| Subject: Re: I want to die now~~ |
Author:
kristen
| [ Next Thread |
Previous Thread |
Next Message |
Previous Message
]
Date Posted: 07:35:57 05/28/04 Fri
In reply to:
soongone
's message, "Re: I want to die now~~" on 17:05:35 05/04/04 Tue
>to sleep is good, death is better, but the best is to
>have never been born.If i could sleep i would, i would. instead i am lazy at all other times, i refuse to capitalize my letters, i want to have a vacation from the must do's. i grind my teeth constantly, or clench them. i tell myself to stop, lost my 3 kids to a good liar and his impulsive adopted family thinking it was safe to trust that after he fucked up atleast i would have time to heal, 3 years later my heart beats, but my brain is dead, if it is alive then it is destrucively consumed, yeah? chicken? wish it was a simple wish, stop making me crazy, just slam the miracle of death on me like you did life damnit, i am tired of trying to make myself come to terms, and forgive those who are responsible, and yes, some of us are destined to die this way, and some of us are not, but when you are already dead and just walking around wishing a bus would run you over and diminish you, why would the chicken ass thought of doing yourself be so miserable? because if we could drive the bus, we would. but nobody else understands that without that maybe we just need to go away, and our final destination is late running our crazy unhealable minds over.
[
Next Thread |
Previous Thread |
Next Message |
Previous Message
] |
|
Feedback: 