking, though now it mainly 'words' that get away with her, making her say things she does not mean. This of course ends up getting her no where and accomplishing nothing more then hurt feelings.
She is a bit on the shy side when it comes to strangers, though not skittish, she does tend to come across as uneasy and unsure. She tends to avoid confronting strangers when possible, not seemingly exactly sure how to start a conversation with someone she doesn't know, but once confronted with someone, or once a conversation is started she relaxes, making the conversation flow much smoother then it did in the start. This unease probably has a bit to do with her childhood, which was rather isolated, especially compared to most kids, and often teased by kids she didn't know for her tomboy personality she tended to only have the small group of friends, which didn't help her much in developing the skills needed to approach strangers.
Like many children who are raised in such high standing families, Rain had a rather strict upbringing, with rather ‘black and white' views on what was considered 'acceptable' and 'not acceptable' behavior. The fact that she was female, added more pressure onto her, as she was expected to behave, talk, and live as a 'proper lady'. To her parents this meant everything from the way she sat, to the way she ate. Many times she had been scolded as a child to 'sit up, and sit like a lady'. As she grew up though this 'training' never really clicked in with her, and she rarely was proper, let alone lady like. Her parents said it was because of this that she was often mistaken for being male, which actually might be true. And though now some of the 'training' finally caught on, she still far from her mother's ideal. Still carrying that 'tomboy' streak in her, and at times she can be said to be to rowdy, or loud, or something for her mother's 'act like a lady' crap. She still will be quick to defend herself, and with a very unladylike attitude, she not afraid to 'slug' someone if they mess with her or someone she cares for.
She still tends to get along with the males as opposed to the females, and tends to gravitate towards them more then her own gender when it comes to friendships. This might have to do with her attitude, and the fact that females can tend to be a bit uneasy around her at times. With a quick mind, she usually has no issues keeping up with the boys and their 'jokes', or 'insults', even ones that in her mother's words 'make a lady blush', and she has no issue with coming up with a 'just as bad' comeback to throw their way. Sometimes known for having a bit of s sharp tongue, she can usually hold her own in a battle of wit. Not easily turned off or embarrassed, she has won more then one battle of words, mainly do to the fact she willing to go wherever the opponent brings it, so one should be careful with touching subjects that might make them uneasy.
Not easily riled up, she usually takes insults, or anything thrown her way with an offhandedness that almost eerie. It would take a lot to actually hit a nerve with her, and when you do, it takes a lot more for her to actually show it. Not really being the type that shows her emotions easily, she can take a lot of abuse before she ever even show any sign of breakdown. This can be both a blessing and a curse, as when dealing with people that she finds 'unfavorable' it usually be them who ends up breaking down first, but when dealing with her family or anyone she loves, when they do something to hurt her, she not likely to tell them.. which ends up with her harboring negative feelings.
As already stated she is a very stubborn individual, and once she set her mind to something it takes a hell of a lot to change it. This personality trait played a bit part in her child-rearing, as she often proves to be a rather strict parent. Though no where near her mother's level, she not a pushover, providing her daughter with the stern but steady and loving environment she needs. As with other things, her mind is not easily changed, and when she says no, she usually means no, and no amount of whining, crying, or begging can usually change her mind. She also not one to give into temper tantrums (she is actually much less likely to change her mind if one is thrown) and because of this her daughter not as likely to throw said tantrums.
It can take a bit to actually gain her trust and friendship but once you do, it takes even more to break it. Not one to turn her back on a friend, no matter what, when you befriend her you pretty much have a friend for life. she tends to be close to her friends, and at times can prove to be way to forgiving towards them. This allows people who she probably shouldn't be friends with to 'abuse' her friendship. Once someone does break her trust though, it not so easily fixed. And though she is forgiven, if someone does 'hurt' her, to the point that she loses her trust in them, there not a good chance she will forgive them.
Understanding, and caring, (people having joked saying it one of the few feminine features she had, that motherly instinct) she is a rather good friend. Always there when someone needs her, she will always forget her own problems to help her friends with any issues they have. Though she is always willing to lend a helping hand to someone who needs it, but at the time she will not do the job for them. Feeling that they shouldn't be allowed to avoid what they feel is 'to hard' or 'what makes them nervous' she will push them to do it, and will stand by them until they can do it with out her. She is also the kind of person that will do everything in her power to calm people down when they are upset. And the joke about her when younger being the natural mother, seems to stand true even today.
She tends to avoid talking about or to her family, not exactly fond of them, as soon as she was old enough she cut off contact with them. pushing this subject is one thing that can easily work her up, even though she hates that fact. She was never close to her family, and has no desire to keep up a relationship with them now, which is something that could seem almost out of character for her once one looks how close she was and is to her old friends. Though once one looks into her and her relationship with them, it not really as surprising as it first seems.
She is often said to have way to much energy, she always on the move doing something, even if it just tapping her foot, a pencil. She can't stand sitting still it often seems, and likes to busy her self doing something. She has a hard time settling down too, which she blames on her mind for being way too loud, and always having something going on inside it.
Past:
(truthfully I do not know all of it yet, so it not very developed)
She was born 22 years ago, to two rich parents, somewhere in Italy. As she grew up, one might say she grew up rather isolated. Privately tutored, and kept out of school, the only friends she tended to have were the ones that lived in the general area of her house. She never saw much of her parents when growing up, instead thrown into the hands of a young and inexperienced nanny, she often snuck away from the girl when the girl turned her back. this often ended up with Rain in trouble, but she never seemed to care. actually her parents always said the more she was yelled the more she wanted to do it. She spent a good deal of her time outside, mainly to get away from her older brother who was though only three years older then her, had a good deal of height on her. he was a cruel boy, and often picked on his sister, and by the time she was 3 he was pretty much abusing her. for whatever reason he had taken a dislike to his young blonde sister, and he would do whatever was in his power to get in the way of her and whatever made her happy. Which was why she ended up putting distance between her and him.. One of her favorite places seemed to be the next door neighbors house, where she would often sneak to play with the son of her neighbors. The boy was her brother's age, but this never seemed to bother the two, as the two were close friends regardless of age. The boy's name was Deangelo, and since he wasn't allowed out much she often would go to him. They lived next door to one another, sharing a fence, but there was a gap of some-sort and she would shimmy her way through it. actually this is how she met him the first time, having shimmied her way through, when she was only about two or three with intent on exploring the yard, she instead came face to face with a boy. At the time though Deangelo was about 5 or 6, and at that age 3 years is a big difference, and this fact seemed to make him uneasy, a fact she seemed to pick up on. But that never seemed to push her away. Instead she plopped herself next to him, and just starting babbling away, about god knows what, pretty much everything and anything. though she was never pushy with him, never tried to make him talk. this became routine, something she would do when ever she found the time to do so. And her gentle persistence finally paid off when one day, he finally responded. It really didn't take terribly long for the two to develop the bond they were known for. the two were constantly getting into trouble. he was Rain' closest friend, and probably the same went for him about her. There were a few other friends involved, though she tended to have more enemies then friends. another good friend of hers was a boy named Alessandro, though he not important until later he was present through most of her childhood. And despite her roughhousing, tumbling about, play he seemed to be the first to recognize her as a girl. When she was about 11, she started developing a crush on Dean. Something her brother picked up on instantly, and quickly tore her apart over. swearing that all Dean would ever see her as was one of the boys, and he would never see her as anything else. boys preferred real girls not people like her. she started to try and change herself, try and become 'more feminine', not an easy task for her. it was noticed, but not by the right person, Alessandro picked it up. He was only a year older then her, and well one might say he fell for her instantly. Dean never seemed to notice, and when she was about 13 and half, thanks to her brother, she was forced to move away from Dean, and cut all contact with him. She did manage to keep contact with Alessandro though, and through him she tried to keep in contact with Dean. But Alessandro never delivered any of the messages, later when she figured this out and asked him why, he said he was protecting her from getting hurt. By the age of 14, she given up on Dean, well not on Dean himself, but on ever getting to see him again, and she slowly shifted her attention to Alessandro, and not long after this she 'gave herself to him'. their relationship was kinda uneasy at first, him unsure of her, and vice-versa, and therefore it was though never called that, an open relationship, and both had their affairs. But they did care for one another, and they slowly grew closer to one another, and by the time she was 15 ˝ they were 'exclusive'. She fell for him rather hard, though a part of her always cared for Dean, she did love Alessandro, and he knew that. There was no doubt that he loved her, he loved her from the start. But he was wary, knowing what she felt for Dean made him… insecure. And when she was 17, and her brother told Alessandro that she was cheating on him, with Dean, sadly he believed it. the relationship got strained after that, and what had been seemingly prefect suddenly was messed up. he became cold and distant, and Rain had no idea why. she struggled hard to keep the relationship going, but with out knowing what the issue was, she couldn't fix it. Alessandro 'silent suffering' slowly tore him apart, and when Rain ended up pregnant at the age of 19, he snapped. He took off, and never looked back, he never denied the child, but said he wanted nothing to do with it. Rain attempted to get him involved in Angie's life, but the name of the child only seemed to push him further (anyone can tell the girl was named after Dean). And after a few phone-calls from Rain he finally threatened her with idea of harassment, that was the last she heard from him. he had his number changed after that, and she never bothered to figure out what his new one was. her mother didn't take well to the news of her daughter being pregnant, and alone. And blamed her daughter for it, and after a few horrible words thrown back and forth the two avoided each other. She finally 'escaped' her home, and as soon as she did, she looked up Dean's families old gardener, and sought him out, tracked him down to here. |
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