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Date Posted: 21:33:53 09/12/04 Sun
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's message, "I Hate Myself" on 19:15:13 09/12/04 Sun
>Hey guys, I know I haven't been around too much
>lately. I've been really busy with school. I've
>decided that the bullshit ends here, tomorrow starts
>2468 and that's it, no cheating, no fucking it up, no
>temptation, no anything. I hate myself so much, I just
>can't handle being fat like this anymore, I feel so
>disgusting everyday. It's time to stop being so
>passive and whining and actually get serious and do
>something. And sorry if I sound so angry and pissed,
>it's just that I really hate myself and I'm sick of
>this. The only positive thing is that I haven't purged
>in forever (from being in school), but that's only
>tricking myself because regardless of whether or not I
>can purge, I still want to. Either way, no more of
>this bullshit. Wish me luck.
hey, i just wanted to say you shouldnt hate yourself so much-- you're a good person!! even though it's difficult to believe....it is for me too....trust me, everybody gets off track sometimes- everyone! especially through stress...that's one of the main reasons people slip up....with school just starting up, it's understandable.....i just finished reading this book "food and loathing"... it's about this girl who is COE....and she was so obsessed about following the guidelines of her OA meetings, that everytime she went off the program she felt totally worthless and depressed- (kinda reminds me of us with ana/mia)...- her thinking was so cloudy that she even attempted suicide at one point.....but to everyone else she was the nicest, funniest, friendliest person....just a reminder that you are still you no matter what you're eating(or not eating) ....other people see us as more as a number on the scale, even though it's difficult to believe! im pretty much struggling from the same thing- i find it so SO difficult to love myself-- just remember that others do love you! that includes all of us =)
but good luck on the 2468 if that's what you want to do...i hope i could cheer you up a little
take care (ive been there hun!)
PS....congrats on the no purging!
~jane~
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