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Subject: Roller coaster....of love

Author:
A.J.

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Date Posted: 22:17:31 04/27/04 Tue

so the roller coaster continued today.

relationships among people at my client are melting down. this means that the need and opportunity for my helping them gets bigger. that feels good. it felt good to help them today.

it also means that i have a 6am scheduled call.

i'm starting to feel the effects of not sleeping, and of not doing a little more of my homework before going out to play. to make that concrete, i owe my client a proposal by tomorrow am. instead of working on it at noon when i had time, i played with Susan and Lucy. that was fun!

i also handled a doctor appointment that had been set for Thursday, so i got to find out sooner that i'm healthy and a minor concern i had is resolved.

we had a great family visit to a homeopath today. this is a big step forward for us in terms of having a unified family approach to medicine and health. when we first had lucy, susan and i used to argue about lucy's health and treatment, with my being more on the naturopathic tip. but after several bad experiences with antibiotics in the last 3 years, susan is more interested in alternatives and we met a great practitioner in marin today.

OK, fast forward to tonight, where we pick up the thread of our story:
1 - i have this proposal due
2 - i'm fucking wiped from staying up dealing with my friend's deal in India
3 - i am trying to wrap up my time with susan and lucy to get home, write the proposal, and crash.

BLAM, susan and i wind up in this huge argument over [insert insignificant detail here]. it's brutal. i leave their apartment so angry.

my cell rings. lucy is crying. i already heard her crying when i left, but i didn't go back.

she wants me to come back. each night she gives me a little object to take home with me, then i bring it back the next day. i did not take the object we agreed on tonight. i go back for it.

i sit down, cool off. susan and i try to patch it up a bit. you know something, right now as i sit here and write this, i'm thinking

a - spirituality is an ass-kicker. there's no fucking quarter for me when i want to be right. it's excruciating.

and

b - i'm really glad i'm not still married to Susan. actually, i am. we need to get the divorce rolling.

ok, i'm fried.

g night.
i'm going to tell my client i'm running late on the proposal.
fuck life
aj

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Subject	Author	Date
Sleep less, party more	Robert	23:30:27 04/27/04 Tue