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Date Posted: 15:46:22 07/14/04 Wed
Author: Nikki
Subject: Re: My story
In reply to: Revidescent 's message, "My story" on 23:31:24 07/11/04 Sun

I was reading your story, and I really understand where you are coming from.
I am in a relationship almost identical to yours. Perhaps that is why I love L&D and much as I do, because I see it and I see my life. It was actually weird to see your story and how I ask the same things to myself that you do as well. I am neither gay nor bi, but to the world I am one or the other. My heart goes out to you and I am glad that you have/are finding love again.
My relationship is still behind closed doors, best friends who fell into being lovers, and in a sense you could say I am waiting for it to crash down in my face. None of these types of stories ever really end well, do they?
I am 19 now [she 24], we went when I was 15. We carried on an internet friendship. When we met in person when I was 17, it was a perfect meeting. It felt like we had known each other all our life. We were always really affectionate, although at that time in an innocent way. I like to cuddle and snuggle and I would kiss her cheek. While at night, sleeping together, we ended up kissing and I've kissed my share of people in my life--I never felt anything until my very first kiss with her. She lived in NY, I lived in FL. Going home I kept wondering what I was. Am I gay? I don't like other women. And if I don't like other women, then I'm not bi? What am I?
Her family is extremely religious and old fashioned. If her family ever knew, I think she would die. She is also very Christian, and we all know what the Bible thinks of homosexuality/homosexual acts. It's difficult for her and difficult for me. I love her so much and I can't be the one to just end it. I think I would literally die having only suffered rejection all my life by the ones who are supposed to love me.
The hardest thing about it is that I als carry this story around with me, and who could I tell? I only have one friend in the whole world and that's my "girlfriend." I don't talk to anyone else.
Anyway, I just wanted to say I can relate and understand your past situation. I think we all have holes inside us, and the things we think will fix them don't always. But if this is something that you need to talk about, the best place is to start with your boyfriend.

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