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Subject: about resistance

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k

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Date Posted: 22:01:14 11/08/04 Mon
In reply to: k 's message, "the experience of enjoying "wanting more"" on 21:51:50 11/08/04 Mon

Suzanne
i so felt your love on sunday. it felt so good! It is indicative of what a lie the idea that we dont fundamentally just all love one another is!
I mean really, Suzanne, i want to share with you that i am learning already through knowing you.
For me, when i was feeling insecure and in doubt of love, I made you out to be the new girl that was totally replacing me, better for this reason or that one minute, and then I was better for this whole other list of reasons, and then it was back and forth and back and forth in my head this comparison thing! And all through it i was just full of suffering. I was giving nothing. I was sucking all. I was trippin! So anyway, it is just so funny how we swing so far in one direction and then so far in another as human beings.
I must be a pendulum. I feel like one. When i just let myself have what i want, like more sex, which is what i wanted last week, i become so nice and happy. The path of resistance and listening to it, buying into it, took me to the point where i was asking the 2.5 year old I nanny for to lie on me so that i could feel another human being. I needed to feel someone so desperately! I was going crazy. But i still would not ask anyone for a date.
And then finally i HAD to. I just plain had to. So these kinds of experiences i want to share about here because they must happen to other women too right? I mean i know i am not living there, so maybe i have more opportunity for listening to my resistance, but hey, we are really all the same so i just had to share this.
K

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Subject	Author	Date
Uh-huh	Suz	16:21:49 11/09/04 Tue