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Almost nothing a couple of the guys do there goes UNnoticed by you-they get praise galore from you, often while you ignore my posts to you. You've singled them out for special attention so often that other people have talked about it. And at the same time the different way you've treated me has also been noticed by others. When you asked me to tell everyone what you sent me (you seeking attention, as usual) I told her everyone, doing as you asked, as usual.
I also thanked you profusely and told you I'd cherish those campaign buttons-something you'd promised me for well over a year, something I was very happy to get.
Having done as you asked, having thanked you very much and shown you and everyone how grateful I was...what was your reply to all of that?

You replied that I had FORGOTTEN to mention one thing! Like a fool, I apologized and thanked you for that, too. You made no further reply. THREE people contacted me and told me in one way or another that I let YOU make me look like a fool. It wasn't lost on them that the whole reason you asked me to tell everyone was that you wanted attention and the fact that you only pointed out one thing I forgot and said NOTHING else proved that. Not even a 'You're welcome, Bob'. Nothing. Nada.

It was just another embarassment for me at my BB, another time my 'best friend' made it plain that all she wanted was attention at my expense like the PTSD thing when suddenly all of my help with PTSD no longer existed for the sake of YOUR drama-but when my gift to you arrived you never said one word about it at the BB. But I didn't put you on the spot by asking you publicly to tell everyone, which is also another way of asking for another 'thank you', too. You've done the same as I've done, but naturally you never notice that when you're mad and trying to find 'weird' things about me to write about.

You also occasionally embarassed yourself, as for example recently when John praised the way I ran the BB and someone seconded it and thanked you, too and you posted a post blowing your own horn right there in the middle of an attaboy to me. I had to chuckle because I've always known youre just like the rest of us normal human beings who appreciate being appreciated even though you try to act like you don't need such silly things.

But I grew tired of praising you and rarely getting any sign that you even read it, let alone appreciated it-it became one more embarassment from you at my BB. I have thanked you so many times for your humor threads, to give just one example, only to never see or hear from you that you even noticed. But your taking me for granted is nothing new, it's been one of the most regular 'feature's of our relationship, whether we're talking about my thank yous, my gifts to you, my standing up for you, my helping you or you and dan, my trying to help, my being there when you needed me, my help at your BB, etc etc etc.

Back when we were getting along great I wasn't complaining about how you treated me at the BB, but you've conveniently forgotten that, too. Now, to hear you tell it our entire relationship has been nothing but trouble-I hate people who do that when a relationship ends badly, revising everything to fit their current mood, what dishonest bullshit.
Sometime after the BB gift and the newness of my BB died down you started acting like I was invisible there-I didn't know why but I suspected it had something to do with the WTFer battles at my BB and Tweety. I did start complaining because it hurt.

Hell, I risked my BB fighting for you, fighting to keep the people who hated you from chasing you off of my BB. You don't ever mention that anymore. You practically ignored me for a solid month, ignoring even posts I made when things were bad at the BB and I was looking for some support and even you, MY BEST FRIEND wasn't giving much of that to me. You rarely replied to me no matter what I posted and when you did they were the most barren of replies ever. Blatently so, not a smiley in sight tho you were giving others laughing smilies and salutes all the time.

Then one fine day I posted something funny and you actually praised it and gave me a salute! Wow! The first from you in a month, I couldn't believe it, I was the equal of all your other friends for a change. And then, ONE MINUTE later you replied to a short poem of you-know-whos and said to him, 'another masterpiece by william the great' and you gave him TWO salutes!! LOL!
God, the games you played with people, especially me. The first time you'd given me ONE salute in a month and a minute later you made one salute seem 'average' by giving someone else TWO of them, a first for you! And, of course, it would be HIM, the man with the crush on you that you 'never encouraged'. LOL, right.

When about five of us vets responded to your dramatic PTSD plea you thanked all of us in one post. And in another 'perfect' bobbi-to-bob touch I saw that everyone else was thanked 'for helping' you-me?
I was thanked 'for trying to help'-right, of the five guys there ONLY I HAD ACTUALLY HELPED AND TRIED TO HELP MANY TIMES, BUT that was how you put it, right there on my BB, once again minimizing me, while making more out of less when other guys were involved. Jesus Christ, you really know how to hurt a guy.

You've done that so often, making a bigger deal out of someone who seconded a thank you post from me to you than you did about me and my original post.
You took me for granted so often it became a way of life for you. We'd have battles with the WTF and I fought harder for you than anyone, ten times harder-but you'd make a big deal about one of the other vets saying nothing more than that he was on our side, or that he agreed with you about one thing! THAT got to you more than anything I did.
What I always did in those situations had become a 'given' to you, which would be okay, if you noticed it when you were handing out thank yous and praise to the others who did much less.
Geez, what a piece of work you are, best friend. I got so sick and tired of being treated like I was either invisible or not quite as good as others there by my best friend. Yes, sometimes you'd treat me like I was special for a day or so, but more often than not a few of the other guys got more of your attention, more of your affection, etc. Once in awhile one of them got FAR MORE than anything I had gotten from you in eons-and you never seemed to really care that that hurt like hell.

And so it goes and went, my BB which was the natural descendent of the old BB where we first met and where we found we had so much in common and became close friends..and all the other things that happened. The early battles, the later ones, the birth of my BB and then, later our own battles.
You never understood how important the BB was to me, how important our relationship there was-well, you acted like you never understood it, but I think you did-it was just another case of you not wanting to do anything accept what you wanted to do-you don't naturally do things for other people unless it happens to coincide with what you wanted to do, not even for best friends.
When I mattered to you a lot, it always showed at the BB-when I didn't matter, that showed, too-but you'd either not explain it at all or give me excuses-the wtf was watching,you 'didn't want to pour fuel on their fire', t***** was around, you are married and can't say things like that, etc-but then you'd show me that was BS by the way you treated other guys, other guys who were also married and I knew damn well that the wtf and t***** never made you do anything you didn't want to do already.

And since l know that about you, that YOU only do what YOU want to do (one thing I've learned over and over again) it makes all of your talk about giving me your time '24/7' more self-serving malarky, as if it was something you gave me, some hardship you endured for my benefit, etc.
First of all, it wasn't 24/7, it was 24/7 in a sense way back when, but it hasn't been '24/7' since around late October of 2003. But even when it was a lot of your time you gave it because that's what YOU wanted to do, as you know darn well. Do you think I don't know that?

When we played games together you started them 95% of the time and you decided when they were over 100% of the time. Chats were the same, tho there were a few times when for a short while I actually had a chance to start some of those-but mostly chats, too were under your control.

When you wanted me in your life I was there, Bobbi-whether it was '24/7' or far less-but let's not kid ourselves YOU called the tunes, I danced to them-and Im not complaining other than the fact that I rarely could do the same, when we got along great I appreciated your being there, even if most of the time the time was of your choosing, not mine. But now, making it look like you were being Mother Theresa and giving me so much of your time as if you felt sorry for me or it was some huge burden on you is another revision of history. You were there because then you wanted to be, just as I was, period.

And I appreciated it and said so and showed it often. Back then we chatted online and on the phone, sent ecards to each other, music greeting cards, called each other pet names, treated each other well on the BB and we were happy far more often than not. We WERE truly BEST FRIENDS back then and I wasn't complaining because there was nothing to complain about and no doubt in my mind about how you felt about me. We had a lot of good times.
But now you think I changed all of that-or you act that way anyway, but I think you know better- YOU changed all of that, not me. I didn't start worrying and wondering and later, complaining until you made it plain that things were changing at the BB and elsewhere and as usual you didn't warn me or explain it honestly, either.

No, suddenly I wasn't so special anywhere, just the opposite more often. Suddenly I wasn't worth looking at, my BB gift wasn't worth sending, my posts to you weren't good enough to reply to much, your Yahoo was turned off almost all the time, pet names from you were fading away, I'd send an ecard but you wouldn't, etc etc. We've gone through this before, bobbi-but it's always been YOU changing things and me finding out the hard way and having to wonder what it really means-and that's no way to run a friendship-but it's the way YOU'VE RUN THIS ONE. And now, you've finally run it to the ground, ruined it and true to form you've once again ignored all that YOU did, all the changes YOU made and blamed it all on me.
Whatever, dude-we aren't going to go through this viscious cycle again, thats for sure-at least THAT is ONE thing I do have a SAY in.-bob, who won't be lulled into trying again since YOU would just start the cycle all over again and I'm through being a distraction for you that is taken for granted and then tossed overboard when i dare to say ouch after you've walked all over me once again

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