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Subject: Re: I want to die now~~

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Theonlywaytohealthepainistouseitalltodie

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Date Posted: 03:53:17 09/01/04 Wed
In reply to: pat 's message, "Re: I want to die now~~" on 07:42:47 02/04/04 Wed

>>There is nothing to live for. I want to die but I'm
>even too chicken to do it. I tried to die in a car
>crash but I didn't even get hurt bad. I hate my life,
>Help me die

My Father died when I was five. I watched my mom cry herself to sleep. nothing good ever happends to me. My mother drinks until she pukes on the floor. I have to clean it up. I am alone. Nobody's there for me. I have a couple friends but i cant talk to them about anything. they dont understand. People I've never even talked to hate me and want me to die. I cut my wrists so the pain goes away, my mom saw them. And she screamed at me. My sister got in a car accident with her friends, she's still in the hospital. my whole family wants me to become something I'm not. I got in a fight with someone, and got picked up by the cops my mother picked me up from the police station. I want to be a singer of a band. It wont happen. I don't want to continue my life, if I know nothing good is ever going to happen. I actually thought my dreams would come true. But I based my life on dreams. MY WHOLE PATHETIC FUCKING LIFE THE ONLY THING TO LOOK FORWARD TO WONT EVEN FUCKING HAPPEN. I'm an imsomniac, I cant goto sleep, because that's when all my memories come back to me. They keep me awake. It's like when you were little and you thought there was a monster under your bed ...except you know its there, and it always will be. It will never go away. Why live longer if nothing ever gets better. I could drown in the tears. Nobody cares for me. But I fear dieing, because i beleieve that heaven is a lie.... If there was a god why cant he help me.....WHY HASN'T HE HELPED US. because he was never there. I don't beleive...hate me if I don't. But you can see for youself, stand out in a field in a lightning storm scream, god save me. See if he helps you then. You wont make it back home. The scars will stay. theres nothing more to live for. The only way for me to finally get closure is to die. The person I love the most, never loved me and never will.

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Author:
The Final Cut
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Date Posted: 04:03:35 09/01/04 Wed

I sacrificed everything
just to make you smile for once
but you will never be happy
and you will never be mine
When I realized this
I screamed for the last time
I choked
on the blood in my throat
once the crimson tear fell from your eye
i couldn't stand it
I was to numb to cry
the pain devoured my soul
you wash away all the memories
with all of your tears
I lie awake wondering what went wrong
I lie awake wondering how did this get so far

my eyes cry out stronger than the words
I burn all the memories afriad to fall in love all over again
If It caused all this pain I dont want it anymore
The broken pictures remain in my head
leave me now
please leave me now
this guilt will always stay
as I blame myself it all gets worse
so I throw it all away
you will never knwo how much I love you
how I suffer endlessly
as I take the knife and pull it closer
the world is fadeing finally
the blood surounds her
carved on the walls as she will never be
the death of one person
no one gave the chance to see