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Date Posted: 05:00:57 09/19/04 Sun
>I think he is right, no one cares, about how you or I
>or anybody else feels. I have asked may questions and
>have been given nothing but lies for answers. I was a
>person that went to church every time the doors were
>open, and the bible says if you ask you will recieve.
>Well I ask and got nothing. This only supports the way
>I feel about God, because if there is one lie in a
>book then the whole book is fiction. I was a beliver,
>now I don't, things are still the same, and I have
>heard the same crap from people, that God will answer
>in his own time, well it does not say that in the
>bible I read, so I wonder, do Christians just make up
>crap to support their beliefs, and just forget about
>the real truth. I don't know, and I will be honest the
>only reason I have not killed myself is so my two sons
>can finish colledge, then I will blow my brains out
>with the shot gun I bought for this one purpose. I
>have had to work all my life, and have worked two jobs
>(88 hours a week) just to make ends meet. So the
>sooner the get out the sooner I can end it. I am 49 so
>I know what your going through, and I feel you pain,
>the only thing I can saay is if you don't have a
>reason to live then stop, don't screw around do it,
>and do it right. From what you have said I don't think
>you want to die, you just want someone to take care of
>you. If this is true forget it, there is only one
>person, or thing you can count on, and that is
>yourself. Take care of your needs and to hell with
>everone else.
-----------You say that you can only rely on yourself and to only take care of yourself and to hell with everyone else, but yet you say you are living for your children right now so that does not seem to be the case. You take care of others and they are relying on you so your life isn't worthless. If you hate your life and hate working 88 hours a week get a new fucking job. Quit complaining and get a new damn job perhaps then you won't kill yourself; Also go on a vacation. You may say you can't afford it, but hell you probably have some old shit you can sell out of your belongings and just bum around for awhile. If you work too many hours or no hours for too long, you are bound to destroy yourself, so try to find a job that pays enough on 40 hours a week. If you can't pay your bills based on that then perhaps you need to downsize your house and possessions and worry more about your own physical and spiritual help and fun than with working 88 hours a week to maintain paying all those bills. If it's your children's education that is causing you to have to work so many hours, then make your kids get loans and pay back their loans when they get a job or make your kids go to a public university where the government pays for 80% of the tuition. Many of the public universities are very good. E.g. University of Texas, University of Florida, University of Michigan. Chill out, work less, go on vacation, sell unwanted things, quit paying for shit your kids can pay for, and get a new job. Change = a reason to live. As far as God goes, studies show that prayers for people who don't even know they are being prayed for help people heal about 10% faster than the UNPRAYED FOR group but that is about it. Thus, I think that God might help a tiny little bit every once in awhile but that is it. He may not help at all, perhaps the only blessing he has given you is free will and life, but these two blessings are worth exploring further rather than wasting your life working 88 hours a week at jobs you obviously don't enjoy. By the way, I doubt your kids give a shit about how many hours you work as compared to how much love you show them. If you work alot of hours but treat you kids like shit, they will not love you, but if you work a few hours, but treat your kids with alot of love they will love you.
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>>>>>There is nothing to live f
>or. I want to die but I'm
>>>>even too chicken to do it. I tried to die in a car
>>>>crash but I didn't even get hurt bad. I hate my
>>life,
>>>>Help me die
>>>I feel like you, I really want to die; I've tried
>many
>>>times and only ended up in hospitals.
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>>there is many ways to take your life but the best way
>>is to suffer through it and go when its your time then
>>u wont have to do it again besides noone fuckin cares
>>anyway so if u do wack yourself there will be onone to
>>care we all go through life and all we have is our few
>>family members and may be some friends if were lucky
>>so we try to do the best by them and then u realize
>>they dont care either
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