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nadia
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Date Posted: 17:43:06 08/24/03 Sun
I have been having the same recurrent dreams for several years in my childhood. One was that I would find myself in a strange country in the night, with a black evil creature running after my from the sky; the other was that I felt like suffocating with a plastic glass stuck on my mouth and nose; another one, about a very peaceful boy studying in a room and the nature of that young man would remind me of a priest; I would even daydream about children, and being their teacher and their leader; I would often see an immense curtain of golden works and diamonds slowing coming down before my eyes, even with my eyes open. When my family separated, deep in my heart, I knew that someday and somehow, my parents would be able to face each other without hate and resentment. I was only 12, and I uses to do black magic (that is how I used to call my practices). I used to sew two grapes together and eat them up, or cut two paper figures representing my parents and burn them together while praying. Now I can find that every dream I had, was an important phase of my life. Was this a preview of what my life was supposed to be? Later in life, I did find a terrible evil man in a foreign country who made my life more than miserable and almost killed me on several occasions; I did suffer for allergic asthma and I almost went into coma; I did find a very good husband who used to study a lot and he is the kind of person with a golden heart ready to help everybody, just like the young man of my childhood....I did do a lot of baby-sitting because I love children, and I have also been teaching them English for several years.....My parents, after almost 20 years, finally were able to spend time together at family gatherings, with no hate or resentment....So many wishes (considered impossible by other people) have come true with a lot of profound praying. (All this wishes were about the well-being of others, or a solution to impossible situations that were causing pain)WHAT I DO NOT UNDERSTAND IS THE GOLDEN PRECIOUS CURTAIN FALLING SLOWLY BEFORE ME THAT DOES NOT FIND A SPOT IN MY LIFE...IS IT STILL TO COME? WHAT IS ITS MEANING? I AM NOT RICH, AND I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO MONEY AND POWER, SO, THIS IS THE LAST PIECE OF THE PUZZLE. WHERE DOES IT GO? WHAT DOES IT REPRESENT? DOES ANYBODY KNOW IT? I had several premonition dreams in my life, and some strange events happening, but the dilemma is, when do you understand that you dream is a premonition dream or a regular dream that your brain makes up using your fear, hope, desire, frustration, memories etc...how can you tell the difference?
So many things I have said from the bottom of my heart have come true, I could feel the truth within myself without realizing how....and I would just let it do the talking, sometimes, amazing myself too. Could it be the inner universal knowledge that we can all access in time of need? If lots of animal can access the inborn knowledge on everyday bases, we do belong to the animal kingdom, so why shouldn't we be able to do it too? May be we lost the ability to do it! The old saying, "what you don't use, you loose it" could be true. I do believe there is some sort of inborn knowledge we have lost with the development of the human race, I do not know if we will ever be able to get it back. Our outside shell has grown too thick, and the soul has shrunk too much. The soul is the connection to the universe, we almost lost touch with it. Occasionally, we see this "so called" strange phenomena touching a forgotten part of our soul, leaving us shaken because we are not able to understand them anymore! Human beings have chosen to develop the outside shell of their existence, they neglected and forgot their own essence, they can't even recognize themselves anymore...They feel lost... they feel alone....But they still do not like to admit it. They ignore it, hoping that somehow it will go away....I do believe that a backward journey will get us in truck. Everything we are looking for, is inside ourselves, we have to learn to get it from the inside and let it out; May be that is what different religions teach: learn to get in touch with yourself, be aware of life inside and around you. Be aware of the power of love, be aware of how much you can touch other people's life with your love, how much you can get in touch with yourself and with others if you let love fuel you. It is a pity that too many people mishandle religions and they use them to gain control and power over other human beings....We had it all, and we are loosing it all...just like the Genesis said....we used to live in a paradise...but we chosen to ignore it and forgot it for our own greed, selfishness....We have allowed these negative feelings to grow out of hands, and we are all living among these negativeness, we have created an immense poisonous sea that is killing all our souls. As anybody an antidote? Yes, we do, and it is inside each and every one of us. Love is the opposite force, and we have to develop it in order to create balance, a better present and future, for ourselves, and especially for our children. What kind of world are we passing on to them? What kind of values? What kind of dreams? What kind of hopes? What kind of teachings?
DOES ANYBODY UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM SAYING? IS THERE A REASON WHY I AM SENDING THIS MESSAGE? I AM JUST FOLLOWING MY INNER IMPULSE. THIS SEED IN THE FERTILE GROUND, IN THE RIGHT SEASON, WILL GROW INTO A BEAUTIFUL LIFE TREE. I DID MY PART, NOW YOU DO YOURS, AND REMEMBER, EVEN A LITTLE THING, IS A BIG THING; SO MANY LITTLE THINGS BY SO MANY PEOPLE, ARE LIKE SO MANY DROPS OF RAIN: THEY CAN CREATE RIVERS AND OCEANS.
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