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Date Posted: 22:59:23 10/03/03 Fri
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Subject: *Yawns*
I don't know where to begin. You can call me the most maincally depressed person for venting yet again but you know what? I don't give a crap. Oh sorry, can't say that word, it's a cuss word in my school. Seriously. We can't say crap, dork, stupid, shut up, or a bunch of other words. Anyawy, onto more serious, real stuff. I don't know where to begin. How about the volleyball game we lost tonight? That's good. I'm startnig to hurt. 12 sets of parents at the game, 13 kids on the team. Any guesses who's parent wasn't there? Mine. My gosh, it hurts so much, playing my best and trying so hard, and my Mommy and Daddy have to work, and so they can't take me places and be with me to cheer me on, like normal parents. And it hurts. Then I found out my ride couldn't take me home, so I had to ride with the coach. Which was fine, anyway. We went to Steak and Shake, which I love, but I only had three dollers and ten cents, which sucked. I couldn't get a milk shake, I had to order off the kids menu )which I do anyway) and get the cheapest items. I didn't even have enough money then, and had to borrow 11 cents from the coach (I could of ordered a grilled cheese sandwich and had enough, but anyway). Then, we left the resraunt at nine, and I got home around ten fifteen. Which was nice and all, but then Mandy had a talk with me in the car, not a bad talk, a short talk, but anyway, she asked if anything's been said on the court about not getting the ball and stuff, and if that's what was borthering me at pratice. They actually noticed stuff was borthering me? I told her it was other stuff going on in my life, but someone actually notices? Someone actually cares? I mean, I would of never, ever guessed they noticed that I'm borthered. What is it? The depression is coming back. I feel that I'm losing my best friend. I can't talk to her about anything if I complain, she's just like "Awww, I'm sorry." and that DOESN'T HELP ONE STINKIN bit. It's just all GRRR! And she drives me nuts anymore, and I just don't feel right around her. School sucks. I got my report card, and I got an 88 in goverment, a 99.8 in Bio, a 98.7 or something in Spanish II, and a 99. something or a 90 something in Bible, a 99.0 in Pre Alegbra, and who knows in Literaure. But it sucks . My biology grade is going to drop, coz I bombed a quiz and a test, in the same unit, and that's not a good thing really. And I'm just so tired anymore, even when I go to bed early, I can EASILY sleep fifteen, sixteen hours any night, and I don't think that's a good thing. Plus, I've become paranoid anymore, and I'm worried about myself, I don't know what to do, where to go, who to trust. I'm lost, and on my own.
And I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Hold me now...
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